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In the beginning she does not like the way she looks, “I have no makeup on and I have bags under my eyes.” (p. 3, l.107-108). In the end she accepts and even likes her looks, “Not an old, she thought, not really. A nice face” (p. 5, l. 188). She develops throughout the story, because her old flame from her past, makes her realize who she really is and help her accept that person she has become.

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There is also another example of her development as a person. With Jed she was wild and young, which she realizes that she is not anymore, “I am not alluring or desirable or wild. My wildness spiralled out of me when you left and it’s never come back.” (p- 3, l. 108-109). When Jed left she grew and became an adult and her wild life is now in her past with Jed. But in the end she accepts that she is not wild anymore, “The face of a mother who lives a acceptable life. Not a life to tinker about with, or test. Not a life to risk in a remote place by the sea.” (p. 5, l. 180-181). Jed helps her realize that the person she actually is, the best version of herself, because she compares herself to him and if she had kept being wild she would have turned out just like him and that would not be a good life.

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The main character (narrator)
The narrator seems insecure about herself, "Would it make me myself again? Would it bring me... a man who loved me rather than was used to me."
She misses her old self and is not fulfilled with her present life. She questions herself what to do and if it would be better with or without him. She find her situation very difficult.

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The splitting up between the narrator and Jed was a significant turning point in the narrator's life;
"So he left, and she stood in the drive of her parent's house, aware that the best in her had gone and life would never be the same again" (p.9 - ll. 73-75),
in the sense that it affected her personality, by suppressing her liberal and side side;
"I am not alluring or desirable or wild. My wildness spiralled out of me when you left and it's never come back. Wild isn't part of my life any more" (p. 10 - ll. 108-109).

Jed was the one that lit the "flame" in the narrator - the flame being the exciting and rebellious aspect of her when she was young - and he was, at the same time, the one that put out the flame, by leaving her behind.

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Jed Cunningham

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Jed seems to mean a lot to the narrator, "His name burnt it way into her soul." (l. 5). Because of the word burnt we get an idea of how much he means to her and how strong their connection was. It gives life to the language and this specific choice of words is remarkable. She still has strong feelings for him, "It was bizarre, how just a name could create such a welter of emotions." (l.28). She was taken back to when they were together.

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Jed was different from others, "

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The narrator, including her self-image:

The Narrator of the story uses her emotions to express, how she feels now.
"... aware that the best in her had gone and life would never be the same again" (p. 9, ll. 74-75)
The writer thinks back to the time, when she was with Jed Cunningham, and then think about the life she is living today. She feels like its just a normal life and there is nothing special about it, and it seems like she have had lost the good energi and she kind of feels like she have wasted her life, but she stays in it, because she can't let her children down.

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The narrator shifts from 1. person to 3. person and back again a lot.

"...Her hand hesitated, and then clicked on his hand... i don't have to respond she told herself... I am not alluring or desireable..."  (ll. 99-119).

this can be confusing to read, but it also gives us an insight to her thoughts as well as what she does in the story. But we follow the main character's POV throughout the story.

The main character is aware of her development as a person from her young adult years to her life now. "The person i've become doesn't exist in his eyes"� (l. 117)

"I'm not a poet, i thought. Not anymore"� (ll. 184-185)

Because she knows she has changed she decides not to write back to Jed and this shows self awareness.

Her life isn't all planned out, but it's repetitive and basically normal, so when Jed Cunningham writes to her, it doesn't fit in. "Too much, she thought. Too much for a Monday, a Monday of work and school runs and many chores"� (ll. 165-166) The thought of Jed trying to come into her life again stresses her out and doesn't fit well in her life now. Once again this shows her change from when she was young to now.

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Jed Cunningham :

Jed Cunningham is described as the coolest, young boy at the school.
'' Jed who always stood outside the herd, the coolest of the cool with the fashions everyone else followed, from scarves draped casually round his neck to the tie at half-mast, school trousers worn low on this hips,'' (P.1, ll.22-25).
The main character represent Jed Cunningham as the perfect boy in the school. Everybody wants to be him, by copying his fashion and the way he acts in school. Out from the text, we get the idea that he is the boy that any girl wants to be with, and the boy that anyone wants to be friends with.

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Stine & Thea - characterize of the narrator 

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Stine & Thea - characterize of the narrator 

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She is grown up now and the life of the unknown is not something she want's anymore,

"And I'm not a poet, I thought. Not anymore" (l. 184-185).

She finally realises that she does not want to run away. She now has a family and can't nor will leave it all behind for Jed. She also realises that the childhood love is not a dream of hers anymore

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The message.

Old love never dies, even though you lost contact, " 'I drove my wife insane'. 'Why?' 'Because she was not you' " (l. 159-161)

Jed tells her, that he still loves her, even after all these years and they haven't been in contact.

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"The narrator, including her self-image"
She used to be wild and free, when she was with Jed. She had drive.

"I am not alluring or desirrable or wild. My wildness spiraled out of me when you left and it´s never come back. Wild isn´t part of my life any more" (p. 10, ll. 108-109).

She describes herself in a very repressive way, and she is very critical about her appearance. Jed was her inspiration, and in a way also her muse. "You left", she says, and when he did, he took a part of her that "never came back.".

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The writer uses the first pronoun in the very end of the story, though the rest of the story is written in third person,

"And I'm not a poet anymore, I thought" (l. 184)

The writer introduces herself in the story, not as the narrator, but she relates to the issue of the story and growing apart from your childhood.

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Jed is stuck in his old relationship, and can't get over her,

"I drove my wife to the point of insanity... because she was not you" (p. 4, ll. 159+161)

This shows that he is looking for his old flame, in the other women that he is dating. This gives the impression that he thinks they are meant to be. He misses what there had. He is stuck in the past, and therefore he can't move forward and focus on the "new" life without her. He can't find ned love before he lets her go.