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I never expected the next chapter, my poem, to be this way.

My future dream, where did we go wrong? Why did you walk away?

I am led astray; can I even make it through this day?

Why is it that my love is the only thing that ever stays?

My love is not just feelings, it is a lifelong commitment.

So hearing the hurtful words you told me, was our love just my imagination — nothing more than a figment?

It seems my dream will always be a dream,

and it will never ever come true.

My future dream, it's you, it seems that our time is due.

Thank you for the memories and for letting me love you unconditionally.

Thank you for accepting and loving me wholeheartedly.

I release you like leaves carried by the wind, and let God decide if there will once again be a you and me.

As my final act of love, I'm now setting you free.

So to my future dream that came true,

To my future dream that was named you,

For all I am and all I feel, in this poem I imbue.

I love you, I do; but now, my future dream, I must bid you adieu.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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There are times when I can feel your ghost, times when I'm lovesick.

Days when I miss you most; feels like days pass by when it's just a single clock tick.

Despite my travels, I can't boast, for in my mind, you stick like a silly magic trick.

As I go from coast to coast, can't help but think, "why is cupid such a prick?"

What was I made for? Was I made for loving you?

My heart, apart I tore; what for? Is it a necessary thing to do?

What does the future have in store? Heartbreak or a love undeniably true?

One step forward, two steps more. Three steps backward now I'm on all fours. I come crawling back to your door; is this part of me healing too?

The future plans I drew, shall I mark as obsolete?

Plans that barely got started, not even halfway complete.

Now I'm starting anew for I'm finally back on my feet.

No longer brokenhearted; unafraid of treading paths barely lit.

Cause in this life full of many chapters, defeats prepare me for a victory none greater.

All these crumpled love letters, a mere training for when I meet my significant other.

Cause for better and for worse, for richer and for poorer, in sickness and in health, till death do us part.

So for my lover, one more verse; I promise to love her and hold her, with faithfulness that's always felt, till my last breath, she'll have my heart.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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This is Poem number 205. I never thought this hobby of mine would still be alive.

Now I can't find rhymes I've never used before no matter how hard I strive.

Did I already reach my peak, am I starting to take a nosedive?

Will I find something new once I'm done waiting; once my other half finally arrives?

I still remember every person I once wrote poems for.

I was left heartbroken for they all closed the door.

I was dumbfounded every time, swore I'm done with love as I was crying on the floor.

But I was proven wrong time and time again as I kept on giving more; found new lessons that got embedded into my very core.

There were times I thought, what if I got amnesia and forgot everything I ever knew?

I'll be rid of all the heartbreaks and the lessons that came with it too.

I'll be able to forget these poems, these rhymes, and then finally start anew.

But that would have been saying that these feelings of mine weren't true; forgetting feels like parts of me, in the garbage can I threw.

I am who I am today, thanks to all of you.

Amnesia? No, thank you. I'll keep on going and see where my great capacity for love leads to.

Be it defeat or triumph, I'll go and see it through.

Keep taking the risk, that I'll do, so I'll have no regrets when my time is due.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Mahaba-habang biyahe na naman ang tatahakin bago makauwi sa'king tahanan.

Walang hanggang desyerto ang tanawin habang nakadungaw sa bintana sa'king kanan.

Kailan kaya makakamit ang mga pangarap, matutupad ba ang mga ito dito sa Gitnang silangan?

Ako'y nagdarasal at humihiling; nag-aantay ng sagot sa mga katanungan.

Lumipad ng ibang bansa, at iniwanan ang aking lupang sinilangan

Sapagkat 'di sapat ang pagmamahal sa sariling bayan upang makamit ang mga pangarap kong hanggang kalawakan.

Ako ba'y isang gahaman kung ang nais ko lamang ay kayamanan?

Ang kayamanang pinakaaasam-asam, walang iba kung 'di ang tunay na kasiyahan.

Ano nga ba ang magbibigay sa akin ng di magmamaliw na kagalakan?

Ito ba'y pera, sasakyan, bahay at lupa, o magandang kalusugan?

Isang kabiyak na makakasama ko sa biyahe ng buhay hanggang sa kamatayan?

Hindi ko mawari kung ano, kailan nga ba ako maliliwanagan?

Saan nga ba pupunta, saan ba ang aking patutunguhan?

Ang kasaguta'y 'di muna kailangan, ako'y mag-aantay na lang nang may katapatan.

Alam kong tapos na ang walang hanggang biyahe at makakangiti na nang walang kasinungalingan,

Pag dumating ang panahon na ikaw ay akin nang mahagkan at masilayan.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Truly fascinating, that is the color spectrum.

Galaxies, with bright lights they bring; the stars in the sky and the kyber crystals of Ilum.

Light that shuts out the darkness — a magical "Expecto Patronum!"

Generating a subtle warmness — life, lasting for thousands of millenium.

It's been a long time since a poem I have written.

You can even argue that poetry is a skill I've forgotten.

I don't know what I'm doing; there's no direction, no meaning.

The different colors I'm feeling, all jumbled up — I see black; nothing.

But now that black is all that remains, I can finally remove my facade.

There's no need to keep on smiling even when I just want to feel sad.

While there are no eyes that pry, I can finally start to cry.

There's no need for me to try holding back the tears that want to run dry.

So you see, the color spectrum is something everyone can relate to.

Be it the highs, the lows, or in between the two.

New dimensions open up when we learn to stay true.

Beyond the known spectrum, a unique color tailored for me and you.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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K ung pagbibigyan ng isang hiling, ito'y habang-buhay na makasama ka.

I to lamang aking hihilingin sa ating Panginoon na may gawa

S a dami ng pwedeng hiling, alam mo ba kung bakit ito pa?

S a dami ng pwedeng hingin, ito'y dahil mahal kang talaga.

E pektibo kaya ang mga tulang ito sa pagpaparamdam ng pagmamahal ko?

S apat kaya ang mga gawang ito para maramdaman mo ang yakap ko?

D istansiya sana'y wakasan ng pagmamahalan nating totoo.

E ksenang pinapangarap ko ay ang marinig sa altar ng simbahan ang iyong oo.

L ahat ng mga pangarap ko'y nag-iba nang ikaw ay aking makilala.

O ras na ikaw ay aking kapiling, bakit nga ba bitin na bitin pa?

S a ilang buwan nating nagkasama, kakaibang sayang sa 23 tao'y 'di nadama.

S ana ang "tayo" ay pagbigyan, bigyang basbas ng Diyos Ama hanggang tayo'y kunin niya na.

A ng mga matatamis na halik kung saan pangalan mo'y hinango

N gayo'y napanindigan na ng mga halik at yakap mong klarong-klaro.

T unay ngang makapangyarihan ang panalangin nating mga tao.

O mahal ko, o Kisses ko, biruin mo, sa laki ng mundo, tayo'y dalawang beses pilit pinagtagpo.

S a sobrang dami ng hiling ko, lahat sa iyo'y sumakto; ikaw ang mahal ko, basahin mo ang pangalan mo.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Kung tutuusin, ako'y isang taong, sa paulit-ulit ay mabilis magsawa.

Ngunit sa iyo'y kakaiba, sa aki'y ano nga ba ang iyong ginawa?

Ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo, talaga nama'y maituturing na mahiwaga.

Sapagkat 'di nagsasawang ika'y pagmasdan, O aking bituin sa hilaga.

Mahiwaga, ako'y naging mistulang kabayo, sa harap lamang nakatingin.

Sa iyo lamang nakaharap, pangarap natin ang aking tanging mithiin.

Ang kabayo sa disyerto, kakayod ng dalawang-daang porsiyento

Para mabigyan ka ng magandang buhay hanggang paghinga nati'y huminto.

Mahal, sana'y naipaparamdam ko sa iyo ang mahiwaga kong pag-ibig.

Ang pag-ibig na di nagpapapigil, gaya lang ng rumaragasang tubig.

Parang apoy na naglalagablab na nangtutunaw bawat titig

At banayad na simoy ng hanging nagdadala ng magagandang himig.

Kaya mahal ko, tandaan mong ikaw ang aking hiwaga.

Sa iyo kailanma'y hinding-hindi ako mauubusan ng tiyaga.

Aantayin kitang walang sawa dahil sa iyo'y buo ang tiwala.

Aantayin ang iyong pagbabalik sa piling ko, o aking tala.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Alam mo bang ako ay may tinatagong mga munting lihim?

Mga bagay na hindi ko masabi; dating nananatili sa dilim,

Ngayo'y nag-uumapaw mula sa karagatang pinakamalalim.

Isinulat na sa tula, wala na ngang mas mataimtim.

Alam mo bang ikaw ang hinahanap at ninanais ko sa tuwina?

Ikaw lang ang siyang nagbibigay sigla sa mundo kong wala nang gana.

Ang tanging nagpapalakas sa pusong nanlulumo't nanghihina.

Ikaw, o sinta, ang tanglaw na nag-iiwas sa'kin sa sakuna.

O giliw, Hiraeth, alam mo bang ikaw ang aking Hiraya?

Hiraya Manawari, kung sakali'y di masusukat ang saya.

Kung kasalanan ang ika'y ibigin, ayos lang makulong at 'di makalaya.

Sapagkat 'pag kapiling ka'y nasa'kin na ang pinakamagandang biyaya.

Mahal, alam mo bang marami pang kulang sa mga sinabi kong ito?

Sana'y pagbigyan mo; dinggin ang pagmamahal kong totoo.

At sa pagtatapos ng tulang inaalay ko lamang para sa iyo,

Tandaan mong sa'yo lang ako naging ganito; ako'y sa'yo lamang narahuyo.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Alas singko, palubog na araw; ang kalangita'y muling kulay kahel.

Sa mundong 'to, ang hanap ay ikaw; ang kinahuhumalingan kong anghel.

Iniisip kung talagang tapos na, sa buhay mo'y wala na bang papel?

Akong isang mortal na mahina, di ba abot ang iyong lebel?

Sa paglipat ng aking kamay sa susunod na mga pahina,

Sa kwento ng aking buhay, alam mo bang ikaw ang paboritong kabanata?

At habang patuloy kong binabasa ang kwentong isinulat ng tadhana,

Ang nais ng yaring puso? Pangalan mo'y muling makita sa susunod na mga talata.

Sapagkat sa kwentong ito'y iisa lamang ang iyong palayaw.

Ikaw, at mananatiling ikaw, ang pinakatangi-tangi kong dilaw.

Sa'yo ko pinipiling ibuhos ang pagmamahal kong nag-uumapaw.

Ikaw, aking dilaw, ang nagbibigay ilaw sa araw-araw.

Kaya hangga't ako'y may nakikitang kahel na langit tuwing dapit-hapon,

Di maiinip sa paghihintay kahit lumipas man ang ilang taon.

Dahil alam kong kahit 'di man sa ngayon, ay darating ang panahon

Na ang pagmamahala'y uusbong tulad nang kahapon.

At sa bagong pagkakataon, di na magigiba ang pundasyon

Sapagkat tayo'y pinag-isa na muli ng Panginoon.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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"Strangely Familiar; a familiar stranger"

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"Strangely Familiar; a familiar stranger"

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Here I am in the metro, riding this familiar train.

Back to seeing these familiar sights, but now with the experiences I hoped to gain.

I'm back in a familiar country, yet I feel that something is definitely strange.

Is it me? Is it this place? Or maybe it's the both of us that the years have changed?

There's something eerily familiar, yet strange at the same time.

Maybe because of a farewell, due to an obstacle we couldn't climb.

But you know what, there's beauty in accepting that everything's bound for a goodbye.

There's beauty in letting go, and in not asking the reasons why.

Familiar? Strange? Everything's supposed to change anyway.

We can never relive a moment, not even a single day.

So no matter how messy our current lives may be,

Remember that the sights that we currently see, albeit different, tailored for you and me.

So to my favorite stranger, I pray that we'll both change for the better.

Thank you for the memories, the lessons, the love, and the pain altogether.

May we be guided by God's will, as our faith in Him grows stronger.

Till our paths cross once again, farewell; Love, a familiar stranger.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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They say that the hardest battle is a battle with oneself.

That may be true, for I can't imagine fighting myself.

When fighting oneself, you'd have to consider fighting a war buck naked.

All vulnerabilities exposed; a battle of attrition till you're jaded.

It's hard to keep the faith when you've been bombarded by rejections.

What more do you need, do you need more introspection?

You'll start to question everything, you might even experience dejection.

The blame, the guilt, and the anger that shows our imperfections.

I no longer know, what is there waiting for me?

More heartbreaks, rejections, failures that will be?

Triumph, a victory, no longer I can see.

An anchor, a wave, a me, drowing in the sea.

So when you feel the weight of disappointments forced unto your shoulders,

To whom do you run to; the place of resting soldiers?

Your tired and weary heart, desperately clinging to hope.

Body that's heavy, soul trapped in a den of ghouls, hope nonexistent, only an endless mope.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Kumusta? Nakakagulat nga naman ang bilis ng panahon.
Tandang tanda ko pa yung una nating pagkikita, na para lamang bang kahapon.
Tandang tanda ko pa ang kislap ng iyong mga mata, sa aking paglapit bawat pagkakataon.
Pati na rin ang huli nating pagsasama, pagtapos ng dapit-hapon.

Alam mo bang, sa hinaharap, ako'y tila ba sabik na sabik?
Dala ang aking mga salitang binitawan, na sa iyong piling lamang babalik.
Pinanghahawakan ang mga alaala; ang mga yakap mo't halik.
Inaantay ang panahong, pagmamahalan nati'y hitik na hitik.

Lagi mong tatandaang, ingatan ang iyong sarili.
Lalo pa ngayong wala ako sa tabi mo upang maging haligi.
Tandaan mong mahal na mahal kita, sa'yo ako'y mananatili.
Kahit pa dumating yung panahong, ako'y hindi na ang iyong pinipili.

Kaya kahit gaano kahirap, ako'y patuloy na kakapit.
Kahit hindi man sang-ayon ang panahon, at nag-uumapaw ang sakit.
Aantayin ang araw na ang landas nati'y muling maglalapit.
Sa oras na wala nang hihigit, sa pagmamahalang minsa'y pinilit, ikaw at ako ulit, pagka't sa iyo, kainlanma'y wala namang pumalit.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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You ever feel what it feels like to lose a home?

Just a few days ago, I left my own home.

My home isn't a place, but the people where I belong.

My home's a person, so special, and so without her I ain't strong.

I used to consider places as my home, until I met my own person.

I realized that she loves me for who I am, despite my imperfections.

But like every other person, it seems my home is but another lesson.

Oh, the pain and misery, tell me this is just an illusion.

My home wasn't strong enough to weather the deadly storm that came.

We couldn't make it past, oh indeed, it's such a shame.

It feels like no matter what we did, the outcome would always be the same.

But still, what my heart yearns for, is to rebuild this home, that's my aim.

So while waiting for the time that we can start the repairs,

I'll hold on to the memories, and I'll handle them with care.

The pictures that we hung there, that make my eyes tear every time I stare;

Though it's hard for me to bear, I will keep on repeating my prayers, that when the right time comes, you and me, the perfect pair.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I realized how important it is to see our own reflection.

Being that it makes us see our goodness, despite our own imperfections.

Looking at a mirror shows the uniqueness of every person.

We can see that all have varying quirks, traits, actions, and situations...

However, looking at a mirror can bring endless comparisons.

It is a double-edged sword, that can dull our comprehension.

For if we compare ourselves with others, it can give us negative emotions.

Jealousy, envy, anger, and the like; atrocities that stem from our own dissatisfaction.

So my wish for us all, is to compare us to ourselves yesterday.

Maybe then, we'll see, that we're capable of being better today.

Maybe then, we'll see the peace that lasts and stays.

Maybe then, we'll know, why things have to go a certain way.

So to my dear brothers and sisters, from me, a fellow sinner like you.

May God bless us in all of the things that we do.

May everything that is false be conquered by what is true.

And as we're looking at a mirror, I hope that we can see our uprightness too.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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"Easier said than done; To you O' Lord I run"

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"Easier said than done; To you O' Lord I run"

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I've always really enjoyed singing Our Father.

But now, I realized, that it's indeed the hardest prayer.

Following God's will just keeps on getting harder,

Especially when faced with problems, and you never cease to suffer.

Forgiving those who trespass against us, so difficult indeed;

Especially when they keep on repeating the things that they did.

It doesn't matter how hard you try, you just can't seem to forget,

For the wounds that they gave you; in stone are all set.

My God, please help me; take all the pain away.

Don't lead me down this path; don't let me be astray.

I no longer want my heart to be filled with bitterness.

I just want to move forward; please help your child so powerless.

Please give me courage; please give me unwavering strength

To conquer the laid tracks with difficulties of great length.

Please give me patience and understanding; to stay forever still.

To know that you are God, to be led in accordance to your will.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I used to envy other people, what more can be said?

I used to pity myself while I am lying on my bed.

But now, I'm thinking, this is where my path led.

To write a poem about envy; a feeling of being dead.

We will do everything we can, just to bring other people down.

For our unjust sense of superiority, makes us chase a false crown.

Envy slowly blinds us, until our minds completely drown

In lies and in hypocrisy; now we're the so called clowns.

Envy, oh envy, you are deadly indeed.

Envy, oh envy, why'd you make our eyes bleed.

Envy, dear envy, please leave me, hear my plead.

Envy, deadly envy, I don't want to sprout your seed.

So to everyone who will read this, heed my final warning.

Let's be mindful of the person that we are becoming.

For if envy is all we have, envy will shape our whole being.

And that path will just lead us to more pain, death, and suffering.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Why do we even celebrate a New Year?

Is it because we're about to shed new tears?

Is it because a new year gives us new thrills and fears?

Or is it because a new year means our dreams are getting near?

Saying "Happy new year" when new year isn't happy; not just a greeting, but a wish.

A wish that this new year is when we finally break the leash.

The leash that's binding us from starting anew,

Is the thing that's holding us back; it is something we must first undo.

Like a phoenix, we must rise once more from the ashes.

We must rise above every difficulties and challenges.

Don't mind our wounds, bruises, and all of our scratches,

For it is through these things that we are forged to be our strongest.

So if you feel like you're under immense heat and pressure,

Remember that in forging, there must be heat exposure.

Even broken swords can be reforged in the future.

And like a phoenix rising from the ashes, you'll be rebirthed for sure.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Ngayong gabing mabigat na naman ang nararamdaman,

Hinahanap ang liwanag na dala ng mga tala at buwan.

Ang mga pangarap ng yaring pusong ikaw ang tanging laman,

Ipaglalaban hanggang sa dulo, pagka't mahal ka magpakailanman.

Habang bumabiyahe ay tahimik na pinakikinggan ang "Araw-Araw",

Inaalala ang pangakong kailanma'y sa'yo ay 'di bibitaw.

Kahit patuloy na nasasaktan at ang mundo ko'y gumugunaw,

Ikaw pa 'rin ang pipiliin habang buhay sa mundong ibabaw.

Saan ba ako nagkulang? 'Di mo ba nararamdaman

Ang pag-ibig kong inalay, na sa'yo lang naman nakalaan?

Parang ako'y mahal lamang pagka't ako ang siyang kailangan.

Kailanma'y 'di naging sapat kaya iniiwan sa ere nang luhaan.

Gayunpaman alam kong ang saya ay muling dudungaw.

Mahahanap muli ang sigla pati na rin ang kulay dilaw.

Kahit paulit-ulit pang masaktan, damdamin ko lagi ay malinaw.

Bawat segundo, minuto, o oras na lumilipas, hanggang sa huling hininga, hanggang ang katawan ko ay maagnas, ano mang paghihirap ang aking maranas, ikaw at ikaw lang ang pipiliin ko araw-araw.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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It's been some time since I last wrote a poem this deep.

Only now when my darkness, once again, starting to seep.

All the negativities that were always there piled up to form a heap.

All the seeds that I sow, now full-blown is what I reap.

So if ever my heart stops beating as I sleep tonight,

My only regret is that we couldn't resolve the fight.

If ever I don't reach the beginning of daylight,

My only regret is that my wrongdoings I couldn't right.

For you're the last person I think of before falling asleep.

And you're the dream I want to stay trapped in no matter how deep.

If I wake up without you, I know I'll forever weep.

For without you, this lonely life, I no longer wish to keep.

And so my love, I wish you good night.

I'll be here looking after you so please sleep tight.

To protect you and care for you, I'll use all of my might.

I love you, my angel, know that you're my brightest light...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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K ung alam mo lang na kay tagal kong naghintay.

I lang taon na nangulila sa pagmamahal mong walang kapantay.

S a dinami-rami ng mga taong sa mundo ay nabubuhay,

S a'yo ko lang pala mahahanap ang pag-ibig na tunay.

E lementarya hanggang kolehiyo ngayo'y tapos ko na.

S ubalit ang pagmamahalan natin, ngayon pa lang mag-uumpisa.

D adalhin kita sa lahat ng lugar na gusto mong makita.

E ksplanasyo'y 'di na kailangan, dahil sa akin ika'y mahalaga.

L ahat ng mga tala at bituin susungkitin para sa'yo.

O' sana'y pakinggan ang regalo na tulang ito.

S a lahat ng mga problema, ako ay laging katabi mo.

S andalan mo ako, giliw ko; sabay nating haharapin ang mundo.

A t sa pagtatapos ng aking mahabang tula,

N ais kong ipagtapat sa'yo ang aking tunay na nadarama.

T unay ngang kakaiba ang dulot mong saya at sigla.

O bhetibo ko'y nakamit na, ngayong kaarawan mo'y aaminin ko na.

S ana'y basahin mo ang iyong pangalan sa kaliwa pagkatapos kong sabihin at amining "Mahal Kita"!

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Now that you've seen my darkest parts that are unsightly,

Would you still accept me and love me completely?

I'm ready to beg and plead for you to not leave me,

But I won't blame you if you should decide, to walk away, my baby.

I am far from perfect, I am only human after all.

I've been making lots of mistakes ever since I knew how to crawl.

If my mistakes were to be added, it would be like Burj Khalifa three times tall.

For I know I'm a complete mess, just like a messy street brawl.

So my love, my dream, are you still gonna stay with me

Even if the real me, is someone you don't wish to see?

I know that I hurt you, and left a wound that runs deeply.

But will you still stay by my side, can you answer me clearly?

My love, I'm so sorry, for I know how much I hurt you.

I just hope that you'll be able to forgive me too.

No matter what happens, know that I'll always love you.

And my wish is to hear you say the words "I do".

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I didn't see it coming; this sudden and hidden curveball.

I thought everything was fine for there were no signs after all.

Is it really something that's beyond my control?

Or was I mistaken? Am I the only one to fall?

Just as the distance between us suddenly grew,

So did our hearts, far apart, now broken in two.

The feelings that were shown though genuine and true,

Still lost in the end no matter how many plans I drew.

You're my brightest comet, everglowing from afar.

The one I look up to, though just a passing shooting star.

You're one of the main highlights of my very own memoir.

Just to meet you once more; I'd relive every wound that left a scar.

My darling, sunsets are really beautiful indeed...

But no matter how pretty, in the end; a farewell we must bid.

Night comes after no matter how much we beg and plead,

For only in darkness do we appreciate the light we so badly need.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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They say that the poison and the antidote are two sides of the same coin.

The heads and tails, polar opposites; together do they join.

But I think the same thing applies for the feelings of love and pain.

One cannot exist without the other; in one's absence, there's no sustain.

You must be prepared to get hurt when you start to fall in love

For love is an uncertainty; It's not an easy thing to have.

Though love is often associated and symbolized by a white dove,

There are times when love brings pain, with challenges life brings from above.

You will never know love if you have never felt pain.

Likewise, there's no pain; if love, you do not wish to obtain.

In loving someone, there's a wish, for all their hurt to be slain.

And in great pain, another wish, that is for love to remain.

As light cannot shine brightly without the existing darkness,

Love cannot be seen fully without feeling the loneliness.

Love doesn't come easy, it always comes with sacrifices.

It comes with pain, but above all, it comes with neverending compromises.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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First of all, I want to thank you for being such an amazing dad.

Thank you for being there for us especially when we're sad.

Even though most of the time, you easily get mad.

You're still the first person we go to whenever things go bad.

Thank you for supporting us and being our number one fan.

Especially for our future like with my decision to study in Taiwan.

Thank you for the love that will never ever be gone.

I hope that I can give you both a better life when all is said and done.

Though the future is unclear and there are lots of uncertainties

I know that I'll never give up because you taught me all of my abilities.

You gave me a heart that can withstand all difficulties.

I'll always look up to you, for you gave me so much more than my necessities.

I know it must've been hard for you to work abroad when I was still three.

But you did it anyway even if you had to leave me and mommy.

You endured being far from home just to provide for our family.

For that, you'll always be the greatest hero to me.

Thank you for all of your efforts, especially those that we can't see.

Now that I'm about to finish my 5 year long dual degree,

I hope that you're proud of Jasper, Justine, and me.

I know that you'll continue helping us to be the people we aspire to be.

I know you'll be there when we fall, feel hopeless and on bended knee.

Even though you rarely show your emotions and you rarely say I love you,

We can feel how much you love us cause it's seen in everything that you do.

I don't know if you'll believe me, but this statement is true:

Daddy, for me, Superman's nothing compared to you.

So to end this poem, let me say Happy Father's Day!

I hope that you liked the messages I want to convey.

Remember that we love you, even though we rarely say.

We're your children after all, although it might sound cliche

No matter what happens, we're here to stay.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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One of the constant things in life is the impermanence of everything.
Even moments captured in photographs fade as the clock continues its ticking.
Even our voices constantly change as we continue to sing.
For change and impermanence are the gifts that only tomorrow can bring...

I've always wished for good things to become permanent.
Permanent happiness and permanent people, but now it is evident
That everything has an end for impermanence can't be bent.
And some things are just meant to be lessons we needed at the moment.

We are not getting any younger, remember that anytime we can die.
So we must learn to treasure every moment that passes by.
Live like there's no tomorrow; don't ask the reason why.
Love like there's no tomorrow. Heartbroken? Cry. Heal first then retry.

For the way I view love has changed countless times through adolescence.
Thanks to every encounter that led me to believe that nothing's a coincidence.
We must stop questioning why this world is full of impermanence
And start to embrace this ever changing world while exuding unwavering confidence.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Let me ask you a question. Do you believe in destiny?

Is destiny written on our palms, like what someone told me?

Are all of the things happening currently, really meant to be?

Or is destiny just a fallacy and our future, nothing more than an uncertainty?

To be honest, I still don't believe what the gentleman said.

I still can't see myself working here in the Philippines, that's what I think while lying on my bed.

I still can't see myself marrying unexpectedly; for I've no relationship experience, what more of suddenly becoming a newlywed?

So will destiny really unfold and make me eat my words or are all of these just in my head?

The girl I like is now probably asleep as I'm writing.

I'm slowly falling deeper as she answers the questions that I've been asking.

I've never been a fan of the game that's called waiting,

But if destiny is true, I want it to be her, the one I've been longing.

If it's not her, will I still do? It's such a scary thought indeed.

Though I say I'm used to it, it still hurts whenever I start to bleed.

I'm fine with being alone but a soulmate and partner is still someone I need.

So if destiny is true, can the end of my red string lead me into her arms? This wish of mine, please heed.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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These past few months marked the beginning of my metamorphosis.

I've been absorbing lessons one after the other, it's really such a bliss.

I can say without a doubt that what I've been searching for is this.

I missed this feeling of bliss brought to me by the wind's kiss.

I'm beginning to comprehend the complexities of love.

I now understand that what's meant to be will fit like a glove.

We must never force things, maybe just give it a little shove.

But don't force it if it won't budge, instead just ask for a sign from up above.

But why can I feel the butterflies once again, am I out of my mind?

Why am I attracted to you, may I know the reason behind?

I hate it when I'm starting to like someone, for I am prone to being blind.

Always clinging to hope if there's even a tiny strand I can find.

I'm willing to risk it all even if there's no guarantee that you'll be mine.

But can you at least give me some sort of sign?

Am I starting to annoy you? Do you think I'm becoming a swine?

How do you feel about me? Tell me, my lovely sunshine.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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If you, yourself, know that you're lovable and beautiful
There won't be a need for this poem so deceitful
Hesitation comes even when you're just a little bit doubtful.
The mind of the human being really is powerful.

If you should ever hear that you're very ugly
Don't believe the statement of the unwise, they're so many
Cause your innate charm and beauty surpasses Aphrodite.
These are all lies. For me, you're just not pretty

From top to bottom you'll see your perspective, your wrong vision.
From my name, to you, there's the truth, it's my mission.
The real message is actually seen in inversion.
Know the way you see yourself is nothing more than an illusion.

For I truly think my perspective is something you should see
Know that all of those words said to you are lies made by me
It's time for me to apologize cause you might feel unsightly
Now that your confidence took a complete 180

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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"From their ghosting to our long-lasting"

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"From their ghosting to our long-lasting"

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Nowadays, the easiest way to detach from someone is through ghosting.
There'll be no explanations from me so you'll get the idea and feeling.
Only recently, have I learned the lesson about giving and taking.
In only taking you'll end up burdened, in only giving you'll have nothing.

Remember that in all things, everything must be in balance.
In every step we take, we must boldly take a chance.
For in this world of 8 billion people, there will surely be someone with whom we can dance.
The one destined to be with us, our complete life's one and only circumstance.

So don't mind what you've lost, for they're not meant to be yours anyway.
You'll surely find what you're looking for, though it might not be today.
Don't mind their ghosting and just wait till our long-lasting is found someday.
Keep on searching while enjoying; don't settle for less, don't just stay.

A few more words I'd like to say in this poem's message I have penned;
23 chapters I have lived, some bad, some good, with many more to spend.
For my sins, moving forward is the only way to make amends.
A new chapter can only begin after the previous one ends.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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"Noon, ngayon, at sa panghabang panahon"

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"Noon, ngayon, at sa panghabang panahon"

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Parang kailan lang mula nang ako'y nagsimula.
Nagsimulang mangarap nang mataas; tanging puhunan ay ang tiwala.
Ang tiwala sa sariling hinding-hindi susuko ano man ang pagsubok na dala
Ng tadhana para makamit ang mga pangarap kong kasing-taas ng mga tala.

Napansin niyo ba na kay bilis ng takbo ng panahon?
Dumating na ang mga bagay na pinapangarap lang natin noon.
Ang mga pangarap na kay layo, mas malapit na ngayon.
Malayo pa, pero malayo na. 'Wag nating kalimutan ang mga aral na siyang ating baon.

Bigyang pansin ang hinaharap ngunit 'wag kalimutang harapin ang kasalukuyan.
'Wag kalimutang gumawa ng mga alaalang 'di mabubura sa ating isipan.
Pagka't higit na matimbang ang ating oras kaysa sa ginto o kayamanan.
Bawat lumilipas na sandali, kailanma'y 'di na maibabalik, kaya ito'y ating pahalagahan.

At ngayong patapos na ang tulang bago sa aking koleksyon
Na ang intensyon ay ipaalala ang kahalagahan ng pabago-bagong panahon.
Ikaw man ay nasa malayo, ano man ang iyong sitwasyon,
Nasaan ka man naroroon, tandaang mong lahat ng bagay ay may dapit-hapon.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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"Talatang nagmula sa alaala ng unang tula"

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"Talatang nagmula sa alaala ng unang tula"

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Ngayong gabing tahimik ang lahat at aking ginagawa ay wala,
Naisipang kong gamitin sa pagsulat ang oras na sayang tuwing tulala.
Kailan nga ba masisilayan mga tala't bituin na siyang dala
Ng iyong mga matang kaakibat ng iyong labi na kay pula?

Matagal na rin mula nang ako'y huling sumulat gamit ang Filipino.
Pinag-isipan nang maigi; ano ba dapat ang paksang isusulat ko?
Ano ba ang mga dapat kong sabihin? Paano ko nga ba sisimulan ito?
Saan kaya makakarating; ang mensahe ko'y saan nga ba patungo?

Ang talata kong ito na sa alaala nagmula;
Alaala nang sinulat ko ang aking pinaka-unang tula
Na nilikha para lamang sa binibining ninanais makilala.
Sino ang mag-aakalang ang babaeng iyon ay ikaw na pala?

At sa pagtatapos ng tula kong panibago,
Sana ako'y patawarin kung ang gawa ko ay malabo.
Ako'y kulang pa sa tulog kaya lumilipad ang isip ko.
Bagaman tula ko'y 'di ginto, sa pagsulat ako'y 'di hihinto.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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"The one who always cares, mother, to you no one else compares"

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"The one who always cares, mother, to you no one else compares"

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Today's the second Sunday of May this year, just so you know.
So it's time for us to greet them; it's time for us to show
Our appreciation and affection to the one who conceived us not long ago.
Happy Mother's Day! Everything about ourselves to you do we owe.

We wouldn't be living in this earth, if it weren't for you.
You gave us the gift of life, that fact is undoubtedly true.
Without you, I won't even be able to write this poem, sing, and do the things I love to do.
So to all Mothers, Mommies, Mamas and Nanays, in 3 languages, Salamat po, 謝謝媽, thank you.

As Mother's day is celebrated today from East to West,
Though not showy, here I am, writing a poem so my gratitude is expressed.
Thank you for being the best, and for giving all of our requests.
Words will never be enough for the time that you invest in taking care of us without rest.

They say that a mother's love for her children is the greatest of them all.
They were there for us before birth, before we were toddlers who knew how to crawl.
From when we were still tiny and small, their names were the first we would call.
To all mothers: do know we love you so, I hope the feelings this poem contains breaks the fourth wall.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Do you wonder how does it feel when you can't even feel a thing?
If I'm immortal, am I numb to all the challenges this life will bring?
Is a life of immortality a life you could deem worth living?
For me that's not the case cause I'd give up forever to touch you who I've been longing.

What we really want in life is to be understood;
To be understood the same way as how other people would.
To find the person who understands and to constantly feel assured.
Through all the pain we've endured; find the one who'll stay till the future we've secured.

There's this feeling of being bound and I just simply can't be me.
There's this fear of being misunderstood, when the whole world is there to see
The vulnerable and fragile part of me that's unsightly.
All of which are hidden beneath the iris; look into my eyes and see the key.

So to the one who'll be my life's biggest surprise; I consider you as my iris.
You give color to my eyes; make me see a life of pure bliss.
I'll know the answers to my whys; why certain things seem amiss.
Upon meeting you, my iris, I will look up to the skies; for you're my faith and hope, but above all, you're the light that made me rise from the abyss.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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"The artist I want to see; My ate, the one and only"

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"The artist I want to see; My ate, the one and only"

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A lways remember that I'm here supporting and rooting for you.
T hough we may be miles apart and seeing you is something I cannot do.
E ven if we're separated by hours and a sky so vast and so blue.
J hye, Ate Jhye, you're the older sister I never had; I miss you, wish you knew...

I 've always written poems about love; poems about people I liked romantically.
R einiel's poems were always like that, but now it's about all of the people dear to me.
E xpressing my emotions through writing, to thank you for pointing things I couldn't see.
H onestly, I can't think of a better way to show my appreciation for thee.

E very time I have problems I thought was too heavy to bear,
U nknowingly, I was eased, for you were always there.
N o matter what happens, do know I'm here and I care.
I am always here for you, ate, that is something I can proudly declare.

C ounting life after high school, it's 5 years that we've been apart.
E ven though we rarely talk, you'll always have a special place in my heart
F or you'll always be my ate, always the one with lessons to impart.
L et's meet again soon; I want to see my favorite artist's latest art.

O nce more to end this poem I want to greet you on your special day.
R eread the left side letters for there's something more that they convey,
E very letter when combined spells your name; it's on display.
S o the last message I want to say to you is Happy Birthday!

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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"A poet to be admired, a new lesson I acquired"

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"A poet to be admired, a new lesson I acquired"

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When you really like someone, do you know what's the most essential?
I forgot about that part, though it was really a fundamental.
When you really like someone, you hold their feelings as something sacred and special.
You're not selfish and egoistic; you just want them to reach their full potential.

I was so preoccupied thinking that I was the only one who got hurt.
It didn't even occur to me, that I might've hurt you first.
The hurt brought about by my knife that kept on stabbing you a million times
Was concealed right before my eyes; that itself is a thousand crimes.

I was a blessing to some, and a toxic curse to others.
Now the damage has been done, I can only atone by striving to be better.
Even the sincerest of my apologies are not enough, they don't matter.
I'm sorry, I really am. I know it will never be enough even if I keep this up forever.

So to the poet to be admired, thank you for the new lesson I acquired.
I'm really sorry for how things transpired; this isn't really what I desired.
To the person I hurt the most, I'm really sorry about that post.
If given 3 wishes after this poem's done, I wish for mistakes to be undone, all your hurt and troubles begone, and for a bright future to come.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I believe I told you before that Calculus is the mathematics of change.
Like Calculus, you changed my life and I find that a little bit strange.
I only helped you in Calculus, but you gave me something better in exchange.
A valuable lesson that I have learned; a lesson that can never be gauged.

You gave me a lesson of most importance, it is a lesson about life.
While all I gave you were scars and traumas; poems that hurt like a sharp knife.
I'm really sorry for the hurt I gave you, I'm really sorry for that strife.
If I knew how much I'd be hurting you, I never would've come into your life.

Hurting the people dear to me, is the source of my greatest pain.
It is something of greater magnitude, all of this world's words cannot explain.
I wish I could take away all your pain, if only it was something I can obtain.
But I know the hurt I gave you, cannot be taken away, for it will forever remain.

Like Calculus, I want to change and be better, though it's hard.
For my toxicity hurt a person dear to me, you, who I have deeply scarred.
I really hope that you'll forgive me when all is said and done.
My dear, I'm so sorry. I really wish for all these things to be undone.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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"The end of our tutorial, no longer in denial; he has your love vial, now time for my revival"

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"The end of our tutorial, no longer in denial; he has your love vial, now time for my revival"

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Now that I found something I probably shouldn't have found out.
I've finally figured out the lesson that our encounter is all about.
I can't even shout even if I wanted to go all-out.
Cause you ate your own words; you're the cause of this drought.

I was made to believe all those statements that are nothing more than lies.
I thought I couldn't be deceived, for I was looking straight into your eyes.
But like contact lenses that change eye colors, you were in fact wearing a disguise.
Though it resulted in my demise, and I can be called unwise. You, my dear, I will never ever despise.

They say that giving up is never the right solution,
But sometimes, letting go and giving up is the only viable conclusion.
I hope that he won't break your heart, and that loving you will be his only intention.
May your relationship be founded on trust; a love that's sure without confusion.

And so I am now a thousand percent certain, that no matter how hard you try;
It won't matter even if you give her the whole world and all the stars in the sky.
If she doesn't like you, in the end, it's still you who she'll deny.
For you will never be the guy she dreams of even if this you try to defy.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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"From the present, my past's future; a present from my future's past."

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"From the present, my past's future; a present from my future's past."

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Hey kiddo, it's me, the one considered to be your future.
This poem marks our 170th, who would've thought this will be our adventure?
I know you've been trying though your decisions are still unsure,
But I'm glad to tell you that we've overcome that dark and negative enclosure.

Today is April 27th, of the year 2024.
We're about to finish our long dual-degree course.
Though I wish I could tell you just a little bit more,
I do not wish to spoil you, about what your future has in store.

And so now, to my future, is the earth still intact?
Have our plans gone awry, or are we still right on track?
Are you still single? Are you successful? Are you happy? Is that a fact?
I have lots of questions, so I'm sorry if they are stacked.

I attached this poem to the email sent to you 6 years from now.
When we're about to turn 30, can I ask you, how art thou?
Did we stay true and loyal to all of our created vows?
I would've loved to talk with you, if only time allows...

- Reiniel Dela Paz (23)

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To be completely honest, I can't find the right opening, the right word.
Complete silence in the dark, nothing; there's not a single tweeting bird.
Today is one of those days, I can describe using a single word; absurd.
Excruciating pain once more, so I scream till I can no longer be heard.

I've been in this situation, honestly, more than a couple of times.
And everytime, I find comfort in writing poems with lots of rhymes.
Not just fluent in writing flowery poetry, I am also fluent in silent mimes.
I may be a prisoner of love, till I can no longer consider these as crimes.

This poem like no other, serves as my own reminder.
A reminder that not every love story will have a happily ever after.
You are a dream I sought after; a dream I wanted till I can no longer.
But I was never the source of your laughter; I am your happily never after.

And so I'll admire you from afar, till I can no longer.
I'll let these wounds bleed, till I can no longer.
I'll keep on crying out your name, till I can no longer.
I'll break my heart into a million pieces, till I can no longer.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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There's a reason why the heart is placed below the head.
Be rational and unemotional; that's the conclusion that can be said.
Now I'm back to being logical, there're things I should've left unsaid.
Look at where my decision led when I dreamt a false vision while lying on my bed.

You are a short-lived dream, I could stay trapped in forever.
A dream where all constraints are nonbearing and don't matter.
Do you know I wanted you to be the best for me so that nobody's better?
But like all dreams, it must end; though if I was asked, I would've said never.

No Sun, no Sol, so L, that was my darkened life's view.
Without sunshine, without color, that can be considered true.
Like the sun that gives energy, you saved me, and you don't even have a clue.
You're the sun without the w, your nickname; there's no W without you.

The w of the sun is swapped with an l; that's how our story ends.
You're also a lesson to me; more than a person dear to me; that's the message my poem sends.
Though here, all our paths lead to different dead-ends,
Maybe in another universe, a love story's possible; maybe there we can make amends.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I was once bombarded by my own questions of maybe.
What-ifs, maybes; all of those made it hard to see.
I was too blinded to clearly see, who I am really supposed to be.
Yet the answer's always been in front of me, for I'm supposed to simply be me.

These memories of you, will always and forever be bittersweet.
But I'll still do these things on repeat; know these lines of mine have no deceit.
I'll knowingly and repeatedly experience defeat, if it means our paths will once again meet.
For meeting you outweighs the heartbreak; meeting you helped make me complete.

This new term I have created for these bittersweet what-ifs and maybes,
Maybe called maybe-ttersweet, for now it definitely is what it is.
I know I'll be alright when the time comes for me to cross the seven seas,
Though there are no guarantees, in me there'll be no sign of unease.

For a new chapter only unfolds after the last one's farewell and goodbye.
And so we must take some time to dwell, but not too much that we must cry.
Cause we must adapt so we can tell when things are about to go awry.
To my last what-if I hope you're well, though I may not be the love of your life.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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M ay His blessings for you never ever end.
R einiel wishes happy birthday to an extraordinary friend.
I am very grateful to you and your willingness to always extend
A helping hand no matter when, on you, we can always depend.

N o matter what happens, know that you can always count on me;
J ust like how I can count on you, like a child counting from one to three.
O ur journey will be more challenging, as we're nearing the version we aspire to be.
H appy Birthday once again, I know you're happy though I can't actually see.

N ever doubt your intuition, always trust in your ability.
A ll the hardwork you've put in, will surely lead you to prosperity.
L ots of people in this world; befriending you was just a possibility.
B ut that possibility made a friendship that will never be a liability.

E nding this birthday gift on a high note will be super.
R emember that things will always work out for the better.
B ecause the letters of your name are found in every line's starter;
A gain, look on the left, you'll see your name there, mister.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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You know, I once asked myself, who is my biggest heartbreaker?
Time and time again, I am shown that there is somebody greater.
This time, this poem, a new one without filter. For now, I know my question's  answer.
So the question I have left is, why the fuck am I my greatest heartbreaker?

I might seem friendly, bubbly, outgoing or extroverted.
But the reality is that I am all those when inverted.
An introvert, whose confidence, easily shattered and subverted.
Though Reiniel, I just yell. I can't rein
these emotions that are daunted.

John, why is it, why do I cry a ton?
John, why is it, why is love not fun?
John, why is it, why can't pain just be gone?
John, why is it, why do I want to hide and run?

And so, the ending to never forget the feeling of being alive,
I must never ever forget love's rule number five.
Myself, Reiniel John, never tread the shallows, never dive.
These newfound conclusions I have derived are made in order for me to survive...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Here I am once again while riding the train.
A random thought emerged, and made me wrack my brain.
Though it may be scorching here, in someplace else there's rain.
I might be happy as of the moment, but someone else may feel pain.

This ironic world we're living in, filled with countless choices considered variable;
It's big yet small; circumstances incomparable.
In this humongous Earth what are the odds, that upon you, I'd stumble?
8.1 billion people, yet falling for you is inevitable; and so I crumble.

There's more to life than just black and white, that's what this world shows.
The variables outweigh the constants, it can't be tabulated by columns and rows.
How many are basking under the sun? How about those playing in the snow?
How many are suffering the desert heat?
How about those having a winter sorrow?

The people who want to travel, and the people who don't want to go.
The people who have to bid farewell, their thoughts are something we don't know.
We can never really compel, this world to stop the passing time's flow.
Though some excel, some unwell; we can't tell, so take time to dwell. Be kind, don't yell. for we should know, not long ago, the status quo, an afterglow.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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This is a sequel to a poem I wrote before.
The one titled "To: All the girls I wrote a poem for".
Gratitude, I offer you, for it's you who changed my core.
Thank you for the things you've imparted, thank you for opening my door.

Though you all broke my heart and gave me a terrible heartache,
You are the reason why I analyze all the decisions that I make.
At some point in time, you were the risk I was willing to take.
I told you words I fully meant and gave you promises I'll never break.

To the girl who made me realize that not everything is about me,
I really wanted to be there for you; remember you're not unsightly.
To the girl who helped me overcome my fear of dogs though it wasn't easy,
Thanks for showing me, dogs are lovely, now my childhood trauma no longer scares me.

To the girl who sparked my interest in billiards and formula one,
I still hope that it's you. I still hope that for me, you're the one.
To the girl I once considered as my everlasting sun,
Thank you for the memories and regrets that count as none.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Hey, my love, how are you doing?
I'm sorry if I'm grumpy and currently tired of waiting.
I'm now tired of being the one who's always trying.
The one who's always giving; now the one who is seething.

I still like someone, I don't know if it's you.
She doesn't want to be courted. If only she has a clue
That she's aphrodite in my eyes; the one I always want to view.
Is she you or someone new? The one standing at the altar, waiting for me to say "I do".

Will you ever be near me, or are you nonexistent?
Are you really meant for me, or are you just my imagination's figment?
Thinking about it is useless for I'm no longer sentient.
All of my senses, now dulled as a result of being too lenient.

So to my future dream come true;
To my future dream named you.
Please wait for the day when I can finally hold you.
The future meant for me and you, from then skies, nevermore blue.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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A sudden question arose while singing as I sit and stare.
Why do we fall for the people who don't really care?
They can't reciprocate our feelings, of that we're aware.
But why is it always the case, can you even call this fair?

Every heartbreak and heartache gave me a new lesson to learn.
But for the first time ever, courting you is what I yearn.
I promised myself I wouldn't, until my own money I can earn.
Cause in courtship, I know, reciprocation is not always given in return.

The galaxies in your eyes; a pure and innocent smile.
There's something about your style, that this world cannot defile.
For you really are Aphrodite, can you stay for a little while?
If not for a while, can you stay with me and be my bride walking down the aisle?

I know this is nothing more than a hopeless romantic's delusion.
A mirage, a phantasmagoria, nothing more than an illusion.
Nonetheless, these words of mine, do not contain any confusion.
Is it obvious that I want to court you? Yeah, a foregone conclusion.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Ang mahabang pagpapaliwanag ba ay isa pa ring kailangan?
Saang banda naging malabo, bakit ngayo'y nagkakailangan?
Sobrang dami ng mga tanong, ang pinakamarami ay kailan,
Ulan, o kailan; pagbuhos mo'y ano ba ang naging dahilan?

Ako'y naglakbay na mula Pilipinas hanggang gitnang silangan.
Naglakbay patungong Norte, sa bansang ngalan ay Taiwan.
Ngayon, saan bago kailan, saang bansa ba ang iyong tahanan?
Kailan ka ba darating? Kailan ka nga ba mahahagkan?

Kailan kaya mauubos ang pasensya kong kailanma’y 'di naging kalakihan?
Kailan kaya susuko ang taong walang sinapit kundi kamalasan?
Ang kamalasan sa pag-ibig, kailan ko nga ba mapagtatagumpayan?
Kailan ko kaya malalaman ang mga sagot sa lahat ng aking katanungan?

Kailan, o kailan, sa pagsabi ng kailan ako'y naka ilan?
Kailan mapapagod magtanong ang makatang tumutula sa kawalan?
Kailan kaya titigil sa pagsulat ng mga tulang pag-ibig ang nilalaman?
Kailan, o kailan, mawawalan ng mga katanungang umpisa't dulo ay kailan?

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I just want you to know that I will always love you.
J ewelries and other luxuries aren't enough to show how much I do.
O ut of every poem I made, I haven't made one, specifically for you.
S o for your birthday, allow me to give you one too.

E verything I ever needed, you made sure to provide for me.
F rom the moment I was born, you took care of me before I could even see.
I owe everything to you, thank you for being the best mommy.
N o matter how far apart, you're there to support me when I'm on my knees.

A lthough as the firstborn, I know I have lots of shortcomings.
D idn't show my appreciation for all the love I've been receiving.
E nvied others for the things I lack, and always started complaining.
L osing patience cause I didn't know I've always had what I was searching.

A s this poem comes to a close, I can't find the right words to say.
P lease take care of yourself and know that I love you always.
A ll the letters of your name from the second line's J,
Z, as the last letter, can all be seen on the left today.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Everytime pitying myself comes to the back of my mind,
Compared to me, I tend to see other people in a bigger bind.
Whenever I start to feel that I am lagging and slowly falling behind,
People less fortunate, still going on and still fighting is what I find.

When bombarded by huge boulders, who leaves; who stays?
I don't know where to put myself, I don't know my own place.
When I'm feeling tired and hopeless, I just rest, not counting days,
And I think of other people with heavier burdens they need to face.

There's no life without problems; life's not always a breeze.
There are always ups and downs, just like the ever changing seas.
Time will never ever freeze even if we fall down on our knees,
But as the seasons change the trees, time will cure any disease.

So let this be a gentle reminder that in this place we cannot fail.
Take deep breaths, inhale, exhale; when we feel our life's about to derail.
Stormy seas may knock down and destroy all of our boat's sails,
But as sailors on a lifelong voyage, you'll soon perceive, in the end we will prevail...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Ngayong gabing maliwanag ang kalangitan.
Ikaw ang tanging iniisip, ikaw kaya ay nasaan?
May pag-asa ba sa'yo? Sagot dito'y nasa aking kaalaman.
Alam kong ito'y malabo, pagka't tingin sa aki'y kaibigan lang naman.

May gusto akong sabihin ngunit 'di pa pwede sa ngayon.
Malalaman mo rin ito pagdating ng tamang panahon.
Pagka't sa oras na malaman mo'y 'di ko alam ang iyong magiging reaksyon,
Sa mga salitang aking bibitawan, sa kaarawan mo ang rebelasyon.

Alam mo bang ikaw ang nakikita sa aking bawat panaginip?
Bakit ba palaging ikaw? Ito'y di ko lubos maisip.
Ano bang mayroon sa ngiti mo? Bakit ito'y laging gustong masilip?
Babasahin mo kaya itong mensaheng kasabay ng hanging umiihip?

Na kahit sa aking pagpikit ay 'wag nang magising,
Kung sa panaginip nama'y ikaw ang aking kapiling.
Mga salitang ibinubulong, kasabay ng aking bawa't hiling.
Mga hiling na sana'y pagtingin mo'y sa akin na lang nakabaling.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I just want to say Happy Birthday to you!
R eign Justine Dela Paz, my first brother among the two.
E ven if we rarely talk, and butt heads is what we mostly do.
I am also one of your pillars, always ready to support you too.

G reat things, for you, are soon bound to happen.
N ever stop dreaming; choose the skills you should sharpen.
J ust trust the process, and you will no doubt be golden.
U nder the pressure lie the opportunities that are ready to be taken.

S till, your college life, will be a new venture to the unknown.
T here will be times you'll be tested and vulnerabilities will be shown.
I n times like this, know that you are not alone.
N ever ever doubt yourself for you have the abilities to take the throne.

E ven though I am about 6,904 km away from you.
D ubai and Manila might be separated by an ocean or two.
E very passing day, there's not a moment in which I don't miss you.
L ittle bro, I know, that you are working hard too...

A nd to end this birthday greeting, there's one more message to extend.
P ray to Him and all of your wounds will definitely mend.
A lways remember these words of mine that are now penned.
Z ero victories come to those afraid of risks; so go ascend. Read the first line and then, the first big letters till the end.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Until now there's still no sign? Or am I just blind by design?
I didn’t notice it pass me by, for I was looking at a straight line.
If I was my own guardian angel, I guess I'd just perpetually whine.
For I am dense to all the signs, I'd just be fed up and resign.

I once thought that I was special, a little blessed among the rest.
But it turns out that I am just above average at best.
I need to put in more effort without the luxury of a good night's rest,
If I want to achieve something in this life full of tests.

But now that I've come to terms with my own shortcomings,
One thing became clear, and that is I don't want you hurting.
Though I still wish to ascertain if you're the one I've been dreaming,
For now, I'll do my best to show you my genuine feeling.

Cause whether you like me back or not, it doesn't really matter to me.
What matters most to me, is seeing you smile daily.
Please don't ask why, it's cause you're my one and only.
Wishing you're always happy, for my only wish is thee, and now yours truly...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Sometimes I can't help but think, why do I always lose?
Would I finally win if I was him, or if I'm in his shoes?
Don't want to sound like a sadboy but, oh boy, it's just another bruise...
A bruise added to the collection; for he's who my muse always prefer to choose.

Are these questions and frustrations of mine considered valid?
For what's happening is on repeat; there's not a single thing varied.
A surge of dark emotions, unforseen for it's rapid.
Melting my whole being, for it's the most powerful acid.

I'm once again reminded of a pain that is immeasurable.
It's all coming back, this point when I'm most vulnerable.
Just when I thought I was on track to being invincible,
Come the reasons why I consider this life to be abominable.

Once more I'm so close to being delirious.
I'm just great at pretending that's why it ain't really obvious.
Can someone tell me, for I am undoubtedly curious.
When will I ever be? Will I ever be victorious?

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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R emember that I am here for you always.
A lone, you are not; kuya will always find ways.
I t doesn't matter even if we haven't seen each other for months or days.
N o matter how far apart, I will support you for I'm your ace.

J asper, you will always be botchog to me.
A s you are turning 11, a year older you may be.
S till you're my youngest brother, so it is clear to see.
P rotecting you from harm, will always be a part of my duty.

E ven though sometimes, you're a little annoying,
R emember that my annoyance, is not everlasting.
D on't hesitate to call me when you need help with something.
E leven years old you may be, but you're still a youngling.

L astly before ending this poem; Happy Birthday!
A s a gift for you, this poem, I made without delay.
P utting into writing the wishes for you I want to say.
A poem that was made for you who's far away.
Z oom into the first letter of every line in a vertical way.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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A lam mo ba ang aking naisip mula nang una kang masilayan?
A no kaya ang pangalan nitong babaeng puno ng kagandahan?
L ubos akong natuwa, sumaya nang 'di ko namamalayan.
I kaw ay isang anghel; ito'y 'di na dapat pagdudahan.

Y aman nga kung maituturing ang ikaw na aking hinahangad.
A ng lahat ay gagawin hanggang sa makakaya ng abilidad.
H ihintayin ang panahong pagtingin mo sa akin ay ang realidad.
F eliz, lo soy; porque tú eres mi felicidad.

A ko'y kaibigan mo; ano man ang mangyari ay nandito.
Y aring pusong may pagtingin; tutulong sa anghel na tulad mo.
E ksplanasyo'y di na kailangan pagkat damdamin ko ay totoo.
Z afiro ay hahanapin ko hanggang sa dulo ng mundo, para lang sa iyo.

A lam kong ako ay nangakong ika'y 'di na muling kukulitin pa.
B inalak umiwas at lumayo, pero ito pala ay hindi ko kaya.
A ng hiling ko lang ngayon, sana'y hindi ka na muling lumuha.
L angit ay nalugmok nang bumaba ang anghel na kay ganda.
A no ang pangalan ng anghel? Malalaman 'to sa pagtingin mula sa langit hanggang sa lupa.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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G usto ko lang malaman mong 'di ako nagbibiro.
U maasang pagkatapos umamin, sa akin ay 'di ka lalayo
S ubalit 'di mo na pinapansin magmula nang malaman mo
T uluyan na akong iniwasan, ano bang mali ang nagawa ko?

O' kay hirap ng ganito, ang pag-iwas ba ay kailangan?
K ahit na ang gusto ko lang naman ay iyong maging kaibigan?
I ntensyon ko lang naman ay makilala ka nang lubusan.
T anging hangad ay mapalapit, ngunit nangyari'y kabaliktaran.

A lam ko naman sa sarili ko na iba ang iyong gusto.
A t ayaw ko rin namang ipagpilitan ang sarili ko.
A aliyah Faye Zabala, pasensya na sa pangungulit ko.
L ahat ng ito'y kalimutan mo, pangungulit ay titigilan ko.

I iwan ko na lamang ang mensaheng para sa'yo.
Y ugto ng tulang ito ay tapos na ihahandog ko.
A ng huling mensahe bago ako tuluyang lumayo at huminto,
H anapin ang unang mga letra ng bawat linya pababa at ito'y basahin mo.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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My intentions for you; always nothing short of pure.
My feelings for you is not just because of your allure.
I can proudly scream "I like you" for I am a thousand percent sure.
When in a bind just rest assured, for you I will find the cure; extreme conditions I'll endure.

You must have been shocked by my unexpected confession.
Though I was unable to see, could still imagine your expression.
I guess that's what I get for putting my feelings in compression.
An explosion followed by, questions why this was set in motion.

The promise "I will wait for you until I can, my dear".
A promise of a lifetime, that will last till my final year.
Every word you'll be saying, from now on I'll lend an ear.
You know where to find me; know I will always be here.

This promise that was given to you I now renew.
This promise, my dear; with all the stars I imbue.
I'm prepared to set sail with you, to find the most grandiose view.
You're the one I will pursue, along with future plans I drew; plans for the future that I will see through with you.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I used to think that waiting for others, for me is a must.
Used to think that helping and waiting for others is just.
But that's not really the case; so now I'm ready for the next gust.
I'm ready to remove my limiter; ready to leave you all in the dust.

No one's gonna wait for you when you're the one struggling.
It's just you; only you, who's gonna solve the problems you're facing.
Instead of being left behind, it's better to be the one who's leaving.
At least I don't have to worry, how to match their own pacing.

I don't really mind walking this path on my own.
No matter how many stones at me have been thrown.
My wounds and injuries, by myself, I have sewn.
I know I have the strength and courage to go alone.

So it's okay even if there's no one left to call my friend.
I have done everything I can, just for me to blend.
But it still wasn't enough, so this time I have to fend
For myself, unable to extend, a helping hand and mend, other people's broken pieces, nor am I gonna pretend, that in this world ruled by trends, there's no bitter end.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Bakit ba ang pag-ibig ay itinuturing niyong laro?
Kahit na 'di naman dapat, pagka't ang umibig ay 'di biro.
Ano ba ang dapat kong gawin? Ako ngayon ay tuliro.
Lahat kasi ay malabo, bukod sa mga mithiin kong klaro.

'Di maipaliwanag ang nararamdamang sakit
Sa tuwing 'di pinapansin ng iyong mga matang kaakit-akit.
Ang tanging naiisip, ay ang salitang bakit.
Bakit ba ganito? Mundo ba sa aki'y may hinanakit?

Tinanong kung kailan matatagpuan ang saya;
Kung ito ba ay darating, ito ba'y aking makakaya?
Nang makilala ka ay naranasan ko nang maging maligaya.
Naging malaya at payapa, dala ng paghuni ng mga maya.

Kaya 'di ko man alam kung sa akin ika'y may pagtingin,
Kung ang nararamdan bang ito'y mabubura sa pag-ihip ng hangin.
Matalinhaga man kung maituturing, ang dulot mong damdamin.
Sana'y makita mo ang nakikita ko, sa iyong pagharap sa salamin.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Though I may not know where you are, I'm rooting for you; all the best.
May you be anywhere from North to South and East to West.
Through poems and confessions, my emotions were expressed.
All poems written and given are genuine, that I can attest.

Looking back at it now, in me, there's still no regret.
Nearing 150 poems yet each of them I can't forget.
All of them are special; all of them made me sweat.
What did I get from those I've met? A lesson learned from every lost bet.

Nevertheless, thank you for being a source of inspiration,
Every time I found myself approaching stagnation.
Scenarios I simulated, all considered to be fiction.
A hopeless romantic that didn't ask, but still hoped for reciprocation.

So even though the literal context of your poem no longer applies.
The feelings that it contained; cannot be smeared by this world's lies.
At a certain point in time, you were the most beautiful in my eyes.
And that time, forever frozen; encapsulated by the lines of your poem  even though the time really flies...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Why is 143 almost always "I love you"?
Sometimes, 143 can be "I need you".
For me, 143 are the words "I feel you".
Yet its real meaning is only "I like you"...

Though I know only rarely can I write a nice pun.
A new poem for you is my goal so I made one.
If in danger just remember towards you I will run.
The greatest triumph is mine if from you there's a love won...

Will you let me if I say; if I ask "can I help you"?
My poems contained all the promises I gave you.
Without you, darkness will overcome the view U made new.
Without you the sky will always be a blue hue.

These words, "I only like you";  a true vow..
Writing these lines & verses R hard now.
It's been long so it's time to N this, how?
Allow me to give this poem A last bow.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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The one word I'd use, to describe you is yellow.
The first words you said to me, is definitely "Hello"!
When I first tried to reach out, expectations were already too low.
Would you really talk to a stranger, someone you don't even know?

Yellow is the color associated with radiance.
Your eyes; your smile; your voice and your dance...
Passion overflowing, joy always in abundance.
For you I'd take the risk, even if victory's but a miniscule chance...

This poem is already the 20th made for you...
Believe me, I am quite shocked too.
I never thought this feeling of mine, would stick like glue...
What wrong did I do? What mess have I gotten myself into?

But do you know? Like yellow, for you I'd bleed myself dry...
This fellow, for yellow, give all the stars in the sky.
From the shallows, to the gallows, for yellow, I'd defy.
Your yell's echo, my yellow, when in trouble, I will fly...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Bakit ba ang unang titig ay laging nasa mga mata?
Dahil ba ang pagtingin natin ang pinakahalata?
Marahil sa mga mata mo'y nabighani o sinta,
Kaya hanggang ngayon ako'y nauubusan ng salita...

Ang mga mata ay nagsisilbing pinto sa ating puso.
Sa mata makikita ang nararamdaman ng isang tao.
Ang mga matang mapupungay, sumasalamin sa ating pagkatao,
Kailanma'y 'di maikukubli, pilit man nating itago.

Sinta, o bakit ba, kakaiba ang nadarama
Sa tuwing nasisilayan ang iyong mga mata?
Sa isang sandali lamang ay nabighani na talaga,
'Di inaasahang ikaw nga, ang pupukaw sa pusong manhid na.

Kaya bago matapos ang tulang gawa para sa'yo
Na likha lamang buhat ng isang proyekto sa Filipino,
Iiwanan ang mga salitang "Ikaw ang tanging pangarap ko".
Gagawin lahat para matamo, ang pagtingin ng mga mata mo...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I used to believe in stories of superheroes.
In happy endings and such, where anything goes.
But now it's clear, they're only seen in tv shows.
For in my eyes, heroes are nothing but zeroes.

When all is in chaos and there's an illusion,
Heroes have a hard time for their values are in collision.
What must they sacrifice, their dearest or the mission?
I'm no hero for in me, there's no confusion.

I don't care if I'm branded as the villain of the story.
I don't even care about the fame nor the glory.
My loved ones' safety is my only worry.
That's my only priority, so I won't even say sorry.

Cause that is the truth, I hope everything is clear.
For my love is greater than what I consider my greatest fear.
Even the darkest of paths, in that direction I would steer,
If that is the only way to protect all I hold dear.

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I 've been thinking about you, same songs in repeat.
S trange, isn't it? Your voice, heard in every beat.
T his 11th poem; a blank sheet, for someone I didn't even meet.
I nterestingly a feat, for I thought all was complete.

L ife really does throw lots of curveballs.
L eft, right, center, it's like being in a free for all.
L ast time I checked, I was hiding behind my wall.
I didn’t know if I'd recover from that great of a fall.

K indness overflowing, dreams and goals slowly achieving.
E very step of the way, with people who never stopped supporting.
Y esterday's lessons became the fuel I'm consuming.
O nce more, I am able to continue my dreaming.

U nderneath the surface, there's another hidden layer.
R esting hidden message, for a person like no other.
N everending rhyming, the timing doesn't matter.
A sentence that can be formed, and considered my prayer...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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After that sleepless night, when I was wide awake.
I realized it was myself, the one I chose to forsake.
My own reawakening, exactly at daybreak.
Finally figured out, the source of all the ache.

Blunders have been determined, and the assessment's been done.
Still far from over, yet redemption has begun.
When all is said and done, my progress won't be none.
Cause my success won't be outdone, by mistakes that can't be undone...

For it's not arrogance but my renewed self-esteem,
The reason why I am going ahead full-steam.
Dreams won't be dreams once I fully redeem,
Myself from the void; for with light I can gleam.

So while I'm starting my own reawakening,
I'll adapt to the circumstances, and seasons ever changing.
Listening to the wind howling, and waves that come crashing,
All in the right timing, without forcing the things happening...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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As we prepare ourselves for an adventure of a lifetime,
A head full of dreams is but our only lifeline.
Don't panic, everything's not lost; in time, you'll shine.
Everglow, bright yellow, every teardrop with its purpose, trust me, you'll be fine...

When life's moving faster than the speed of sound,
And the ticking of the clocks, makes you bow down to the ground,
It's just us against the world, in life's problems don't be bound.
Everyday is biutyful, you're the champion of the world, stand up and be crowned.

If broken, He'll fix you. He's the only Higher Power.
God put a smile upon your face, every minute, every hour.
From sunrise till midnight, His blessings overpower
The trouble you're facing, they'll be toppled like a tower.

So if you're still thinking, you're not over the hardest part,
Remember that nothing can stop the loving human heart.
Go up, and up, don't look back and just depart.
A sky full of stars is waiting for you if only you decide to start...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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I once created a poem; "To: My Future Dream Come True".
I didn’t know why I did, but I hoped that it would find you.
Now it seems I've beaten my own poem, for I'm the first to view,
Your smile that definitely blew my mind out of the blue.

Whenever I see you, my heart can't stop but flutter.
Though I always stutter, and find wrong words to utter,
I hope that you give me a chance to fix my actions called a clutter,
For in my eyes, there's just you, there's nobody better.

The funny thing is that I haven't even met you.
Don't know your likes and dislikes; nor know the things that you do.
But why does it feel like I've known you longer than what's true?
The first moment you came to my view, I knew my future dream is you...

Still, I know that who I am right now, is not my best version.
So I'll strive to be the best I can be, that's the right course of action.
While waiting for you, and the time I can fulfill my ambition,
Working so I'll be most deserving of your love and affection...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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In times such as these, I'm glad I'm in control
Of my own emotions, for that has always been the goal.
When I'm about to explode, I'll just hide under my hole.
Because that's the only way for my soul to remain whole.

I'm sick and tired of always being misunderstood.
For my own sake, If only I fought and stood,
Then maybe the blame won't always be mine, as it should.
I've always been the scapegoat, for what everyone considered good.

When everything's unclear, is there someone I can trust?
Should I stay, should I go, ought to leave everyone in the dust.
For I am so tired of being the one to always adjust.
Can I, just this once, leave this life that's unjust...

I've been keeping silent, keeping my emotions in a bottle.
Just waiting for that time, I can go full throttle.
If the time comes, when I'm fed up, I'll be sure to topple,
Your whole world, so be careful, for I am ready to toggle...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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Sometimes I ask myself, will I ever really learn?
Cause I always tend to mess up whenever it's my turn.
Risking it all for the dreams and treasures I want to earn.
But failing most of the time so to the bottom, I return.

Nothing can save me from this latest blunder.
Wasn't paying attention to myself; now sinking 6 feet under.
I couldn't hear the warning, for I was deafened by the thunder.
The thunderous beating of my heart, that wants nothing else but her.

Don't know if you'll believe me, but that wasn't really my intention.
Only wanted to show my emotion, but all I did was create confusion.
I was under an illusion; couldn't recognize my reflection.
Didn't realize I looked stupid, desperate for attention and affection..

So now that I've awoken to the worst possible catastrophe,
Brought about by my fallacy, I should probably kneel silently.
For my blasphemy cannot be fixed by an apology.
I'm sorry your majesty, pardon me, grant amnesty...

- Reiniel Dela Paz

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As another year will soon come to a close,
Challenges and difficulties, from the ashes we rose.
No matter the social status, be humble, don't boast.
For you, who made it this far, I offer a lasting toast.

As we grow older, Christmas no longer feels the same way.
Some might feel low, and can't see the Sun's rays.
Others might be lost in a place so far away.
And some of us, sadly, are no longer here to stay.

Though that might be the case, don't forget His birthday's essence.
It's not about the price of the gifts and presents,
But it simply lies in the way others feel our presence.
What matters is the love and messages that we sent.

So as an ending, I give you all my greetings.
Happy Holidays! May you enjoy the coming evenings.
For those suffering, may you experience healing.
As Christmas is coming, may our hearts continue beating...

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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You are very special, from the day you were born.
Are all these things planned, ever since that first morn?
My countless wishes that were all seem torn,
Dream endlessly, I did, but now my days you adorn.

Rays of sunshine were absent in my sky oh so blue.
On the day I first saw, that was no longer true.
A you that came down from heaven; gave my hue.
How did they know I've been longing for you?

As time passes by and I can see the sunrise,
Do you hear my heart beating, do you know what my heart implies?
Oh I can think of words, but my work, a reprise.
Resplendence that I've found, while looking in your eyes.

Now that I've finished setting the theme.
A message I have hidden, that will showcase my dream.
Don't look at the schemes, for it's simple, not extreme.
On all the words and letters, comprising a single stream.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Life is full of surprises; things happen unexpectedly.
Even if we try to plan for everything, we can only act accordingly.
There are times when I wonder, is this really meant to be?
Maybe it's just me, but I really wish that you would see

Every passing moment, I find myself more attracted.
Little by little, I hoped that to you is where my destiny led.
I know that this sounds cheesy, and you might think it's exaggerated.
Knowing and seeing you, I was and still am very enchanted.

Even if it might be unrequited, giving up? No, not one bit.
Your smile is worth it, I'm willing to exhaust all of my wit
One by one, just to prevent you from falling into the pit
Underneath that smile, where sadness lurks though you often times don't admit.

Remember I'm here; won't let you get stuck in the abyss.
On this day, I'll allow myself to give you a lasting promise.
A promise that not only applies when in bliss.
Hear these last few words, for my only wish is

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Sa paglubog ng buwan at pagsikat ng haring araw
Hindi pa rin nagbabago, ang tanging nais ay ikaw.
Sa tuwing dumadating ang gabing mapanglaw,
Ikaw lamang ang siyang sa aki'y pumupukaw.

Bakit nga ba nang makita ka'y bigla na lang bumilis
Ang tibok ng aking pusong, sa pag-ibig pilit lumilihis.
Ang dinulot ng nakaraang mapait na hinagpis
Biglaang naglaho na tila ba lahat ay winalis.

Ano ba ang mayroon sa iyo? Bakit lahat ng ito'y kakaiba?
Ang kaba'y nawawala, gusto'y lalong makilala ka.
Ang masasabi ko na lamang, ay huwag ka nang mag-alala.
'Di kailangan nang mangamba, pagka't tunay ang aking pagsinta.

Wala na ngang ibang hiling kung 'di makita kang masaya.
Ang makapiling ka ay isa na ngang, maituturing na biyaya.
Kahit pa ang lahat ng ito ay isa lamang haraya,
Hiraya manawari. Nagbabakasakali, o' Hanaya.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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There's not an hour that goes by, when you’re not in my mind.
Countless wishes a day, spent for your heart that's so kind.
Every moment of the week, hoping your smile's what I'll find.
My feelings grow as time passes by, and it cannot be confined.

In the present, still attracted; by what was seen in the past.
Others might laugh and say that things are moving too fast.
Nevertheless, I have a feeling; this is something that will last.
Though uncertain all I know, is that this I can forecast.

For similar to its title, there's only 1 thing I know.
It is 2 tell you that I'm here and this ain't just for show.
The 3 words commonly spoken that I don't easily throw,
Might be reserved just 4 you, which only time can bestow.

I might not know how things work, is destiny ours by design?
I was always searching, always looking for a sign.
But now I'm done waiting for all the stars to align.
So I'll just do my best while hoping you'll be mine...

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Habang aking isinusulat ang ngayo'y pang-apat,
Na tula sa isang araw, 'di na alam kung nararapat.
Kahit pagsamahin ang lahat, ng mga tula ko'y 'di sapat.
Upang ipahayag ang damdaming palaging sayo ay tapat.

O kay raming mga salitang gustong sa'yo ay sabihin,
Pagka't nabihag ang damdamin, at tuluyang naging alipin.
Gustong lamang silipin ang mga ngiti mong mahinhin.
Pagka't sa'yo lang may pagtingin, ano man ang ihip ng hangin.

Sinabi sa sariling mananatili na lang sa gilid.
Pero 'di rin natupad, pagka't puso'y 'di na muling manhid.
Ngayon gagawin ang lahat kahit pa ang daan ay makitid,
Hanggang sa dumating ang panahong damdamin ko'y iyo nang batid.

Kaya naman sa pagtatapos ng tula, o sinta.
Mapansin mo sana ang kislap ng aking mga mata,
Sa tuwing nakikita ang ikaw, isang diwata.
Bigyan sana ng pagkakataong, makilala pa kita.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Minsa'y napapaisip ng mga tanong na nag-uumpisa sa hanggan.
Hanggang kailan ba maghihintay para lang ika'y mahagkan?
Hanggang kailan kakayaning pigilan ang pusong 'di ka kayang iwasan?
Bakit 'di pa rin sumasang-ayon? Tadhana yata'y tampalasan.

Sadyang ako nga lang ba ang siyang nagmamadali?
'Di makapag-antay pagka't natatakot na sayo'y lahat maging huli.
Bakit ba sa paglipas ng mga araw ako'y 'di na mapakali?
Bakit 'di na mapigilan ang pagtinging pilit ikinukubli?

Bakit ba ayaw tumigil, at gustong-gustong ipilit?
Ang unang beses na nakita ka'y aking laging inuulit-ulit.
Sa iyo lang naging makulit, ang ako na 'di marunong humirit.
At tuwing nakikita ka'y 'di mapigilang ngumiti at umawit.

Ngayon ang mga tanong sa pagtatapos ng tulang ito,
Hanggang kailan kaya magtatagal ang nararamdaman ko?
Matututunan kaya ng puso ang salitang pagsuko?
O kakapit hanggang walang hanggan ay marating ko sa dulo?

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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It's at times like these, when I want to unendingly yell.
I want to throw every rock, every pebble, every seashell.
Such are the times when I consider this life hell.
Times I want to disappear without a trace, to be alone, I can tell.

I'm already beyond my limit, I no longer want to lend a helping hand.
Cause when I'm the one in desperation, I'm all alone when I stand.
I'm tired of always giving, this life is so bland.
Always there to listen, no one to soften the fall when I land.

Every listener needs someone who listens too.
Every helping hand, wants help too cause this is true;
In this short and crazy thing called life, being alone is something you can't do.
Yet alone is all I own, without you? There's nothing new.

It's at times like these when I am one with the darkness.
Times when I'm tested, times when I'm in my lowest.
But ironically it's at my lowest that I can fully show my prowess.
The strength in being alone, is now shown to be the strongest.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Sa isang pagkakataon, inisip kong ayos lang ang managinip.
Pero lahat pala ng ito'y katha lamang ng aking isip.
Inakalang may bagong pag-asang biglaang sumilip,
Pero lahat ay naging abo at tinangay ng hanging umiihip.

Bakit ba ang pagbitaw ay parang napakahirap?
Lalo lang nasasaktan sa aking bawat pagkurap.
'Di na alam kung may mukha pa akong maihaharap,
Pagka't lahat ay malabo pati na rin ang hinaharap.

Sa bawat segundo at minutong lumilipas,
Tibok ng yaring puso'y bumibilis kasabay ang bawat kumpas.
Ano ba ang dahilan, bakit damdamin ay lumalakas?
Imbis na magwakas, ang kinalabasa'y naging wagas.

Bakit ba sa pagtingin mo tila ako'y uhaw na uhaw?
Bakit sa bawat pagtulog, ang panaginip ay ikaw?
Ano ba ang kinahumalingan sa mga kilos mong pahapyaw?
At hanggang ngayon pagdating sayo, buong pagkatao'y nalulusaw.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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In times when we find ourselves stuck in the past,
hoping to go back in time, to undo the mistakes that were sure to last.
Just to go back to that moment when our choices were considered vast.
Just to lessen the losses our decisions have amassed.

What else can we do but to keep moving forward?
It's better than feigning ignorance and running away like a coward.
Saying sorry for our mistakes to avoid being devoured
By our regrets is the conclusion I came to when I scoured.

I'm sorry for my actions that made the irreparable crack.
I know this is overdue but, sadly we can't go back.
If only I had another chance, regrets probably won't stack.
So allow me to ask forgiveness; allow me to take the flak.

And if the opportunity to start over should ever arise.
Let us all take that chance, that is my one advice.
For moments like these are fleeting; time flies.
Wipe the tears of our eyes, and take the chance to get the prize.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Lately I've been thinking, why don't I feel the tremendous pressure?
Lots of things to do but I find myself, prioritizing time spent in leisure.
Unmotivated to do things I have to, always searching for an adventure.
Just wanted to feel the pleasure; wanting to search for the next treasure.

I'm ashamed cause I know about the things that I must do,
But was unable to do so, cause I've been searching for something new.
I've been searching for something, and I think I found it by looking at you.
It's all thanks to you; for you're the one who gave me the clue.

I was lost because I was too focused looking at the "now".
Too focused on the present that I forgot the word "how".
How can I reach my dreams? How can I fulfill my vow?
Now aware of my faults, slacking off is something I'll no longer allow.

I can once again endure the endless calculations.
For you've given me the newest key to my ignition.
I think that I've found, one of the correct solutions.
Though it's unbeknownst to you, my newfound inspiration.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"Heart that stopped beating, finally finished healing"

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"Heart that stopped beating, finally finished healing"

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It's been a while since the day fated; since the day that you departed.
Just like how fast we met and started, that's how things quickly ended.
Just because I was so enchanted, you took my feelings for granted.
I'm used to being broken-hearted, but I was still hurt by the words you imparted.

This heart that stopped beating, finally finished healing.
The endless nights of crying, finally came crashing.
I thought I was done trying; I thought nothing could stop the bleeding.
But now I'm not denying, even the coldest nights I'm surviving.

Nothing can stop this head full of dreams.
Lots of wishes to fulfill, willing to exceed the extremes.
Now brimming with determination; confidence bursting at the seams.
This is the found answer. This is what my heart screams.

And as I continue my adventure at this height.
A new realization, I found in this new sight.
No longer afraid to soar and take flight,
For what shines in the darkness, is the starlight shining so bright.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"A new realization after a short vacation"

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"A new realization after a short vacation"

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Often times we find ourselves locked in our own bubble.
Always trying to achieve something like what happened with Hubble.
But by simply trying too hard; we'll find ourselves stuck in the rubble.
And the key to avoiding trouble, is through us being subtle.

So when we find our whole world beginning to crumble,
And our problems never cease, yet they seemingly double.
Don't be afraid to ask for help; don't forget to stay humble.
For breakthroughs arrive to those who often stumble.

Don't be afraid to go on another getaway.
Go on an adventure; go somewhere far away.
The lessons, hardships, and memories will stay.
Hold onto hope and you'll get through every night and day.

And as I bring yet another poem to a close.
Remember nothing's constant, everything comes and goes.
All will come to pass, even the lowest of lows.
For His plans for us are far greater than the things we desire most.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"Isang mensahe para sa umibig at nasaktan"

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"Isang mensahe para sa umibig at nasaktan"

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Lagi mong tatandaang 'di naging mali ang magmahal
Nang wagas at buo, kahit sabihing ika'y hangal.
Sadyang may mga bagay lang, 'di tinadhana ng maykapal.
Kaya marahil 'di lahat ng bagay ay nagtatagal.

Kay tagal inayos ang pusong paulit-ulit na nasaktan.
Muling sumubok sa pag-ibig, muling bigo at sugatan.
Kung gaano katagal naghilom mula sa nakaraan,
Ganon din kabilis muling iniwang luhaan.

Bakit ba paulit-ulit tila wala itong katapusan?
Ginawa naman lahat 'wag lang magawi sa dating naging daan.
Sinubukan lahat ng paraan, ginamit lahat ng kaalaman.
Pero bakit muling nahihirapan at nandito na naman?

Habang buhay bang ganito ito ba'y ating kapalaran?
Ang sagot dito'y hindi, may maganda tayong kinabukasan.
Marahil ito'y 'di pa sa ngayon, sa di alam na kadahilanan.
Huwag mo lang kalilimutan, may tamang taong sa ati'y nakalaan...

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"Hindi na hihinto, hanggang sa bagong yugto."

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"Hindi na hihinto, hanggang sa bagong yugto."

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Kinaya kong mabuhay noon kahit na wala ka.
Nang dumating ka'y biglang nagbago, pamumuhay ko'y nag-iba.
Ngayong ika'y umalis na, naglaho parang bula.
Matatagalan ang paghilom, ngunit babalik din ang sigla.

Sa isang iglap lang, nalunod na sa kalungkutan.
Iniisip ko na lamang, lirika ng kantang napakinggan.
Ang mga salitang  "Lahat ng bagay ay may dahilan".
Walang panlilinlang, ang mga 'toy katotohanan.

Na 'di man ako yung taong nakalaan para sa'yo.
Sana'y masaya ka nasaan ka man sa mundo.
Salamat sa mga magagandang ala-ala mo.
Kahit pa ang pag-alala'y masaklap, o sinta ko.

At kung may pagkakataong, ulitin ang lahat ng ito.
Wala akong babaguhin, alam ko man ang huling kapitulo.
Pagka't ang pagmamahal sa iyo kailanma'y
'di ko tinuring na laro.
Kung muli mang magkita, sana'y naghilom na ang puso.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Ang buong akala ko'y gusto mo rin ako.
Nangarap na ako sana ang taong sa iyo ay bubuo.
"Snow, paki-alagaan mo palagi ang mommy mo".
Habang 'di pa dumadating yung taong mag-aalaga sa inyo.

Kayo'y parte na ng buhay ko bagamat panandalian.
May mga bagay lang talaga na 'di na dapat ipagpilitan.
Ano man ang mangyari, kayo'y laging nasa aking isipan.
Ala-ala'y iingatan, hanggang sa dulo ng panahong nakalaan.

Prinsesa ko, lagi mong tatandaan ang mga salita kong ito.
Gusto ko lang ay lumigaya ka, kahit 'di iyon sa piling ko.
Sana'y huwag kang paluhain ng taong mamahalin mo.
Pagka't ang iyong pagkalumbay, ang pinaka-ayaw ko.

'Di ko man alam kung hanggang kailan kita mamahalin,
Ang pagmamahal ko sa iyo'y sa lahat ng lengguwahe maisasalin.
'Di man maituturing ang hinaharap para sa atin.
Lagi mong tatandaan, na ika'y mahal sa akin.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"Maaari bang malaman, ano ang 'yong dahilan"

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"Maaari bang malaman, ano ang 'yong dahilan"

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Bakit biglaan ang iyong naging paglisan?
Ano ba ang nagawa, maaari bang malaman ang dahilan?
Bakit padalos-dalos ang desisyong ako'y iwanan?
Pagkatapos mong iangat, iniwan sa ereng luhaan.

Sadya kayang mapaglaro ang tadhana?
Nagdasal na ang pinangarap, ay ikaw na sana.
Pero nalaman ko na lamang, na ikaw pala'y sawa na.
Bigkas ng mga labi'y "Ako'y patawarin mo, tumigil ka na".

Ako'y lubos na nasaktan, walang tigil na sinasaksak.
Ng mga salitang iyong binitawan, walang humpay ang pagsapak.
Ang mga mata'y luhaan, di na mapigilan ang pagpatak.
Malapit na ang kaarawan, ngunit luha'y di dahil sa galak.

Akala'y anuman ang mangyari, magiging matatag tayo.
Ngunit ikaw pala'y bumitaw na, at pinili nang sumuko.
Gayunpaman ika'y mananatili sa puso ko.
Nais kong malaman mo, Ikaw pa rin ang mahal ko, saan ka man patungo...

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"Healing is coming, just keep on believing"

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"Healing is coming, just keep on believing"

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There are and will be times when we're gonna be burdened.
Times when we feel the weight, times when we're overwhelmed.
By the problems that surface, all of which never end.
When we're broken into pieces and feel like we'll never mend.

We question why these certain things have to happen?
Why can't all of our moments, just be bright and golden?
Why do we have to experience, living in a land so barren?
We become scared of being hurt, hence stop loving, heart will harden.

We put up walls around us, and we wish to isolate.
Without us realising that it's the reason why we're desolate.
But know that God is out there, He will always wait.
He'll never leave us in a bad state, for He will always set things straight.

When we feel that everyone around us isn't listening,
When we feel that our world, is slowly crumbling,
Know that He's there, preparing for everything.
Healing is coming, just keep on believing.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"A month that has passed, a love that will last"

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"A month that has passed, a love that will last"

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It's been a month since we started talking to each other.
I was immediately attracted though you were still a stranger.
Albeit unplanned, you changed my days for the better.
Now my only wish is that, you'll let me be your only lover.

Your eyes are like the stars, for they constantly sparkle.
Your skin so soft and smooth, like the most pretigious of marbles.
Unexplainable as it seems, I can't help but to marvel.
I don't ever want you to leave just because I made you startled.

I know that no matter what, I will be here to endure
The pain that I might go through for you're my only cure.
These genuine feelings of mine, always pure.
Want to be with you 'till we're older, of that I'm sure.

For with you by my side, I could go on for days
Without doing anything but just stare at your face.
To hold you in my arms, I can think of many ways.
The only question to answer is, will you go with me to the next phase?

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Ngayong pakiramdam mo'y kalaban mo ang buong mundo.
Ako'y nandirito, sumandal ka lang sa balikat ko.
Saan man ako patungo, kahit ako ma'y nasa malayo.
Ang mga pangakong ito, umasa kang paninindigan ko.

Habang tumatagal ay lalo akong nahuhulog sa
Iyo, o aking giliw, sa'yo aking prinsesa.
Di pa rin maipaliwanag, ang kaba na nadarama.
Kapag ika'y nandiyan na, at kapiling ko sinta.

Kaya bago matapos ang tulang para sa'yo.
Sana'y tanggapin mo ang pag-ibig na alay ko.
At sa tuwing ikaw ay nanghihina't nanlulumo,
Tandaan ang mga salitang kasunod na sasabihin ko.

Kung malakas ang mga alon, ako'y iyong matibay na pundasyon.
Problema'y gagawan ng aksyon, bago mag dapithapon.
Ano man ang panahon, saan ka man naroroon.
Tuloy lang tayo, padayon; biyaya'y patungo, puhon.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"Completely ensnared, a love now declared"

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"Completely ensnared, a love now declared"

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A thought came to mind after all of these events.
If there's any other; what your words and actions meant.
I'm not demanding reciprocation, for all the love that I've sent.
That's the only certain, where even constants can be bent.

I have no right to your actions, for it's out of my zone
But I do have the right, to be responsible with my own.
For love is a two-way street; I can't go in this alone.
So I'm just waiting for you, 'till your feelings are clearly known.

Cause as time passes us by, I find myself falling further and further.
To me, there's just me and you, and to me, there's no other.
I don't ever want to be a huge boulder on your shoulder,
I only want to be here for you, never wanting to bother.

And in seeing you sick, I'm so close to despair.
It pains me that I'm far, and not close to you there.
Can only voice my concern, but not show how much I care.
Though you're always in my prayer, it somehow feels unfair, and it's giving me a scare, when someone even dares, to make your world tear, as if they're not aware, that to you no one can compare.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Sana'y ang lahat ng ito’y panaginip lang.
Sana'y paggising, ako'y di pa marunong magbilang.
Isang batang walang kaalam-alam, isang batang walang kamuang-muang.
Isang batang ang tanging alam ay kanyang pangalan lamang.

Kay raming panahong ginusto ko nang sumuko.
Ang bigat na ito'y hanggang kailan kailangang itago?
Sino ba ang matatakbuhan, kung walang nakakarinig sa sigaw ko?
Yung akala mo'y kakampi mo, sila pang nagbibingi-bingihan sa'yo.

Pagdating sa dulo, walang kasama kundi ang sarili.
'Di dapat naniwala sa mga nangakong mananatili.
Dahil ang katotohanan ay palaging, sarili lang ang pinipili.
At ang pagsisisi'y palaging natatagpuan sa huli.

Kaya ang payo ko sa'yo bago matapos ang tulang ito.
Mahalin ang iyong sarili, higit sa lahat, buong-buo.
Huwag umasa sa mga pangakong binigay nitong mundo,
Nang hindi ka matulad, sa may likha nito, ako.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"Repeat, this I'll do; if it's you that I'll meet"

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"Repeat, this I'll do; if it's you that I'll meet"

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When will this pain eventually subside?
It's been hours since I felt this way; hours since I cried.
It seems that once again, my wishes have been denied.
Queries to be made, undone cause I'm terrified.

If what you said was about me, Oh, heaven it will be.
If not, on bended knee, for hell I can see.
Who am I? Jealousy; That's my name to thee.
Since nothing's free and you might flee, might as well destroy my heart's key.

For the words of affirmation, I desperately wanted to hear.
Maybe the only solution, to you not being here.
If only I have a concoction to make all the problems disappear,
I'll go through any harsh condition, just to be with you, my dear.

Cause even if I'm tired of my countless defeats,
I'll do it over again, I'll do everything in repeat.
I'll repeat all defeats without missing a single beat,
If it means that in the end, it will be you who I'll meet.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"Kalupaan, karagatan, kalangitan; kahit saan" 

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"Kalupaan, karagatan, kalangitan; kahit saan" 

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Hindi ko alam kung bakit sobra-sobra ang sakit.
'Di na malaman ang sagot at pilit tinatanong kung bakit
Muling nandirito at nararanasan ang pait.
Ang kahapong mapanglait, muli-muli ay umuulit, tila ba'y gustong ubusin ang natitira kong bait.

Akala ko'y alam ko na ang sagot sa mga tanong ko.
Umasa sa mga salitang lumabas sa bibig mo.
Pero bakit ngayo'y lahat ng iyon ay parang naging abo?
Ako'y litong-lito, hindi ko mapagtanto, saan nga ba tutungo, kailangan bang sumuko?

Hindi na mapigilan ang sarili sa pag-iyak.
Ang pusong humilom ay parang muling nabiyak.
'Di ko mapigilan, patuloy lang ang pagpatak
Ng mga luha kong ito, kasabay ng aking bawat yapak.

Gayunpaman ay umaasang lahat ng ito'y maiibsan.
Ang mga sugat ay hihilom, di ko man alam kung kailan.
May tiwala sa sarili, upang hanapin ang daan.
Patungo sa'yo, aking inaasam-asam, kahit
saan.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Lately I've been feeling so exhausted; so low.
I feel the stagnation, in me there's no more growth.
It might not be obvious cause I don't want it to show.
But deep down it hurts, so much so when I'm alone.

Can't help but overthink, about things beyond my control
As I wander aimlessly, as I take my morning stroll.
I don't know where to go, don't know what's my role.
Where are the missing pieces of my soul? Will I be whole?

For the first time in my life, I've lost my sense of direction.
I don't even know if I'll ever find the solution.
This bind that I'm in, an undesirable situation.
A crumbling platform, I might fall into oblivion.

So if you see me walking, just listening to my headphones,
Know that sometimes, I too hate being alone.
For every moment of mine where strength is clearly shown,
Lies a vulnerable side, that's considered my weakest zone.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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Note: This poem was made for Justine Chua whom I liked before. The literal meaning of this poem no longer applies today.

I didn’t know why I couldn't seem to find the starting line.
Like the stars in the night, you gave me light, for you brightly shine.
You came into my life then suddenly everything felt fine.
My feelings slowly grew so now my only wish is that you'll be mine.

Since this is the 100th poem that I'll write,
Justice must be served, so I'll write with all of my might.
Unknowingly, I looked forward to every day and night.
Slowly but surely you're becoming my highlight.

Time will tell if we're really meant to be.
I'm only hoping that the one you want to see is me.
No matter what happens, know that I'll listen to your plea.
Even if everything falls apart, I will stay loyal to thee.

Choosing to like you, albeit unplanned, couldn't be any better.
Happiness, I've found, with you as my shelter.
Unafraid to say that I want to be with you when we're older.
Allow me to give you the message of the bold words and letters.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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It seems that once again, the heavens couldn't hold it in.
When it all feels heavy, on whom can I lean?
Repeating the questions, how have you been?
Are you fed up of me? Is your patience wearing thin?

It's very obvious I'm not, your fiancé nor your beau.
I'm not entitled to your time, this I do know.
But why do I feel this way, even though I don't have the right to do so?
Did I force you to lie low? Do I have to let you go?

No matter what I do, I always tend to overthink.
Even as I'm writing I can say I'm on the brink.
It's at times like this that I want to have a drink,
I want these thoughts to sink; am I easy to hoodwink?

It seems that all of these are unnecessary rambles.
Brought by the defeats in my countless gambles.
Will I be stuck in a maze of brambles?
Or are you the one destined to save my life that's in shambles?

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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"Rain? Rein, why are you being drained?"

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"Rain? Rein, why are you being drained?"

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It's been 7 years since I started my hobby of writing.
Poems that I've written with the sole purpose of expressing
My feelings and thoughts that I'm not openly showing.
Now close to a hundred, one more today I'm adding.

There's something that soothes me, something about your voice.
It makes me feel wanted, so much I want to rejoice.
But it also makes me wonder, do you entertain other boys?
Am I just an option, or am I your chosen choice?

At this point in time, I'm tired of asking about why
It's a constant struggle between wanting to fly and wanting to die.
I'll lie and cry till my eyes are dry.
Though I try to fly high in the sky.

So as I'm waiting for the stoppage of the rain,
I'll train my brain to hide the pain and unlock the chain.
For this is the only way for me to remain sane.
In this indescribable reality, yours truly, Rein.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪

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For the first time ever, I don't know what I need.
I don't know the next step, where does this door lead?
Are my instincts dulled? Did my superego suppress my id?
Or did I subconsciously decide, that for now, I'll concede?

It's been a long time since I started to look,
For the warmth I'm seeking; in every cranny, every nook.
Read all the advices written in every guide and book.
But why am I still gullible, why do I keep on getting juked?

"Good things come to those who wait".
But is this just a trickery, is this just a bait?
I'm starting to lose faith in this thing we call fate.
Stuck at the gate, is it too late? Now thinking I'm just bound to get irate.

Though tired I will still keep on pretending.
Pretend till I heal; till I find something.
Till I get the answers for the questions I'm asking,
I will be here sleeping, waiting, still longing.

-♪∩¡ε∟♪