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"Calvin Jarrett, forty-one, U.S. citizen, tax attorney, husband, father. Orphaned at the age of eleven." 

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"Calvin Jarrett, forty-one, U.S. citizen, tax attorney, husband, father. Orphaned at the age of eleven." 

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This quote shows that because Calvin did not have a father it is hard for him to parent Conrad. In result of this, Calvin and Beth do not know how to act or talk around Conrad.

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This tells you what he did the get into the hospital but it raises more questions like why did he do that.

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"Anxiety is blue; failure. gray"
This shows that Conrad is going through something that has to deal with anxiety and failure that effected his life in a bad way

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"Conrad was eight, Jordan, nine; just after they bought the house. Where are all these kids? Joe Lazenby, Phil Truan, Don Genthe, Dick Van Bruen- they are all seniors in high school this year." (page 8)

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"Conrad was eight, Jordan, nine; just after they bought the house. Where are all these kids? Joe Lazenby, Phil Truan, Don Genthe, Dick Van Bruen- they are all seniors in high school this year." (page 8)

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Calvin is wondering why Conrad looking and feeling depressed around the house. When Conrad returned from the hospital a month exactly, Calvin seems to see that there must be something wrong with Conrad due to not eating the breakfast made by his mother but wants cereal instead.

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"Anxiety is blue; failure, gray. He knows those shades." (page

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"Anxiety is blue; failure, gray. He knows those shades." (page

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This quote informs us that Conrad has a problem with the colors when was he was in the hospital

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It tells the reader that something happened to Conrad in the past that pushed him to start cutting himself

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this quote informs us about how he used to cut himself in his past which may be the reason he went to this hospital

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The quote is from Conrad, telling us that he had cut himself and comparing the current situation he is in could be as bad as when he cut himself. This tells us why he was in the hospital.

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This quote from Conrad in the book tells us that he cut himself/ self harmed in some way to get him in the hospital.

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Conrad ended up in the hospital and gives us suspense on what leads him to make him do it.

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this quote explains to us how Conrad ended up in the hospital and makes us think about what made him do it.

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"Sure. How bad? Razor-blade bad? He wanted to ask but he hadn't."

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"Sure. How bad? Razor-blade bad? He wanted to ask but he hadn't."

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The quote is important because it tells about a bad accident that happened to him and he wanted to ask why it happened but he did not because he felt fine.

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"Anxiety is blue; failure, gray. He knows those shades."

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"Anxiety is blue; failure, gray. He knows those shades."

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These colors represent the colors of the hospital and how he deals with depression.

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"Allow yourself a couple of bad days, now and then, will you?" (Page 2)

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"Allow yourself a couple of bad days, now and then, will you?" (Page 2)

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"They do not discuss a problem in the presence of the problem."

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"They do not discuss a problem in the presence of the problem."

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This is how Conrad is always feeling about himself during these two chapters

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this quote is important because  it describes his past experiences and the fact that he is able to relate back to razor blades or even has memories with "using" them, is depressing.

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"He cannot get get used to it. His old self" (Guest pg.12).

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"He cannot get get used to it. His old self" (Guest pg.12).

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The quote displays a feeling of past history not knowing who he was and who he is at the moment.

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¨Anxiety is blue; failure, gray. He knows those shades.¨

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¨Anxiety is blue; failure, gray. He knows those shades.¨

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These colors represent what Conrad feels, this is the reason that  He cuts himself and was in the hospital for a year. Conrad feels like  he is a failure for something that he has done in the past.

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"It would be comforting to have something to look up to"

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"It would be comforting to have something to look up to"

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This line is important because it shows how much Conrad needs security in his life and something that makes him happy after what he's been through.

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This quote gives the reader a glimpse into Conrad's recent past and gives us insight into why he has Calvin (Conrad's father) so worried about him. Conrad also admits that talking like that can land him in some serious trouble, which lets us know that he understands that self-harm really isn't the right answer even though that's the route he took.

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"...not Conrad Jarrett the Anxious Failure dress this guy in blue and gray"  

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"...not Conrad Jarrett the Anxious Failure dress this guy in blue and gray"  

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This quote describes what emotional state Conrad is in. Later in the book, we are told Conrad has been depressed, anxious, and has even spent time in a mental hospital. After losing over 20 pounds, he has developed a terrible image of himself. It's even difficult for him to find a reason to get out of bed in the morning. "Anxious Failure" is also capitalized, as if Conrad gave himself a title of what kind of person he is.

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"Responsibility, that is fatherhood, you cannot afford to miss any signs"

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"Responsibility, that is fatherhood, you cannot afford to miss any signs"

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This quote is important because it shows that Calvin's role as a father towards Conrad is difficult because his son is depressed and not himself anymore and if he paid more attention he could have helped his son sooner

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This quote is important because this shows that Conrad has cut himself before when be gets depressed

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"Don't expect him to be the same person he was before. But he does expect that. As does everyone."

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"Don't expect him to be the same person he was before. But he does expect that. As does everyone."

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This is the most important quote because it shows that something serious has happened, that they want their old son back, and that they will try everything they can to get Conrad to revert back to normal because they want the best Conrad and the best for Conrad.

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This quote is very important because it gives the readers insight to something that Conrad may have been going though. When i read the words razor blade i think of cutting or self harm and we know that Conrad went through something traumatic and is maybe still going through it.

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This quote is important it describes what happened to Conrad/ what kind of person he is and the type of personality he has which is sad.

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Calvin tries his best to be a good father. He strives to be the father he needed and wanted while growing up in the orphanage. However, Calvin is some what nervous and maybe timid when coming to parenting because he also mentions that since he never had a father, he can't blame himself if he's not doing the right things with Conrad.

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"Get the motions right. Motives will follow."

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"Get the motions right. Motives will follow."

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Conrad needs to have order in his life for him to be able to make it through. If he sticks to the plan and goes through it one by one, he will have the motive to continue onto the next agenda.

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"Calvin Jarrett, forty-one, U.S. citizen 

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"Calvin Jarrett, forty-one, U.S. citizen 

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"I thought we ought to stick to the plan-" 'I can't i'm swimming every night until six. He didn't say I had to call him dad.' 

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"I thought we ought to stick to the plan-" 'I can't i'm swimming every night until six. He didn't say I had to call him dad.' 

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This Quote is important because it shows how Conrad is refusing help and that he had a plan before because he needed help.

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“There were one or two guiding principles to get him through the day. Some ambitious plans, also, for putting his life in order. But the details have somehow been lost. If there ever were any.”

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“There were one or two guiding principles to get him through the day. Some ambitious plans, also, for putting his life in order. But the details have somehow been lost. If there ever were any.”

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This quote is important to the first two chapters because we see Conrad trying to recall a time where his life actually fell into place and he was content with what he was and where he was going and he had reasons to do things we all do. He realizes he can't remember a time where he had these things come easy to him. It also raises the question, was he 'OK' before he stay at the mental hospital?

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"Now that he is home again, things are different. The responsibilities seem enormous. Staggering. His job alone, nobody else's." 

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"Now that he is home again, things are different. The responsibilities seem enormous. Staggering. His job alone, nobody else's." 

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This quote is important because it shows how stressful it's been for Calvin to cope with what has happened to Conrad and how it is affecting him. Calvin wants to be the father that his dad wasn't but is having trouble relating to Conrad and being able to talk to him of his problems.

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"A belief of some kind. A bumper sticker, if you will." page 1

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"A belief of some kind. A bumper sticker, if you will." page 1

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This shows how Conrad thinks and how his beliefs are and what he means when he refers to quotes on bumper stickers.

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" An odd kind of orphanage: most of the kids had at least one living parent; some even had two ."

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" An odd kind of orphanage: most of the kids had at least one living parent; some even had two ."

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This quote is important because it shows that this young kid had both parents and he has mental problems and its not bad that he does but it just shows how his parents thought that taking him to get special help was gonna completely fix him when really they are the cause, they need to see that they are the ones effecting him.

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"Life Is a Goddamn Serious Big Deal-he should have that printed up to put on his bumper-if he had a bumper, which he doesn't, not Conrad Jarrett the anxious failure dress this guy in blue and gray"

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"Life Is a Goddamn Serious Big Deal-he should have that printed up to put on his bumper-if he had a bumper, which he doesn't, not Conrad Jarrett the anxious failure dress this guy in blue and gray"

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This quote explains the mood of Conrad for the 2 chapters well. It explains that he doesn't have a good mental image of himself. He does not like who he is as a person and does not meet the expectations of others.

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"It doesn't matter. He doesn't need to hear, and they would certainly not be talking about anything important. They would not be talking, for instance, about him. They are people of good taste." page 4

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"It doesn't matter. He doesn't need to hear, and they would certainly not be talking about anything important. They would not be talking, for instance, about him. They are people of good taste." page 4

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This quote is important because it sets the scene for the rest of the book. It's a preface to the rest of the story that we are unaware of. It reveals characteristics of his parents as well as the overall big problem within the story, and Conrad's attitude towards it.

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"It's all right, Con, to feel anxious. Allow yourself a couple of bad days, now and then, will you?"

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"It's all right, Con, to feel anxious. Allow yourself a couple of bad days, now and then, will you?"

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This quote is really important because it shows that even though something bad happened to Conrad, he should not let that affect him. He should still be sad because it was a huge part of his life, but he should not let whatever happen control his life. Conrad should have happy and exciting days too

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"only got you into trouble, pissed people off. Cancel the visa. Passport Revoked:they stamp it in red across your forehead"

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"only got you into trouble, pissed people off. Cancel the visa. Passport Revoked:they stamp it in red across your forehead"

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The importance behind this line is show on is show in level 3, "Beyond the lines". This was the fist sine that lead me to believe that he was in a mental hospitable. As well as i have had close friends put in mental hospitals and he/she were in their he/she
said that he/she felt like he/she was treated like a newborn

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"And who was that? The kid who got straight A's all through grade school and junior high?... Last year. No, he is not much like that kid. Whoever he was." (Guest 16).

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"And who was that? The kid who got straight A's all through grade school and junior high?... Last year. No, he is not much like that kid. Whoever he was." (Guest 16).

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This shows the spontaneous, unexpected evolution in Conrad, turning him from a typical, smart kid to an adolescent who is limited every day by the weight of depression, anxiety, and failure.

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"There is no problem. There is just a Phase Two. Recovery. A moving forward.

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"There is no problem. There is just a Phase Two. Recovery. A moving forward.

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Conrad is sure of himself and is ready to go back to his life as he always did. He also thinks that there is no problem and is ignoring safety precautions. Shows how he is looking at himself at this point in time.

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"Don't expect him to be the same person he was before. But he does expect that. As does everyone."

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"Don't expect him to be the same person he was before. But he does expect that. As does everyone."

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This is one of the most important lines from the first two chapters because it foreshadows the idea of the rest of the book. This idea being Conrad will have to go on a journey to find the "new him" because his past experiences changed who he is as a person.

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This is the most important quote because it show how different Calvin see Conrad and how much Conrad has changed for his father to not be able to get used to him being different

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"He was supporting his family. His boys"

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"He was supporting his family. His boys"

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This is an important quote because it shows that Calvin is proud to be able to take care of his family because his family was not able to take care of him.

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"That doctor in Evanston, what's his name? Berger? Have you called him yet?

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"That doctor in Evanston, what's his name? Berger? Have you called him yet?

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This is an important quote from chapter 2 because it shows that Calvin shows that he cares about his son Conrad and wants Conrad to make his life better.

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This is one of the most important lines from the first two chapters because it shows how while Conrad was in the hospital everything was decided for him, but now that he is back home he has to decide everything for himself which can become stressful for him.

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"...not Conrad Jarrett the Anxious Failure dress this guy in blue and gray"

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"...not Conrad Jarrett the Anxious Failure dress this guy in blue and gray"

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This is one of the most important lines in the first 2 chapters because it describes him as anxious and a failure, and also that he is self-doubting because he describes himself this way.

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There is just phase two. Recovery. A moving forward.

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There is just phase two. Recovery. A moving forward.

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This is the most important line because it shows that he had something to recover from. Giving a reason for how he acts and feels.

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"Anxiety is Blue; failure, gray. He knows those shades"

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"Anxiety is Blue; failure, gray. He knows those shades"

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This is the most important line because it shows that he is used to anxiety and failure, showing that he is depressed.

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This is the most important line of the chapter because it shows that Conrad was in the hospital because he has been having issues that are serious and can be suicidal.

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This is the most important line because it tells the readers that Conrad used to cut himself.