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really enjoyed this was very happy with the effect it gave the sound was excellent I was originally nervous about these as they was £20 per bottle so I could only afford 4 so we had to get it right fortunately on the night Sian who was playing the abused child did it perfect did not hesitate and on the night we had the added surprise of filling the bottle half full of fake blood giving us an excellent blood coverage on the audience and extra surprise factor

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with some actors being bare foot after the smash test over my head I suggested walking over it to make sure it would be safe for others cast and audience

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Thinking about my characters movement I related it to his backstory  it was the fact that how he had begun to justify his actions to his behaviour and began to enjoy the heinous acts what had become his art molding it into this pleasing methodical pace where he would let the deathly atmosphere succumb his thirsty ego before raping his daughter repeatedly the torment leading up to these acts became more important then the  acts themselves which was the influence to his slow movement whilst also showing the pride he takes in his ritual during the beginning of the last scene I quote a poem written by the practitioner that  this play is inspired by saying "he who believes me immersed in a tormented noise a violent darkness within which I struggled , is lost in the shadow" of man I found this very relatable to how I wanted to my character to be it allowed me to show how he had tortured himself into the monster he had begun and reflect on succumbing to the atmosphere for example when reciting the words "me immersed in tormented noise" i took a nice deep inhale whilst raising my arms by my side then rotating in the complete Bliss of my characters authority.

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When I was contemplating how to deliver this character (the abusive farther)  I decided to design a backstory for his own

Psychopathic behaviour, after getting married to his teenage sweetheart and love of his life , the happy couple some years later after a long period on attempting  to have a child they would eventually meet that goal and conceive, his (the abusive father) life going perfectly was not expecting the summounting horror which awaited him on what he thought was going to be the greatest day's of his life     the birth of his own child little did he know it would cost him the love of his life and dear wife having to under go an  emergency C-section to deliver the young girl unfortunately she does not survive leaving our  to deal with this enormous trauma he resorts to alcohol to deal with his grief, his decent into addiction allows a hatred for his daughter to fester. it was only after she reached the age of 5 that he first beat his daughter in a drunken rage, when he sobered up however he allowed all his hate to fabricate justifications for his actions, convincing himself that it is his right to discipline his daughter as he sees fit. as the years continued his motivations behind the now routine beatings for his daughter mutated from blind aggression to something darker and more sadistic, he planned and schemed up new ways to torment and hurt his child. When his reached the age where she began developing as a woman, his assaults became more about humiliation than about pain. on his daughters 9th birthday the father returns home and rapes his daughter beginning the sickest chapter in his daughters life.

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When developing my characters physical characteristics I first thought of what he should be wearing and straight away decided on black top hat,trousers,tailcoat,boots and tie with a white shirt accompanied with a cane not out of necessity but out of authorial prowess (which he would also used to terrify his daughter whilst still  approaching) portraying a man taking  power and pride in what he is doing

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the story follows the main character; a young girl, pre-teen slips into a psychotic dissociative state caused by the looming fear of her violent and sexually abusive father. Through the course of the piece, the main character develops  two visual manifestations  from her subconscious displaying separate personalities, one is Curiosity which represents our main characters need to understand what her father is doing to her, and is representative of her unlocking repressed memories.  the second hallucinated character; Mischievous is the manifestation of her desire to avenge herself on him and exists to push her to finally defend herself as her father attempts to begin his repulsive ritual.

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the reasoning for our screen was as the play develops it slips between the abused girl is receiving in reality and what she imagines, and shadows were an effect device to display more graphic violence without too much gore.

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being the one who made the soundtrack I recorded how long each scene was so I knew how long the pieces of music needed to be

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to make sure we got the right angles for lighting/shadows and the right effects we wanted we rehearsed with the light in different positions and heights

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we wanted the audience on stage so we could create a really intimate performance but because we wanted them to feel uncomfortable in there surroundings I suggested that we should choose where each certain member would be placed so we decided as a group who the 3 most easiest people we knew would get scared and just to add to it A bit more   we purposely separated the audience into seats next too people they weren't working with themselves, this was done as an attempt to dissuade any distractions for great atmospheric immersion.

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waiver form we had the audience sign before entering the theatre 

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waiver form we had the audience sign before entering the theatre 

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because we was having them join us on the stage and the nature of three origins of the

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this was a result of blood being put in the fake bottles

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https://jacket2.org/commentary/antonin-artauds-early-years

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Born Antonie Marie Joseph Artaud from his greek mother Euphrasie Nalpas & Greek father Antoine-Roi Artaud in Marseille, france, out of the eight siblings his mother birthed due to stillbirths only three of them survived in making it to adulthood his childhood was drowned in grief and tragedy even by the age of four he was diagnosed and suffered with meningitis which would effect him his whloe life

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Antoine Marie Joseph Artaud was born to Euphrasie Nalpas and Antoine-Roi Artaud in Marseille, France.

At the age of four, he suffered from meningitis, which ultimately gave him an edgy, short-tempered personality throughout his adolescence. He also suffered from stammering problems and clinical depression.

In 1916, he was drafted into the French Army and was allegedly discharged due to sleepwalking. After he was discharged, he was admitted to a sanatorium for a while. During this time, he read the works of Arthur Rimbaud and Edgar Allan Poe.

In 1920, after being discharged from the sanatorium, he moved to Paris, to pursue a career as a writer. It was there that he realized his passion for experimental theatre.

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A passage from Artaud's : from the nerve meter

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A passage from Artaud's : from the nerve meter

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I have decided to put this in my padlet because I believe it would be a fitting monologue of some sort for my character in the group performance''  I have aspired no further than the clockwork of the soul, I have transcribed only the pain of an abortive adjustment.
I am a total abyss. Those who believed me capable of a whole pain, a beautiful pain, a dense and fleshy anguish, an anguish which is a mixture of objects, an effervescent grinding of forces rather than a suspended point
—and yet with restless, uprooting impulses which come from the confrontation of my forces with these abysses of offered finality
(from the confrontation of forces of powerful size),
and there is nothing left but the voluminous abysses, the immobility, the cold—
in short, those who attributed to me more life, who thought me at an earlier stage in the fall of the self, who believed me immersed in a tormented noise, in a violent darkness with which I struggled
—are lost in the shadows of man. ''

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https://biography.yourdictionary.com/antonin-artaud

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(Antonin Artaud was one of the most influential theatre directors of the 18th/19th century born september 4th 1896 (as Antonin-Marie-Joseph Artaud) at the early stages of his life Artaud suffered from a near fatal meningitis attack (the effects stayed with him his whole life) he attended the Coll'e du Sacré Coeur which translates to the school of the sacred heart.
by the time Artaud was 14 he had founded a literary magazine, which he kept going for almost 4 years, still in his teens migraines and shooting pain started to effect his everyday life in 1914 he was the victim of an attack of neurasthenia and was treated with opium within a short few months Artaud was addicted to the drug,shortly after these events in 1916 he was drafted to the army to just be released less then a year later on mental instability and drug addiction issues.
in 1918 Artaud inducted himself into a clinical asylum in switzerland where he remained untill his release in 1920 ,immediately after his release and still under supervision of medical personal  he headed straight for paris where he began to study with Charles Dullin (actor/director) (https://biography.yourdictionary.