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Hi.

It’s been a long time and it’s coming to an end for my degree life. First semester almost end, just 5 papers to face. Huh. Final year has changed me in so many aspects. Can’t believe? Try asking my good friends, they’ll have the answers. And of course you’ll not know which one of them knows ;) As usual, i’m still like i was before. Single life, going nowhere with my crush(es). Still having hope with the same person, not my crush. I thought i could forget him, but totally not when we still talk to each other. I still have that question, how do people settle and get married? This is a big thing that i always think of because how do you live with the same person for x years. Accepting one person fully, inside out. I don’t even know how’s dating life is, funny. My study? I’d say it’s kinda bearable ((trust me it’s not, i’m dying)). 5th semester is a hell. A rollercoaster ride. I smiled, i laughed, i cried, i got angry, i yelled, i did so many things i didn’t know i could do. Life is complicated, i now get it. Though i haven’t really seen real life, but i could feel it a bit nowadays. Not everything will go as you like to. You need to be smart, and good at handling risk and problems. You can never avoid those. I just hope that i could live a life that i’m happy with. Not a life that’s torturing me.

Fizah.
191225 (5:39am)

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Wondering where 2018 gonna bring me

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No matter how long and how much time has passed, i could only see you and only you. Am i the one who’s stupid for falling for you all over again when you seem not to? Is it my fault for having hope in you when you’re the one who gave me hope? Is it my fault all this while? Am i getting it wrong? Am i receiving the wrong signal(s) from you? I don’t want it to happen again. There will be no answer(s) when no one asks any question(s). One of us needed to but i’m still trapped in our old tale. The tale that’s supposed to be forgotten already. I want it to be crystal clear but i’m scared. I’m scared of the truth. So many ‘what if’ lingering in my mind all this while. Who would want bad things to happen right?

Maybe we’re too young to even know what love is

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Sometimes we wonder, what kind of life do we really want to live in?

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For the first time in forever, i got dean list. I was so shocked when i checked my first sem’s result 2 weeks ago. It’s indeed not what i expected. Definitely gonna make it as my inspiration to get more even in future. I think i found my passion, what i really wanted to do in life. May He ease everything. Allahumma ameen.

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Getting used to this new environment. May Allah ease my journey.

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Home, after almost a year having kkm as my home. Gonna miss my asasi life, really

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Today remarks the 25th birthday of my inspiration 🎈

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I suddenly wanted to re-open our class' padlet but forgot the url of the padlet.... Searched everywhere but couldn't find anything :(

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Part of me feel glad the program is coming to an end, another part of me feel really scared and could not accept that its going to end real soon. I'm just sincerely confused with myself right now.

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oh noooooo :( I'm sorry about your cat

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Who'd expect our loved one could leave us in a blink of an eye? Rest in peace koko, i'll definitely miss you :'(

(Idk what to say to the person who hit her right in front of my house....)

The picture was taken last afternoon 😔❤️❤

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Thank you mdm. I'm sorry for the late reply, i haven't open my padlet till now 😅

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I am deeply saddened by the news of your loss. I pray that God will grant you the strength. My most sincere condolences. - Mdm

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161113 - The Legend Resort Cherating

Sunburn, in need of aloe vera i suppose 💆

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Today i lost one of my close family members which is my aunt. We do not have that really close relationship ut we always meet when there were any family occasions or gatherings. Its not because we have bad relationship or what, its just my family is very big and i turn out to be the youngest family member so the gap between us is really big and we live far. But i really love to watch the smile that she puts on her face every time i meet her even though she was struggling with a cronic disease. I'll definitely miss that genuine smile of hers. Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rajiun. Semoga arwah ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang-orang yang beriman.

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한국 학고싶어

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Madam! Your love letter made my day 💕 #serioustalk I'm not shy tbh, its just that i'm really afraid i might speak the wrong things out of my conscious and hurt your feelings ;-; i hate myself for thinking that way but idk how to not think like that ;; I really want to talk, chit chat with you like the others, but i'm afraid : ( I regret that i couldn't talk more with you in the first semester

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Dear Fizah,
I appreciate your presence in class. You dont talk much, but I always observe and I realize you channel lots of things in your padlet (for that, I am truly grateful because I get to learn about you more). Dont be shy to talk to me in the next semester. Remember, my door is always opens for you :) Mdm doakan yang terbaik buat Fizah! :)

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Time is free, but it's priceless.
You can't own it, but you can use it.
You can't keep it, but you can spend it.
Once you've lost it you can never get it back.

Harvey Mackay

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Happiness. Who would not want to get their own happiness? From my point of view, everyone has the right to achieve their happiness as a person in order to get into the course that they dream of. One's should be bold in order to secure a place and to not be in a great loss.

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"That house is Number 525 Benedict Avenue. The fourth-floor rear, it got the name of Mr. and Mrs. Lars Thorwald up"

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Presentation 1: 8/10
Presentation 2: 8/10
Class Participation: 8/10

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...a single thin ray fell upon the vulture eye

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Initially, I wanted to write an essay about my cats. Last week, 8 of them died because of eye infection and some because of toad's poison. This incident really give a big impact on me because they grow up before me, since they were born. They were my accompanies at home when my family members aren't home. What saddens me more is that I could not meet them when they were sick because I could not go home because of some circumstances. I knew about this a few days late because my mom won't tell me until I ask. This morning, another one of my beloved cats gone too. Rest in peace, my dear cats. May we meet again

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1) Interests:

Cats, cute things, travel, languages, photography

2) What makes me happy:

Spending time with my family, doing adventurous  things with my best friends, good food!, vanilla ice cream 🍦

3) Dislikes:

Lizards, blood, science & maths, dust, bad 'tudung' day

4) Favourite artists:

Honestly, I am a big fan of korean groups. It started back then from my visit to South Korea, I really adore their culture but that's just one of the reasons why I like them. I guess it was in the end of 2012 where my best friend showed me a MV of a group; the song was about a teenager who's been haunted by his/her crush every single day and night. The song was catchy and the genre really suits me. The MV was just too cute! HAHA! The deep meaning of their songs (which mostly i can relate to my life), the friendship bond created between them (its super strong and could beat ionic bond lol jk xD)

5) Favourite songs:

Born singer, someone like you, adore u, lies, danger, stop it, almost paradise, 1004, beautiful, butterfly, paper hearts, nothing like us, young forever, can't stop, perfect man, photograph, stitches, firework, rose, penakut, mind your own business, i will show you, fly, A, rain sound, lost stars, crash, fools, eternity, before the dawn, twinkle, hero, toy, cheer up
p/s: there are many more!

6) Favourite movies (genre):

Horror, action, adventure, mystery, romance, comedy

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It is sweet and right.

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Reflection: 5/5
Language: 4/5
Total Score: 9/10

Reading Log
Write Up: 5/5
language: 4/5
Total Score: 9 /10

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Don't be trapped in someone else's dream

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You're beautiful.

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✨ Nur Hafizah binti Mohd Abas
✨ 18/07/98
✨ Kuala Lumpur
✨ nurfizah98@gmail.com

INTERESTS: Cats, cute things, travel, languages, photography

Random Facts:

- Love to scribble on my notebook
- Love trying new foods!
- Can't handle spicy foods, at all
- Used to scared of teddy bears but I don't know how I can get used to an alpaca and a koala in my room right now