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Red: Mad

Blue: Sad

Orange: Jealousy

Purple: I n L o v e e e

Green: Disgust

Black: Mixed Feelings.

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♥𝕴 𝖋𝖊𝖊𝖑 𝕹 𝖚 𝖒 𝖇♥

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♥𝕴 𝖋𝖊𝖊𝖑 𝕹 𝖚 𝖒 𝖇♥

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No one is getting justice...
Reaper always wins :]
He told me to hang myself.
Let my brother beat me.
Brings up my rape in every fucking fight.
Makes fun of people being sexually assaulted.
He can fucking die.
I hate him.
How do people like that asshole.
But guess what.
No one fucking gives a fuck.
No one believes you.
Your just being Dramatic.
You'll be fine.
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He made me disgusted with myself...
He doesn't know how bad what he says hurts people.
Or he does and doesn't care.
I'm done.
Done with life.
Done with him.
Done with the people who don't care.
Sometimes I question If I should even be alive....
Do I even belong?
Do people need me?
No probably not.
Pfft- after all,I'm a "hoe" "slut" "whore" "bitch" "asshole" "F@ggot"
Being in this world...hurts.
I don't know if I like it anymore.
It was hella fun in the beginning.
No one hated me.
No one Hated my sexuality.
No one cared what I did.
Now everyone does....
I'm not needed anymore....

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You know what.

What If I just leave.Padlet,Life,Everything.

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I cut myself.
Almost every day...
I dont really share it.
If I do it's with people I trust.
Some use it against me.
Some don't.
At least I'm not fucking dead.
Be lucky.
Without this one person in my life.
I'd be dead.
Trust me.
I don't wanna be alive.
But I stay....
It hurts.
A lot.
It doesn't hurt anymore when I cut.
I do it a lot.
No one cares :]
No one stops me.
So I keep going.
And going....
Until it hurts.
I deserve it. :]

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TW: $u!c!d3 AtT3mPt$ And mentions of $3xuall A$$@u1t.

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TW: $u!c!d3 AtT3mPt$ And mentions of $3xuall A$$@u1t.

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I have tried.
Tried to commit.
Many of times.
Does it work?
No,Well,duh.
I'm sadly still here.
Do I wish I was dead?
Hell yeah.
But I don't want to leave the people who care.
If they care.
I don't want to leave them.
I am called heartless.
I only care about myself right?
I don't care about myself at fucking all.
So it's funny when I hear someone say that.
I could care less about myself.
Sometimes I wish someone would murder me :]
So I didn't have to do it myself.
Have people say "ThAt'S a DuMb wAy tO gO oUt"
Like bro-
I'm sorry but like- wouldnt you kill yourself if you wanted out so bad?
I sure would.
There's only a couple people stopping me.
That pisses me off honestly.
I want out.
So many people tell me to kms
The fact is.
I'm thinking about it.
How fucking shitty will you feel if you make someone kill themself over you telling them to?
Probably very unless your name is "Reaper"
Maybe I should just end it.
No more pain.
No more abuse.
No more cutting.
No more sexual assault.
Nothing.
Maybe I should :]

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My grandpa sexually assaults me.
He comes over tomorrow....
I'm so fucking scared...
I want to cry.
He makes me so uncomfortable.
He comments on my ass every time he sees me.....
My sister deals with it too.
He touches my ass when he gets a chance.
I feel gross in my skin.
Like its not actually me.
I'm uncomfortable....
My mom still lets him come over...
She knows what he does...
Does she care?
God no.
Hes homophobic and doesn't accept me.
All of my siblings are not straight.
But my parents still let him come over....
I don't even wanna sleep around him.
Thinking he would do something to me....
It scares me.

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Violet pisses me off.
That stupid fucking bitch.
Comin after me and a friend of mine?
I'm not gonna let her get away with that
She really think shes gonna do somethin.
Make her or me cry?
Funny bitch.
Real funny.
Come at me I dare you :]
Makin Junko and I the bad guy.
Take that and shove it so far up your ass bitch.
You deserve any hell comin to you.
I hope you rot.

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I like someone-
Who i guess likes me but doesn't?
Because I'm already Dating people I can't date him.
Istg- no offence to the people I'm with-
I would drop everything for this man Cgffgrh
He gives me butterflies like n o o n e ever has
I guess I'm obsessed?
He knows who he is-
Hopefully.-
I just cant bro-
Hes just- sdafgbhrtergfvcdsvfdbgrhegrfvs
But yeah-
Sorry if that hurts someone's feelings?

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Um....Update on Today about my grandpa.... TW: $u!c!d3 Mentions Along with $e1f H@Rm

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Um....Update on Today about my grandpa.... TW: $u!c!d3 Mentions Along with $e1f H@Rm

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He touched me again....
I couldn't do anything about it...
I left my room because people wanted me to
I'm so stupid....

When can I give up?....
I don't wanna do this anymore.
I survived suicide four times....
I want to try again :]
Test my luck.
If I die,I die so be it.
If I don't....I wont try again.
I'll just stick to cutting myself.

My grandpa wont stop.
He says he cares then touches my ass AGAIN
He said "Every year it gets bigger"
...
I'm done.
That was fucking disgusting.
I told my mom.
FINALLY SHE LISTENED
SHE AGREES ITS MESSED UP
But still.....
Doesn't do anything about it...

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I can't breathe.
I'm shaking.
Crying so hard.
I fucked up
Whywhywhywhy
I'm about to have a panic attack
I'm sobbing
I'm shaking...
I cant...
IM SO STUPID
WHY DID I DO THAT
.....
Panicking...
Panicking...
I'm stupid...
I'm a fuck up...
why did I do this...

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I'm leaving padlet.
Thank you all that cared.
I will come back.
At some point.
I will miss you all
I love you guys.
Yes including the people I hate.
Ghost, Ed. I love you guys.
Be happy without me.
I hope to see you all soon.
Bye loves.