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"The witness has forced himself to testify. For the youth of today, for the children who will be born tomorrow. H does not want his past to become their future." (Preface) page 9

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"I pray to the God within me that he will give me the strength to ask him the right questions." page 5.

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"We are all brothers and we are all suffering the same fate. The same smoke floats over all our heads. Help one another. It is the only way to survive." page 41.

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"Never shall I forget those moments that murdered my God and my soul and turned my dreams into ashes." (Forward) page 3.

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"One more stab to the heart, one more reason to hate. One less reason to live." page 109.

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"If that is true, then I don't want to wait. I'll run into the electrified barbed wire. That would be easier than a slow death in the flames." page 33.

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"We continued to march [...] If I was going to kill myself, this was the time." page 33.

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"I did not weep, and it pained me that I could not weep. But I was out of tears." page 112

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"Suddenly, the evidence overwhelmed me: there was no longer any reason to live, any reason to fight." page 99.

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"I dragged myself to my corner. I was aching all over. I felt a cool hand wiping the blood from my forehead. It was the French girl. She was smiling her mournful smile as she slipped me a crust of bread." (page 53)

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"We wanted to wait until after prayer. On the Appelplatz, surrounded by electrified barbed wire, thousands of Jews, anguish on their faces, gathered in silence." (page 66)

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"A very kind man, beloved by everyone in the camp, even by the Kappos and the Blockalteste. Despite the ordeals and deprivations, his face continued to radiate his innocence." (page 90)

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"I could hear only the violin, and it was as though Juliek's soul were the bow." page 94.

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"Then it was time to go to bed and slowly the prisoners made their way over to their blocks. I heard people wishing one another a Happy New Year!" page 75.

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"But now, I no longer pleaded for anything. I was no longer able to lament. On the contrary, I felt very strong. I was the accuser, God the accused." (page 68)

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"Long live liberty! A curse upon Germany." page 69.

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"All that was left was a shape that resembled me." page 37.

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"When Adam and Eve deceived You, You chased them from paradise. When you were displeased with Noah's generation, You brought down the Flood. When Sodom lost your favor, You caused the heavens to rain down fire and damnation. But look at these men whom You have betrayed, allowing them to be tortured, slaughtered, gasses, and burned, what do they do? They pray before You! The praise Your name!" (pages 67-68)

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"Why, but why would I bless Him? Every fiber in me rebelled. Because He caused thousands of children to burn in His mass graves? Because He kept six crematoria working day and night, including Sabbath and the Holy Days? Because in His great might, He had created Auschwitz, Birkenau, Buna, and so many other factories of death? How could I say to Him: Blessed be Thou, Almighty, Master of the Universe, who chose us among all nations to be tortured day and night, to watch as our fathers, our mothers, our brothers end up in the furnaces? Praised be Thy Holy Name, for having chosen us to be slaughtered on Thine altar?" (page 67)

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"What are You, my God? I thought angrily. How do You compare to this stricken mass gathered to affirm to You their faith, their anger, their defiance? What does Your grandeur mean, Master of the Universe, in the face of all this cowardice, this decay, and this misery? Why do you go on troubling these poor people’s wounded minds, their ailing bodies?" (page 66)

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"Behind me, I heard the same man asking:

'For God’s sake, where is God?'

And from within me, I heard a voice answer:

'Where He is? This is where—hanging here from this gallows …'" (page 65

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"They struck her several times in the head, [...] her little boy clung to her. He did not cry out; he did not say a word." page 35.

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"Some of the men spoke of God: His mysterious ways, the sins of the Jewish people, and the redemption to come. As for me, I had ceased to pray. I concurred with Job! I was not denying His existence, but I doubted His absolute justice." (page 45)

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"If only I didn't find him! If only I were relieved of this responsibility, I could use all my strength to fight for my own survival..." page 106.

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"For a ration of bread I was able to exchange cots to be next to my father." page 108.

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"I thought deep down [...] Too late to save your old father... You could have two rations of bread, two rations of soup." page 111.

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"The officer wielded his club and dealt him a violent blow to the head. I didn't move. I was afraid, my body was afraid of another blow, this time to my head." page 111.

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"Never shall I forget those moments that murdered my God and my soul and turned my dreams to ashes.

Never shall I forget those things, even were I condemned to live as long as God Himself.

Never." (page 34)

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Self-Preservation vs. Family Commitment 

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Self-Preservation vs. Family Commitment 

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"I did not weep, and it pained me that I could not weep. And deep inside of me, if I could have searched the recesses of my feeble conscience, I might have found something like: Free at least!" page 112.

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"For the first time, I felt anger rising within me. Why should I sanctify His name? The Almighty, the eternal and terrible Master of the Universe, chose to be silent. What was there to thank Him for?" (page 33)

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"The student of the Talmud, the child that I was, had been consumed by the flames... My soul had been invaded-and devoured-by a black flame." page 37.

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"I no longer thought of my father, or my mother." page 113.

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"I knew he was running out of strength, close to death, and yet I had abandoned him." page 106.

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"[...] I tried to distinguish between the living and those who were no more. But there was barely a difference." page 98.

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"He had felt his father growing weaker and, believing that the end was near, had thought by this separation to free himself of a burden that could diminish his own chance for survival." page 91.

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"I had no right to let myself die. What would he do without me?" page 87.

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"I looked at my house in which I had spent years seeking my God, fasting to hasten the coming of the Messiah, imagining what my life would be like later. Yet I felt little sadness. My mind was empty." (page 19)

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"From the Depths of the mirror, a corpse was contemplating me." page 115.

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"My father had just been struck, in front of me, and I had not even blinked. I had watched and kept silent. " page 39.

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"Moishe was not the same. The joy in his eyes was gone. He no longer sang. He no longer mentioned either God or Kabbalah." (page 7)