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You try every trick in the book to be a child of god. You promise to go to church.  You attempt to pray. You claim to have relieved yourself of your sins. You know deep down you have second guessed yourself. You try to read the holy black book. You blame your friends. You blame everyone, except yourself.  A holy person takes hard work. Which you do take the the time to accomplish. What you believe is your belief not your parents.

Your thoughts become one and come against you. You ask yourself is it worth it? Do I believe? Or are you in the beliefs of your family. You take control of your thoughts. You take the time to think. But time is the hardest to come by.

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You try every trick in the book to be patient. You go to the doctor. You receive prescriptions that “control” your mood. You begin to feel drowsy and just believe that you're sleepy or tired. You try to get along with your brother. You blame him for making you angry. You try new hobbies just to try and keep you busy. You start doing dance, cheer, draw to try and learn the patience you need. You get told by your doctor to ignore anything that makes you angry. You learn what it means to count to ten. You try everything and more that you are told, just to better yourself, but in the end, it wasn’t about you-it's your family.

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You try every trick in the book to get a new phone. You beg your parents, you save your money, throw your phone against the wall. You get excited when your phone turns itself off, but then you push the power button, and it still works. Your calls stop working, but then that's only for a day. You stop receiving texts, but then they come flooding in an hour later. So you figure your phone never going to die, so you try to please your parents in every way possible. You take out the trash, wash their cars, clean the floors, clean the dishes, but nothing works. You give up and decide that you’ll never get a new phone.. which is fine?

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You try every trick in the book to keep it together. You ignore it. You listen to music. You tell yourself it’s ok. You go for walks. You focus on school work. You laugh. You talk to friends. You do well in school. You talk to family. You read. You hug your siblings. You write. You tell your siblings it’s ok. You tell yourself to be strong, to not worry. You play games. You participate in school clubs. You smile. You try to be positive. But that doesn’t change a thing, and it all comes crumbling down anyway.

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You try every trick in the book to be happy with yourself.

You try your best to keep that smile on your face.

You claim to be optimistic and cheerful but in reality you don’t feel that.

You try your best to never giving up and just sticking with school/schoolwork.

You try to let go of all that negativity.

You try to let go of those depressing moments in life.

You try to please others in different ways.

You claim you have forgotten those hardships that one has gone through.

You try it all, but one day you will regret feeling these gloomy thoughts and those people and events that took place around you will be gone.

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You try every trick in the book to fit in. You act nice. You act confident. You hope they don’t know you’re faking it. But it doesn’t change anything. So you buy the clothes. You hide every zit in a caking of makeup. You put on lipstick. You fry your hair to make it stick straight because no one can know your hair is actually crazy curly. You reapply eyeliner over and over and over again so you’ll have that perfect cat-eye, just like the cheerleaders. You wear skimpy shirts and too-short skirts. You flirt with all the boys. You hope people notice you. And when they don’t, you change your standards. You cuss. You party. You dance dirty. You smoke. You make out with a new boy every week. And at the end of it all, you still don’t fit in. You tried to be popular, to climb that social ladder, only to realize that you sacrificed yourself. You’re not you. You’re a clone of “them.” And you wish you could back to the old you-- the you with the crazy curly hair and the awful acne, the happy and innocent you, the you you were before you tried to fit into society’s skewed standards. It wasn’t worth it. You tried and didn’t fit. You’re not you anymore. Now you’re just... broken.

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You try every trick in the book to make her understand. You write letters explaining how you feel and how you felt in the moment. You send her texts through the day saying “I love you” and “I’m sorry”. You call her late at night to tell her that it’s not what it seems. You explain that it wasn’t easy when she popped back in trying to get you back. You explain that it was a time of “weakness” and that you were “confused”. You realize you were confused. You prove to her that nothing happened between you and her and that she had only wanted you back. You show up to her house and beg to talk to her. You try all these things and despite all this effort you’re still laying in bed at 4 in the morning thinking “How else can I make her understand” when you’ve already used all the tricks in the book. Yet she still wakes up every morning not understanding what you feel. She feels like she’s made the right choice and that you’re to blame when you’ve done nothing wrong. She tells you it’s “Your fault” and you can’t do anymore. You can only accept what has happened. You can’t do anything else but watch her leave.

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You try every trick in the book to get your parents say yes to you going out with your friends. You try and you try. You promise that you won’t stay out late. You promise to your parents you won’t cause any trouble. You tell them that you have no homework that night or at least that you finished it the night before. You tell them that your siblings would not get the same treatment and would be let out with their friends. You try to explain that your friends are good influences and they’ll make sure you get home okay. You tell your parents that you have no school the next day. You tell your parents you have done all your chores and even will clean the toilets just to be extra. You promise that you’ll bring them back some food if they want. After all this begging you get the answer you wish was never invented. A simple no, you swear you wont take it for an answer but eventually do, because we still have next week to beg.

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You tried every trick in the book to keep your last $20.
You avoid driving down Prosperity and seeing all the fast food places. You pay for whole meals in change. You pick change off the ground. You get other people to drive you around instead of driving yourself, and when you do drive, you drive with a light foot to save gas. You get free breakfast and eat it for lunch and save your free lunch for dinner. You plan out how much money you can spend throughout the week. You don’t go out to lunch with your friends. When your friends ask, “why not,” you say, “I have no money,” and when they offer to pay you feel bad for lying so you decide to go halfers. You decide to go to the dance but only if you can get a ticket for free. You blame it on your fast paced life. You say that you will stop eating out so much. You blame your parents for not helping out. You tell them that they are responsible for your well being therefore need to provide food money. You even consider keeping any leftover money they gave you. But in the end, you spend that last $20 on someone else.

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You try every trick in the book to stay committed. You change up your schedules. You lower the amount of food you eat. You download an app that reminds you to exercise every day. You try and exercise every night before you go to sleep. You refuse to drink anything other than water and if you run out, you would only take a small sip out of anything else. You continue to practice the dances you’ve learned. You make it a goal to not eat sweets or any other type of junk food for a month. You refuse to eat anything after 7pm, even if it causes your body to protest in response. You eat only salads during lunch. You look into the mirror and see no change so you try harder. Your portions become smaller. You check the labels of anything you’re about to eat before you eat it. You lack sleep.  You feel different, lighter on your feet. You stop judging the way your body looks and focus on how it feels. You become more confident. You don’t stop though, because you know the goal you set for yourself is reachable. You know that if you continue on in a healthy way, that you will reach that goal. But of course, it will take all the effort in the world. 

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You try every trick in the book to stay committed. You change up your schedules. You lower the amount of food you eat. You download an app that reminds you to exercise every day. You try and exercise every night before you go to sleep. You refuse to drink anything other than water and if you run out, you would only take a small sip out of anything else. You continue to practice the dances you’ve learned. You make it a goal to not eat sweets or any other type of junk food for a month. You refuse to eat anything after 7pm, even if it causes your body to protest in response. You eat only salads during lunch. You look into the mirror and see no change so you try harder. Your portions become smaller. You check the labels of anything you’re about to eat before you eat it. You lack sleep.  You feel different, lighter on your feet. You stop judging the way your body looks and focus on how it feels. You become more confident. You don’t stop though, because you know the goal you set for yourself is reachable. You know that if you continue on in a healthy way, that you will reach that goal. But of course, it will take all the effort in the world. 

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You try every trick in the book to be the perfect girl. You get up early to look your best . You drive to school listening to trendy music. You act smart but not too smart. You’re opinionated but not too opinionated. You always have a smile on your face. You never show that you have problems going on at home. You start partying. You start making questionable decisions. You stop hanging out with old friends. You start hanging out with the popular group. You start dating the cool guy. You are confused. You aren’t happy. You wonder how this happened. You don’t know who you are anymore. You start missing the old you. You want your old friends back but are too embarrassed to reach out to them. You claim that you were unhappy with who you were, you claim that you were wanting to be something you weren’t—It was society! It was the expectations!—but still you hold back from telling them you’re sorry because you’re ashamed of what you have become in order to achieve your goal. For awhile you’ll continue searching for the approval of others, but eventually you will not be satisfied by that. You’ll never be what you want. You’ll never be what they want. You convince yourself you should be content with how you are . But in the end you never truly find who you truly are.

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You try every trick in the book to do your homework on time. You write it down. You set a reminder. You make time for it. You buy everything you need. You have the paper on your desk. You blame your teacher. You blame your dog. You blame modern school culture. You find a tutor. You stay late at school. You study for hours. You claim that you were sick or that your head hurts. Every hour you say you’ll do it later or you’re just resting. You even buy a little desk lamp to use for late nights. You’re ready to get to work. You consider picking up the pencil and starting. But in the end, you stay in your chair.

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You try every trick in the book to change. You plan out your schedule. You try to sleep more.

Your build up your motivation and compose sonnets of your potential success. You turn your phone off. You put your communications off to the side. You get off of social media. You claim that you're  stressed and start trying to manage your time better. You blame your course workload.

You blame the American education system. You blame curriculum learning. You blame yourself. You find a therapist. You abstain from your hobbies and interests. You completely shut off your phone. You try to take the driving classes you put off, so you juggle multiple things and  manage your time better. You say that you were trying, you claim it was too much. It was the work. It was the pressure! And every hour like clockwork, you say you'll get on top of things and start anew. You try it all and even have a mental breakdown. Then, one day you simply sit up in bed and say you need help that the problem might be bigger than stress. You're going to have to manage your health and time better with the support of your friends and family. You consider completely giving up. In fact, you almost do. But in the end you have to keep trying to do the best you can do.

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You try every trick in the book to be the perfect daughter. You do everything your parents ask. You wash the dishes. You make your bed. You feed the dog. You don’t ask for much. You spend the weekends at home rather than with friends. You get good grades. You get involved with good people and clubs at school. You stay up in order to finish homework just to get up early in the morning. You push yourself in sports. You stay after practice to take more reps to become better just to please your dad. You dress nicely, put on makeup , run everyday just to please your mom. You make sure you’re involved in everything you can be so you can put it on college applications. You apply for all the scholarship you can. You share your knowledge of colleges to your parents so they know you’re on the right track. You push yourself in everything you do because you know that nothing will be enough. You try it all, but they still get upset. They still ask for more. They still scold you for the little mistakes you make. You blame your younger self for setting the bar so high because everything was so much easier when you're younger. You even blame your parents for not understanding how difficult it is to please them. You consider stopping everything you do in order to see if they continue not to recognize. You consider not even trying anymore. You consider it all. But in the end you realize how much you love everything you do. In the end, you start to do it all for yourself; not for the reason of being the perfect daughter

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You try every trick in the book to get it done. You turn off your phone. You unplug your TV. You give your phone to someone else. You set alarms. You ask people to remind you. You get everything else done beforehand. You make sure no one else is in the house. You try to get rid of every distraction that could stop you. You close your door. You lock yourself in. You claim to have ADHD. You try and get help. You lay everything you need out in front of you. You skip your meals. You don’t drink water so you don’t need to take bathroom breaks. You start it early. You try all of these things, but you find yourself 6 hours later with a blank page and realize you aren’t going to get it done. Even after realizing this, you try and rush to get it done. Eventually, you realize the futility of it and just give up and sleep.

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You try every trick in the book to stop procrastinating. You wake up to your early alarm. You do your homework right after you get home. You make sure to go to bed before midnight. You buy a planner and list all of your work for the month. You blame your school. You blame your family. You turn off your phone and laptop. You stop watching your favorite show. You go to a library to study. You deny your friends invitations to go out because you have that project. You blame college. You stay in your house to make sure all of your chores and homework are complete. You blame society. You complete huge group assignments on the day you receive it. You read fifty pages of that book from class. You do the entire week’s homework of math problems on Monday. You say that you will never wait procrastinate your work because you want a good grade. But in the end you do.

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You try every trick in the book to stop procrastinating. You wake up to your early alarm. You do your homework right after you get home. You make sure to go to bed before midnight. You buy a planner and list all of your work for the month. You blame your school. You blame your family. You turn off your phone and laptop. You stop watching your favorite show. You go to a library to study. You deny your friends invitations to go out because you have that project. You blame college. You stay in your house to make sure all of your chores and homework are complete. You blame society. You complete huge group assignments on the day you receive it. You read fifty pages of that book from class. You do the entire week’s homework of math problems on Monday. You say that you will never wait procrastinate your work because you want a good grade. But in the end you do.

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“ You try every trick in the book to not procrastinate.

You set up reminders. You cancel plans.

You send a really detailed and extremely long

text to your friends letting them know

why you can’t hang out. You get home from school

as fast as you can. You shut yourself in your room

You keep everything organized. You try to start.

You get distracted. You get on your phone.

You tell yourself you’ll do it later.

You take a “5 ,minute” break. You get

on your phone. You get on netflix.

You binge watch a whole series. You

realize it’s 2 in the morning. You

start stressing out,]. You skim and

don’t try in your homework. You wake

up tell yourself it won’t happen again

You repeat the process.

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You try every trick in the book not to try. You try not to cry because you’re a man. You try not to show your fear because you’re scared people will think you're weak. You try not to ask for help because you don't want them to feel bad for you. You try not to speak because you are afraid they won't listen. You try not to join the “men sports” because you’re not “man material” You try not to admit your love for someone because you don't want to get hurt. You try not to be confident of your religion because you think others will be mad about it. You try not to answer the question in class because you’re afraid they’ll think you’re just a know it all. You try not to apply for UCLA or Fresno state because you think you won't get in. You try not to put the person who just insulted you in their place because you’re too afraid they’ll insult and embarrass you again. You try not to state your opinion because you think you’ll offend someone. You try not to be sad because you don't want them to think you’re depressed and have problems. You try not to speak in your own language because you’re afraid they’ll think you don't belong here. You try not to be proud of your country because you don't live in your country. You try not to show who you really are because  you’re afraid they won't like who you are. You simply  try not to try.

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“You try every trick in the book to do everything on time and not procrastinate. You try to be punctual. You try keeping a planner. You try to get a head start. You try your best to stay on track. You try to exceed expectations. You fall short. You forget. You can never remember you had an assignment till the night before. You don’t sleep because you have to finish. You cram a week's worth of work in one night. You don’t get the grade you wanted. You get the grade you deserve. You get yelled at. You try to do better next time. But you end up falling into the same routine. You try to change, but you will always be you and end up procrastinating.”

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You try every trick in the book to please others. You wake up everyday, in the hopes of making a difference. You go out of your way to talk to people, who never notice you. You get your work done on time and let others copy it. You say yes every time you should say no. You pretend to be happy, so the people around you stay positive.You keep up your grades, you never come to school late. You tell them you got an A, and all they say is okay. You always reach a hand asking for help, but when it comes to you, the world becomes silent and you're left with yourself. When people are upset you feel like you're the problem. So, you look up ways to please them online. When all you have is one life, and one time to make it right. Why spend time pleasing others, when you yourself are like no other.

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You try every trick in the book to please others. You wake up everyday, in the hopes of making a difference. You go out of your way to talk to people, who never notice you. You get your work done on time and let others copy it. You say yes every time you should say no. You pretend to be happy, so the people around you stay positive.You keep up your grades, you never come to school late. You tell them you got an A, and all they say is okay. You always reach a hand asking for help, but when it comes to you, the world becomes silent and you're left with yourself. When people are upset you feel like you're the problem. So, you look up ways to please them online. When all you have is one life, and one time to make it right. Why spend time pleasing others, when you yourself are like no other.

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( my passage is whimsical, not 100% accurate, but true about myself)

You try every trick in the book to stay fit. You try waking up at 5 am to run daily. You do 100 push ups. You do 100 sit ups. You do 100 squats. You work on getting muscles on your thighs. You work on getting muscles on your arms. You work on getting abs. You eat healthy foods. You reduce your meal portions. You cut off sodas and juices and mostly drink H2O. You make fruity smoothies to chug down after a nice workout. You start losing weight. You start noticing you don't have flabby arms and thighs. You start loving the progress of how your body looks. You start to get hungry. You see what there is on the fridge. You see leftover pizza. You convince yourself eating a slice of pizza won't affect you in a way or form, because your excuse is it's your cheat day. You prepare and eat the pizza. Then you start eating donuts. You start eating hamburgers with fries. You start drinking Coca-Cola instead of H2O. You slack on your daily runs at 5 am to sleep in more. You stop working out and replace it with a movie night eating popcorn and nachos. Why did You stop? You believe there are your cheat days. You go to the doctor for your check-up. You step on the weight scale, when you walk in the room. Your eyes cannot believe the number you saw that the scale gave you. You gained 30 pounds in just 4 days.

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You try every trick in the book to please everyone. You make it work. You sacrifice your time, effort, and energy. You tell them what they want to hear. You be the person who they want you to be. You do whatever they ask, no matter the cost. You change your beliefs. You stop thinking for yourself. You start taking on too much. You claim you don’t mind doing it all. You blame yourself. You blame them. You blame the society that makes you feel as though you have to be this way. You blame your upbringing. You find ways to avoid your own responsibilities. You stay up late. You evolve, emotionally, mentally, in any way you know how to. You start to imitate those around you, to do what they do, and think what they think so they will be happy with who you are. You claim that you were young, you claim that you have changed - this is who I am now! This is who I want to be! —and day in and day out, you say it’s no problem at all, you’re sorry if you offended anyone, you’re sorry you couldn’t make it work. You try it all, but one day you wake up and realize that this isn’t the life you want to lead, that some things have to be about you. You consider living for yourself. You consider disregarding other people’s feelings. In fact, you say you’ll start putting yourself first. But in the end, you aren’t strong enough, and you know you’ll never change.

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You try every trick in the book to make your parents happy with your grades. You attend tutoring. You do all your homework. You study more. You make your curfew earlier. You tell your friends you can’t text as much anymore. You don't stay after practice to put in extra work for either sport. You blamed sports for taking your time but regret saying that. You blame ASB but they still rely on you. You blame your teacher. You stay strong and don’t switch out like the other 8 students. You attend tutoring with a new teacher. You write better and more efficient notes. You blame it on the stress and workload. You try to explain your situation as best as you can. You try to have them relate. You try it all, but they simply just don’t get it, the grind of being a student athlete that lives a positive lifestyle, drug-free and an easy going guy. You respect women when you can and will go beyond for others. You will simply have to accept the Low grade you have. You will have to accept the fact that your parents are hard on you for a reason, they want you to be the best version of yourself you can be. You have to realize this is an AP class to preparing you for college. You want to switch out or just give up and not care about the grade but your integrity doesn’t let you.

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You try every trick in the book to make your parents happy with your grades. You attend tutoring. You do all your homework. You study more. You make your curfew earlier. You tell your friends you can’t text as much anymore. You don't stay after practice to put in extra work for either sport. You blamed sports for taking your time but regret saying that. You blame ASB but they still rely on you. You blame your teacher. You stay strong and don’t switch out like the other 8 students. You attend tutoring with a new teacher. You write better and more efficient notes. You blame it on the stress and workload. You try to explain your situation as best as you can. You try to have them relate. You try it all, but they simply just don’t get it, the grind of being a student athlete that lives a positive lifestyle, drug-free and an easy going guy. You respect women when you can and will go beyond for others. You will simply have to accept the Low grade you have. You will have to accept the fact that your parents are hard on you for a reason, they want you to be the best version of yourself you can be. You have to realize this is an AP class to preparing you for college. You want to switch out or just give up and not care about the grade but your integrity doesn’t let you.

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You try every trick in the book to wake up early,

You set 5 alarms, disable snooze, set alarms that require math problems to snooze

You blame it on how tired you are, on how you need your sleep, on how much homework you had the night before.

You give up and end up waking up 30 minutes before you have to leave. You don’t eat breakfast,you don't style your hair, you don’t pack that thing you were suppose to pack.

You end up not doing your homework, being hungry by 10, and being tired again the next night from lack of nutrition and energy and just end up repeating the cycle

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You try every trick in the book to fix your grades. You try hard not to disappoint your parents and keep constant grades because it’s expected of you. When a grade drops the sudden change gets your parents angry, they automatically blame the phone. As you explain it’s not the phone they refuse to listen. They stay angry for a while but when the next grades come they expect a better outcome and that's usually what they receive.

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You try every trick in the book to become a better you.

You eat less. You try to sleep more. You try to say the F word less. You go to yoga.

You act kinder and talk quieter. You claim that you are happy.

You conceal how you really feel. You become less you.

You realize that you is not you without the things that make you, YOU.

You eat enough. You sleep less. You say the F word more. F yoga.

You are always kind but a little loud. You are happy. You open up when you feel down.

You become the best you. In fact, you have always been the best you.

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You try every trick in the book to receive good scores. You stay up late. You get advice about good study habits. You start drinking coffee. You find tutors to help you with homework. You ask questions. You blame it on your genetics. You blame it on your teachers. You stop procrastinating and study earlier. You say you’re ill. You say you’re tired. You get rid of social media. You turn off your phone. You try it all to prepare for the best. You take the tests and the scores still come out bad. You say you’re not going to try anymore, but you still do.

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You try every trick in the book to have confidence in yourself. You think only positively. You tell yourself you are strong, pretty, and you can do it. You try your very best. You believe in yourself. You exceed expectations. You will practice. You will perfect yourself. You don't listen to the negativity around you. You surround yourself with people rooting for you. You defriend everyone rooting against you. You change your mindset. You look yourself in the mirror proud. You put everything you can into everything you chose to do. You fail occasionally. You take deep breaths and try again and again. You take credit for your actions. You tell yourself, you can do it or you are beautiful. You start working out to achieve your goals because you said you will. You try it all and one day you’ll simply say no or you can’t do it. You claim that there are other girls, you are relied on to often, that you had to much on your plate-it was the pressure-you just couldn't believe in yourself. You try it all but you fall short every time. In fact in the end tell yourself you will. But in the end you don’t.

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You try every trick in the book to gain independence.

You get a job.

You work harder than anyone else.

You earn your very first paycheck.

You buy your first outfit at the mall.

You fill up your tank.

You stay out past 11:00 pm.

You go to your first party.

You get drunk.

You face hard decisions.

You make sacrifices.

You try every trick in the book to gain independence; to become an adult, yet,

you're only 17.

You will make mistakes.

A little guidance from your parents never hurt.

Don't grow up too fast.

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You try every trick in the book to stop procrastinating when doing work. You put your phone on silent. You turn off the TV. You hide the TV remote. You go into a quiet room. You get into focus. You tell yourself that you will get your work done. You claim to have turned off your phone but it keeps vibrating. You claim to need it. You blame teachers. You blame school. You blame family. You try to stop thinking about what is happening in the outside world while your enclosed. You avoid naps. You avoid looking at your phone. You avoid opening another tab. You motivate yourself. You claim to be dying. It was the pressure. It was the screen. You claim to be tired. You claim that have more important things to do. You claim you will do it later. But then you sit up surrounded by papers and books early in the morning realizing the mistake you have done. You panic. You rush. You tried it all yet you never learn to stay focused or stop procrastinating.

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You try every trick in the book to be loved.

You are out past curfew. You don’t get 8 hours of sleep.

You wake up early to say good morning.

You say I love you first. You give them your full attention.

You bring up that topic they always avoid and you’re left on the ground wounded. You look in the mirror and can’t ignore the bruises or that forced smile.

You make them a priority. You cancel those plans you made months ago.  You swore you hated that music until you heard the lyrics come from their mouth sounding so sweet. You worry about if they made it home safe on friday night.

You go against what you believe in. You now believe in what they believe in. You are losing yourself.

You are put last. You are given nothing in return.

You reach for their hand while listening to that song that reminds you of them. You get a “stop” instead or even sometimes the fist.

You don’t get the hint. You blame yourself. You say you’ll change.

You say I can work on it. You expect more than they’ll ever give. You say it only gets better.

You say all these things but they don’t matter. You don’t get the appreciation you deserve.

You question your worth.

You think that this is how love is supposed to be. It’s difficult and only full of arguments. But that’s not the truth! You are lied to. You are deceived. You are blinded. You feel pain. You fought for too long. It was never physical only emotional.

You will wake up and realize you are not in control of your life, they are.  You start to write down your thoughts in that notebook you have thrown in the drawer.

Now is the time to breathe and tell yourself “let go”.

You don’t need to make it happen. You are just a friend and always will be.

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You try every trick in the book to forget them.  You stay in for the night.  You watch movies.  You buy tubs of ice cream.  You delete pictures and messages.  You block their number.  You isolate yourself.  You live in sweats and fuzzy socks.  You lose your massacre.  You cry your eyes out until you can’t cry anymore.  You call your friends.  You go out with your heels.  You buy yourself something nice.  You flirt with other people.  You look good and act confident.  You change your style.  But in the end the hurt remains, and the memories never fade.  You still love him even if they did you wrong.

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You try every trick in the book to meet the expectations placed on you. You do what you are told. You get the grades you are supposed to. You say “i can do better” even after you’ve done your best. You stress over the idea of failure. You stay up all night studying because you can’t afford to get anything less than a B. You make everything you do revolve around getting to where you want to go. You spent countless hours on homework instead of going out with your friends. You make sure that you don’t do anything that would ruin your “good kid” reputation. You concentrate your fleeting months of high school on getting into the college you are supposed to get into.  You spend every free hour at tutoring so that your chances of getting what you want increase. You put so much pressure on yourself that you eventually wonder if you are doing the right thing. You can’t stand the thought of facing your parents if you don’t achieve your goal. You claim that you never stood a chance. You blame your teachers and the pressure- oh the pressure! You have done it all but that one day when you receive your letter from the college you’ve dreamed about you say, “What’s done is done”. You still feel you have not done enough. You open up the letter and find your answer. You did more than enough.

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You try every trick in the book to not let anxiety take over. You take deep breaths. You count to ten. You try to surround yourself with positivity. You write entries in your journal disowning all your insecurities. You block the negative people phone numbers. You don’t hear their opinion and thoughts that bring you down. You stop crying. You stop caring. You realize actually having anxiety is a thing and you might have it. You blame yourself. You blame your family. You blame your past . You blame your current situation. You talk to your counselor. You accept what it is happening even though you don’t want it to. You explain to the people you blame how they make you feel. You start surrounding yourself with positivity like you always tried to. You claim that you claimed that you did have anxiety, you claimed that you were weak—It was the book! It was the pressure!—and every hour like clockwork you say that you’re so so sorry. You try it all, but one day it all comes back and you would say, No more, and, Ya, and you will have to talk to someone new and repeat all your worries. You consider not going. You consider to solve your worries on your own. In fact, you say won’t. But in the end you do.”

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You try every trick in the book to have your parents get you a dog. You kindly ask your parents. You tell them how happy it will make you. You tell them that you will take good care of it. You get rejected. You start behaving more. You start helping around the house. You do you homework every night. You get good grades. You start hinting about the dog. You ask again. You get rejected again. You start complaining. You start explaining how responsible you are. You tell them all the things you will do. You still get the answer ‘no’. You start whining. You start crying. You start throwing a tantrum. You are grounded. You still don’t have a dog. You are done crying and you go down stairs. Your mom says ‘maybe when you're older’. You have hope for the future.

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“You try every trick in the book to succeed in a life you desire.

You go to school. You take hard tests that don’t apply to what you want in life. You go through 3 levels of school to end up with ‘Now what?’. You pass your classes. You fail some tests. You lose some friends. You fight with your parents when your grade dropped from a 90% to an 89.97%. You give up when it’s 2:17 in the morning and you still don’t understand the term ‘abstemious’. You wake up with bags under your eyes. You go to school thinking about the weekend but it’s only a Tuesday at 8:05 am. You are pressured since Freshmen year in high school to stay in school and do your work. You are forced to conform to societal expectations that if you don’t get straight A’s then you aren’t going to college. You are given loads of homework and told college is worse than that-But a college student tells you otherwise! A college student has none!- and every hour you waste on the thousands of historical terms becomes an option. You are expected to apply, apply, apply and never have fun, have fun, have fun. You are overworked and provided with too much work. You don’t know if you’re going to succeed. You have no idea what you want to do for the rest of your life. You do everything they tell you, and suddenly it’s June and you still don’t know what is required to make a successful life. You consider not leaving the comfort of your room. You even try to tell your parents you’re not ready. But in the end you are.”

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You try every trick in the book to be a better person. You walk your dog. You hug your mom. You call your dad every day at 5 because that’s when he gets off work. You stop yelling. You tweet as if your grandma followed you. You open up to your sister, even though it is 2 AM on a Wednesday night. You flick yourself on the arm every time you make another insensitive joke. You start to pray. You tell your best friend you love her, because she needs it more than you do. You try to kick old habits, even though they usually stay. You tell your friends you’re sorry when you just can’t seem to get out of a bad mood. You let someone else win the argument, because you would rather drop your pride than to ever drop them. You finally ask God for guidance, even though it might seem lik you are talking to the walls. You try it all, but some days are harder than others, and you think you’ve had enough. But in the end, you make it to the next day.