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"Though i am satisfied at first by my actions if i'm suddenly jolted with a mournful despair at how useless, how extraordinarily painless, it is to take a child's life"

"'m automatically seized with an almost overwhelming desire to knife the boy's mother too"

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In the dark of the penguin habitat- edge of the ice pack is what the zoo pretentiously calls it - its cool in sharp contrast to the humidity outside.
l. 27- 35. side 179
2.
l. 16-20 side 179
so what do i do? toss a handful of change into the tank when the none of the zookeepers are watching
3. l. 41-44 side 180
4. side 178
l. 9-11

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Page 180 "Though I am satisfied at first by my actions, I'm suddenly jolted with a mournful despair at how useless, how extraordinarily painless, it is to take a child's life."

Page 179 "So what do i do? Toss a handful of change into the tank when none of the zookeepers are watching"

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p.179: ''So what do I do? Toss a handful of change into the tank when none of the zookepers are watching. It's not the seals I hate- It's the audiences enjoyment of them that bothers me''.
p.181: ''I feel empty, hardly here at all, but even the arrival of the police seems an insuffcient reason to move''.

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"Though I am satisfied at first by my actions, I am suddenly jolted with a mournful despair of how useless, how extraordinarily painless, it is to take a child's life."

s. 180 l.41-43

"I feel empty, hardly here at all"
s. 181 l. 16

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Page 180: “… how extra ordinarily painless, it is to take a child´s life. This thing before me, small and twisted and bloody, has no real history, no worthwhile past; nothing is really lost.”

Page 179: “It´s not the seal I hate – it´s the audience´s enjoyment of them that bothers me.”

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Page 180, Line 41-43

"Though I am satisfied at first by my actions, I am suddenly jolted with a mournful despair of how useless, how extraordinarily painless, it is to take a child's life."

Page 179, Line 9
"Nearby a mother breastfeeds her baby, which awakens something awful in me."

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-“It’s so much worse (and more pleasurable) taking the life of someone who has hit his or her prime, who has the beginning of a full history, a spouse, a network of friends, a career, whose death will upset far more people whose capacity for grief is limitless than a child’s would, perhaps ruin many more lives than just the meaningless, puny death of this boy.”  (p. 181)

-”(…) my sudden lack of care crests in a massive wave of fury and I pull the knife out of my pocket and I stab him quickly, in the neck” (page 180, line 2)

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"I'm wearing faded jeans, an Armani jacket, and a white, hundred and forty dollar Comme des Garcons T-shirt"

- he has an expensive taste

"Though I am satisfied at first by my actions, I’m suddenly jolted with a mournful despair at how useless, how extraordinarily painless, it is to take a child’s life. This thing before me, small and twisted and bloody, has no real history, no worthwhile past, nothing is really lost. It’s so much worse (and more pleasurable) taking the life of someone who has hit his or her prime, who has the beginnings of a full history, a spouse, a network of friends, a career, whose death will upset far more people whose capacity for grief is limitless than a child’s would, perhaps ruin many more lives than just the meaningless, puny death of this boy."

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Page 178, L 6

" I'm wearing faded jeans, an Armani jacket, and a white, hundred-and-forty-dollar Comme des Garçons T-shirt. "
How he looks

Page 179, L 20
"It's not the seals i hate - it's the audience's enjoyment of them that brothers me."
His behavior.

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· “Last night, Jeanette asked me, “Patrick, why do you keep razor blades in your wallet?”” (p. 178, l. 9-10).

· “I feel aimless, things look cloudy, my homicidal compulsion, which surfaces, disappears, surfaces, leaves again, lies barely dormant during quick lunch …” (p. 178, l. 2-4).