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Nalagot ko nimo love.

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we just finished the run and i can't thank you enough for how grateful i am that you're with me the whole run. I love you, jho.

and for the great sex. still thinking about it and will always think about it as one of the best thing that we've done. mwahhh

i love you, Jho <3

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Hi Love!

I have this feeling that this day is different. I was thinking about this the whole time at the car. i just feel it. Yes, every moment with you is special but theres something about today that will stay with me and I would always look back as one of my best memories with you.

this is just our normal date. We started the day with you in a class as I wait in a cafe while reading a book. After that, we register at the Freedom run, went to buy shoes, and eat at Ribs and Bibs. As we were going home, we then have our unplanned "making love" Lol.

and yes, it was different this time because as much as I tend to avoid the thoughts of God and family while we were doing the deed. It was the opposite of it-I was praying. I sometimes throw random thoughts thanking God how lucky I am to have you and shrug it trying to focus but earlier was different. I was talking to him, thanking him how lucky I am that I get to kiss you, to hold you and just you entirely. and when we were cuddling, and you thought i was sleeping, I was thinking about you the whole time. I was thinking if I can work abroad knowing i'll be missing you immediately. I tried my best not to cry which eventually I did. and for a couple of minutes I shed a tear or two but your phone is loud I cant focus hahhaha

and as we were going home, it hit me that its the month of June. I always have this post in X, I tweeted this one and it says " do not settle for less, wait for someone who will pursue you" something like that ( you can check it in X, I have pinned it for how many years. And that was it, I am living the life that I wanted, I am living an answered prayer. and you, my love, is my answered prayer. I know God is good to me because he gave a man like you for me to love and for you to love me. Here you are, standing so tall, so caring and loving to me. what else could I ask for? I am so lucky.

I love you, jhoram. let's continue to pray for our relationship.

ps. its 2 in the morning, I have already posted a finished entry but accidentally deleted it coz I was using my phone. So here I am writing it again in a laptop. I like the first one since I poured my heart but this will do. Ill sleep now.

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Hi, my love!

Im writing here kay i noticed that i haven't write anything for you in a while. I was about to write in my notes but then I remember I still have this padlet.

it was 9 months ago when I wrote something here and that was the time that our relationship got bumpy. and it's nice to see how our relationship turns out after our talk at the parking lot in Ketkai. our relationship become more meaningful, full of understanding and most importantly we are more connected to each other. It is like we understand each other without the barriers that are holding us back.

spending the days and months with you were the best days of my life. I keep on thinking about you, jho. every single day, every action that I do, I think about you. and yes it is almost my period, so im a bit of emotional now. I just love you so much, jho that I think that breaking up or letting us go would be my biggest downfall. it would kill me. and I cant bear to imagine a life without you, jho. so lets keep this working. lets keep loving each other because I will never let you go nor leave you.

i love you. forever.

5.26.2026

-Love,

Josie

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Scrolling on this padlet is painful. will not scroll down na. But i'll keep writing on it coz I know my sweetest man is not reading it.

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I love you so much. These past days it was a roller coaster of feelings. We were just so happy sipping our coffee last thursday, and in the next day we were both telling our secrets and both breaking each others' hearts.

you were in pain hearing those stories from me, once again , I am deeply sorry jho, I was naive and vulnerable that time. I also was in deep pain hearing that story from you. Thinking I wasn't the first choices but rather I was the back-up plan. the second choice.

We were both shocked but we also accepted and move on focusing on our relationship. I like how mature of you to solve it, jho. taking initiative because you're always like that . you really love me kay you wouldn't talk to me or exert effort if you really don't want to continue this relationship. I'm sorry if you thought I want to end this, i'm sorry I said that word " that I don't want to be with someone who will not accept me" I doubt your love jho, Im sorry. I was thinking that when you hear it you don't want me. But I should've known better, I should have known that you love me so much you cannot do that one easily. I am really thankful for all the love jho. For the past 296 days with you was the most amazing day of my life, thinking that I have a man who really loves me. I will entrust na my worries and pain to God jho. We cannot change na our past but we can focus on our future. We can focus now.

Let's just hold each other's hand until the end of time jho. I fucking Love you Jhoram Narsico. I will marry you pa in the church. We will build our house pa with a library on it and your gaming room and we have this cute little dog running around while we cook our dinner. Can't wait to have this future with you, Jho.

I entrust this to you Lord. Let me be with this man forever and always. For better or for worst I'll stick to this person.

- Josie .

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I fucking love you jhoram

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jho I miss you so much but I think we’re drifting away. I don’t know I feel like Dli na kaayo ka interested sa ako a. Maybe Oa ra kayo ko ur just playing or what pero diba dapat Karon ta ga make time more kay Wala kay class. I’m not saying to go to fancy kan anan pero quality time ba just the two of us okay na gyud .

I hate this feeling gyud . Feel nako dli tika gaka reach. Feel nako any moment ma lessen imo feelings nako

Fuck this feeling dli ko gusto mag Halik ani

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It's almost 1am and I was about to sleep and I was thinking about you gyud ( as I always been) and i have some worries gyud ( you know na most of it) . Pero gina pray ra gyud nako Jho. I have anxiety and a lot of worries sa past relationship nako nga feel nako gala apply nako which is dli dapat because this is different. nevertheless, I'm still in love with youuuu sooo much and I always look on the bright side gyud that this would not end with the same heartbreak or worst pa. Anyway, will always pray for us jho. Ako raka.

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I love you. I was looking back to those days where I keep wondering if naa tay padulngan and here we are uyab na. Thank you for existing jho. Ur one of the best part that happened this year. Will be praying for us and for our relationship to last. Thank you for coming into my life. I love youuuuuuu so much😘

12/16/24

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I love you

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I’m sorry jho, feel nako I’m not doing a good job of becoming ur girlfriend☹️

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Still pondering these past few days. Daghan kaayo ko questions that's why as much as possible I need to talk to u. Aside sad ana gimingaw nako nimo huhu. Gusto nasad kog kiss and make out with u 😭

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It’s 3 in the morning and I woke up dreaming about u. Lala na ni ako pagka mingaw nimo jho

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Was talking about this earlier, I may not have fully explained what I wanted to say but yes that was the point of it. I was hesitant to share earlier kay u may find it cringe but yeah. Prayed to God for the first time about giving me a guy who also prays for someone and tadah you chatted. Was having a conversation with myself that time when I backread our conversation when I got home if that was his sign, if my prayers were the same-day delivery coz wow that was fast, took only a few minutes pag gawas nako sa church. Wala lang it amazes me how God waited for my prayer coz maybe he just wanted me to ask gyud from him. Basta wala lang I believe everything has a reason, he has plans for everyone, and he planned it along to cross our paths and made our randomness to try cheerdance the way to meet.

If this will work or nahhh (probably yes) I hope we wont regret that we crossed our boundaries from friendship to something deeper like this.

XOXOXO

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I can't sleep now so I will write a couple of things here. One of my fav candid pics kay hubog man ata ka ani nag shat mo friends hahahaha nya feel nako katulgon naka ani( aside sa sakit ato tiyan both tas nag sukaha kos byahe)

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If you will read this, ask me about the story of how I prayed to God for someone and what you did after I prayed it.

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If you will read this, ask me about the story of how I prayed to God for someone and what you did after I prayed it.

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still can’t get over the fact that we kissed. It really feels surreal feel nako nag damgo ko.

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soooo one of the things that I look forward when we meet is our small interactions and our stolen moments. Earlier we held hands while nag picture picture si coach. I was wishing nga unta we can hold hands nga longer and not in secret coz I really like you jho and I hate that a little knows about us. Mao rato mwahhh Goodluck in the upcoming cdc , I will watch and support nimo😘

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I miss you

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So I have this attitude that whenever I wanted to talk to you, I write in my notes. I don’t know I am more vocal when I am writing. That’s why whenever I have the urge to chat you I just put it in my notes. And I realized that I have my Padlet to write on. I don’t know if I will send this to you someday , you might think this is a little obsessive pero nvm para dli nasad ko sigeg sinamok sa imo . Sooooo to jhoram , these are my thoughts whenever I misses you.

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Wala lang I wanted to ask if Kumusta ka pero dli nako kaya. Gusto sad ko mag laag with you pero I know busy ka. Soooo I will just chat you here. Waaaaah mingaw ko nimo . Byeee sleep nako

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Soooooooo I go to practices ( usually) kay gusto tika makita and I look forward nga Naa Tay interaction bahalag kadjot. But yeah maulaw japon ko I don't know how to approach you or unsa ba dli baka gusto nga makita ta duha or okay ra ba. Ga overthink ko.

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I wanted to watch the HP movies with u again 

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I wanted to watch the HP movies with u again 