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Today we presented the work to the clients and it was very nice to see everyone’s projects and the different approaches they took with the same project.

Before presenting I was nervous and wasn’t sure if I could make it but I did.Since it’s not my first time working with a client and it became easier and easier to talk.

I felt so ungrateful remembering the times I thought I couldn’t make it or when I felt lazy.These children deserve a good envoirement and I’m happy that I was able to help them somehow and I was very touched by it and I am proud of my and my partners outcome.

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Casa do pequeno cidadão - August 30th // Thursday

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We need to practice our presentation for the clients tomorrow. It is important since me and my partner don’t like to talk in public.

We also need to be sure that everything is glued correctly in order to be presentable for the presentation tomorrow morning.

I learned that I can’t procrastinate on early stages of the projects because I tend to get nervous and that makes me feel anxious during the Project course until the deadline anencefalia I know that it is not good for me to feel that way. I also need to learn gown to get more in control of things. Cause that way I can get more relaxed and actually enjoy the project.

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Casa do peuqeno cidadão - August 28th //  Tuesday

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I tend to do things “ my way” even when a teacher says I should approach things in a way I feel is not going to work for me, and usually “my way” gets me into unnecessary stress and worries. I tent to do this quite often, specially when im facing technological approaches like photoshop or illustrator, I feel terrified and I decide of doing things in a harder way which I think is “easier” for me.And during this day I realized how damaging that can be to me, cause I am the one causing my stress when things don’t go right.

During the evening I was finishing up to color my last illustration and all of a sudden the computers shut down and I lost all of my work, I immediately went back to the studio and warned my partner about it and in 10 minutes we tried to solve our problem.See, when I started my illustrations on photoshop were small (as I mentioned before) and I ignored that, and I also made the line art and coloring in the same layers and in order to vectorize it I shouldn’t ( and of course I didn’t know that).

The illustrations were useless at the moment, so I decided to draw them all over again in a traditional way with a black pen so we could scan it and paint it directly on Adobe Illustrator. I finished the first illustration at 16:00, and I finished my last one as 22:00.I kept talking to my partner during the day so we were win the same page

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Casa do pequeno cidadão - August 27th // Monday 

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My primary research was important for me in order to illustrate the doors for the project. I looked specially at illustrations by Dr. Seuss, and the way he takes such normal things like ; a chair for an exemple, and make it look fun and crazy by exploring ways of distorting it. Also the colors he used to draw we’re very vibrant but also calming at the same time and that is why I think his illustrations are so successfull. I tried to bring these distorted elements to my work,with also bright colors so it can give the kids something pleasing and fun to look at.

I think it is important to learn how your partner works, their rhythm and know their strengths and weaknesses so you can help each other. Today me and my partner did two different tasks. Since I knew for a fact that she is good at building things I suggested that she made the machete. On the other hand I feel more comfortable with digital art more than she does so I suggested her that I’ll be responsible for doing the illustrations on Photoshop. And I think we were very productive. I already finished one of the illustrations and I’m in the middle of the second one. There’s three of them. I’ll finish them at home and I managed to send the first one by email to my partner.

She finished the machete in the evening and tomorrow we will print our illustrations.

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Casa do pequeno cidadão - August 24th August // Friday 

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Me and my partner had different ideas for the illustrations. I wanted to go to a more cartoonish approach and she wanted to make something without outlines.

I got my inspiration from a lot of sources but mostly from dr Seuss. His illustrations were/are amazing and so creative, and till this day they are remembered on movies.

Eventhough I read some bad things about him like, that he was racist. Which is uneccptable in my opinion. I only talk about him as an artist and of the works I find relevant for my work.But that fact really made me feel mad and upset because I never expected such things from a children illustrator. I certantly see him with different eyes now.

I showed my references to my partner and she liked it a lot and she agreed with my opinions and ideas so we merged our ideas and references into something that we could both enjoy doing and I think that things will work really well for us. We just need to focus on our work and not procrastinate.

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Casa do pequeno cidadão - August 23rd  //Thursday 

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The visit to the supplier made me think of different ways to approach a new work technique. I also learned a lot about laser printing and I thought I was very interesting to see how it actually works and how precise it is. I always wondered how that worked. It is not something approachable when it comes to pricing, and I don’t know if this is a choice for my final project, but for this project it is great.

Doing our art in vinyl so we can glue it on the doors will be great, it won’t be very expensive for the client and also it is kid friendly and easy maintenance.

I think that having my partner would e better cause she would see all the things I did and have a conversation with her about it would be crucial to the development of the work

EVENING:

I wasn't productive at all during the evening. I felt uninspired and without my partner, I felt lost and there was so much we haven't talked about that when I didn't get the chance to talk to her today I had no idea of where to go with the project.

All of a sudden I remembered an amazing illustrator for children called Dr. Seuss. I always loved his style of illustrating and the stories he wrote.

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Casa do pequeno cidadão - August 21st // Tuesday

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- lecture with daniel about illustration
-brainstorm ideas
-changing the chosen area
-monsters, doors and the 70's

I didn't feel that changing the cafeteria was inspiring me at all so I asked my partner if we could change our area. She agreed with it cause  she could sense that I wasn't inspired to do it so she gladly changed  for me.

We thought about doing the rooms, but then we realized that it would be confusing and competitive for the kids, cause all them would want to claim their room the "prettiest" room. So we decided to illustrate the doors of the first floor dorms. I thought that the corridor looked like a hospital, it was quite dull and depressive. I would hate to live there if I was a child, in my opinion it felt a little bit like a prision because there was a a door with a lock that seemed so intimidating.

I don't know if some children tried to run away or something, but the whole corridor was creepy. Doing art for the doors seemed like a good idea. The children would feel more welcome there if there was a bit of color. We talked about the style of illustration that we wanted to do and we first thought of drawing monsters in a very simple way, then we considered doing patterns inspired by the 70's so it could be gender neutral. We left the studio without a decision.

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Casa do pequeno cidadão - August 20th // Monday

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Today I had an amazing time during Felipe Grimaldi's lettering workshop. I really miss having theoretical classes and I think it was important for me. I also love lettering and since my school I've developed a appreciation for Lettering and I was very good at it.

I think my performance during the workshop was productive and I can really use what I've learned on future projects.

I also had a lot of fun drawing the wall of our Foundation corridor  as you can see in the picture it turned out great.It was so much fun, one of the most fun classes I've had in a while and I wish there was more of classes like that.

It was an amazing experience.

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Casa do pequeno cidadão - August 17th // Friday 

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I am going through long periods of Art- Blocks these past few months and it bugs me a whole lot. And during this project it was no different. I just need to be inspired again but i don't know how.

So consequently I don't feel inspired to do projects, and I know this is no excuse but it is how I feel and I shouldn't feel bad about it. I pressure myself into writing huge reflective journals but that leaves me drained cause I write everything. It make me feel overwhelmed.

Somedays, I don't feel like writing on my reflection journal because I feel like I have nothing to say, and writing about it doesn't help actually.I feel guilty when I don't write and the number of things that I need to do start to build up and its just too much sometimes.And I know I can handle it but for now I don't feel like it. There are lots of things I also need to do out of EBAC and it takes too much of my mind.

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Casa do pequeno cidadão - August 16th // Thursday 

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During the morning we had a presentation artists works that made a dull environment into something full of life. There was this one artist that stud out to me that was Morag Myerscough. She uses such strong colors in her works. She works a lot with lettering and I like it a lot.

It is so bold and colorful. I just felt fascinated by her work in general and I spent a couple of hours looking at her work and I also watched videos of her talking about her work and how she doesn't like to be defined as just a graphic designer or illustrator, she is is both and more.

I admire good graphic designers because I wish I had this type of look. I can see why she was in the reference list for us to look at, cause her work is amazing and straight to the point and she delivers what she proposes herself.

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PERSONAL STATEMENT

Art was always present in my life, in the form of music and also drawing. Since an early age, I would draw the world around me. Growing up I create my own stories and characters, without fearing others opinions cause I illustrated for myself. I was heavily influenced by the Disney Pixar studios when it came to starting to develop my style. The big eye is a characteristic of my characters. During the foundation year, I tried my best to make projects without losing my essence, it is important to try new approaches so you can learn how to solve problems in more creative ways. I also learned the importance of paying attention to the other people around me, and how they solve the same problems also presented to me in their own way, I always think of what I can learn from that. Storing knowledge will always help me through my career as an illustrator.

I feel connected to illustration because it is my way to express what I can't describe with words, I usually draw things that I feel. With time I am learning how I shouldn't hold back when I want to express myself. If my art can help someone that is feeling similar to me to feel less alone, I feel that is a mission accomplished. I see artists that inspire me as teachers and not as a competition, each one of them teaches me valuable things every day without even knowing. One of my inspirations is the Illustrator Jamie Hewlett, he draws his characters with a grotesque twist which is something I admire and intend to learn how to do it myself, he also works together with music to create the characters for the band Gorillaz. I also feel inspired by the illustrator Gabriel Picolo, that has a melancholic approach to his storytelling that I can relate, he is very humble and that is an important quality in an artist.

Every time I illustrate I feel connected to what I create on the paper. I felt that about the Self-Publishing project, I made my Tarot cards Zine/Series and I created my own cards reflecting the society I live in, fool of egocentrism, beauty standards, the abusive use of social media and the feeling of not being loved and that everything is ephemeral and disposable. I researched the meanings of the symbolism of the cards I chose to draw and I learned so much from it. Tarot cards used to scare me, and by doing this project I developed a huge respect for it. I like to do researches for my projects, I think it is important to gather facts and pieces of information about the topics related to your work, it gives me a base to work on and talk properly about it.

In summon, I am certain that the Illustration BA is the best fit for me. I will learn so much from my teachers and colleagues, things I wouldn’t be able to learn by myself. I learned so much by myself through the years, and during the Foundation year I grew so much as an artist, I can’t wait for the amazing things coming next year.

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Surrounding Narrative// August 14th - Tuesday

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I missed this morning Crit cause I had my driving test and I came to class  after lunch.I didn't bring my finished Surrounding Narrative project because the crit was during the morning and I had to finish my portfolio asap. I needed to print my QR code and digital portfolio link to add it on my portfolio case.

It was a confusing day for me but I was so happy that I managed to do everything that I needed to.

It was a relief to finally finish it.

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Surrounding Narrative // 13 August - Monday

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With all of my decisions I started coloring my drawing cause I knew time was short for me I knew I had to rush my work.

I was very nervous cause I have a test tomorrow and I can’t focus on anything else

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Surrounding Narrative // 10th August - Friday

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I wasn’t productive today and I procrastinated a lot and was stuck doing sketches but I couldn’t figure out what I wanted so I lost interest and focus very quickly.

I know I want to do something inspired by Chinese dragons and Brazil but I don’t know how to do it. I hope I’ll feel more inspired during the weekend. I feel drained with all of the ideas and I’m tired in general.

I have a lot of things out of EBAC to do, like commission work and study for IELTS, but I haven’t had the time to do things properly and this project is freaking me out.

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Surrounding Narrative // 9 August - Thursday

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-Lecture with Fernando Vilela

We had a lecture with the illustrator Fernando Vilela and it was interesting to see and hear about how he approaches thing in his own way. It is definitely different from what I do but it was very interesting.

I am still a little unsure of what to do with this information but I know I'll figure something out. Ill research things so I can get more inspired but at the moment I have 0 ideas for the project.

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Surrounding Narrative // 7th August // Tuesday

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I have to admit that I haven't felt like myself lately. And I know that my Padlet is not my diary, but I feel that I need to be transparent here, since it is the place to tell my creative process. So here it goes, during the month of july I felt very stressed as I have mentioned in previous reflective journals. I had things to solve out of EBAC, and that took me a lot of time.

I felt that my energy was slowly droning from me, and I know that this is no excuse, but I never felt this way so strongly before, I didn't even want to make the drawings that I wanted. For a few days I felt inspired to make a watercolor, and for the first time  in so many months.I felt free and creative but unfortunatedly it didn't last long. And during the last project ( July )

We visited Riso

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I think that this work could be more developed for the future, I sure had fun doing it. I could consider the size of the paper more next time, so it could be more accurate to the size of a real post card. I could also use more sarcasm to it , cause I think that last time I hold it back a little bit.

I am happy with this project because I didn’t overthink this. I only tried to capture my reality during the month of July.

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During the winter break I was uninspired to do this project.I didn't travel but my room became my home office and everything I had to solve was solved in my room. I was caught up with my album release during this time, a lot of things went wrong and I had to solve them all by my self.I was stressed and felt that my anxiety was over the moon, instead of relaxing I stressed myself more than usual. But I decided to turn my boredom and frustration into something good, something with humour and that people could relate. Something that inspired me during this work was the Illustrations by the Illustrator Fran Menezes.

She has this delicate style of illustrating  that makes me feel very warm and understood. Also, she is very open about her personal struggles with herself and her art. Whenever I need of some inspiration or feel down I watch her videos and it makes me feel better. I think it is important to have artist like her, sharing problems that all of us feel but don't tend to share with others cause we think it is shameful or that we are somehow aa failure.

There is nothing wrong about sharing our failures, cause we always learn from that

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I've been very busy these couple of days , and I didn't have the time to sit and think about my project. Ij between commission work, studying for the IELTS I barely had time to think. I am certain that I won't travel anywhere this month, so I thought that it could be an interesting idea to make posts cards of my home vacation , doing very conventional stuff.

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I didn't draw today because I till have to set some things on my work, composition and style wise. So I went to the Mac Lab in order to find inspiration to make my illustration. So i searched for images of the children.

Then I decided to watch videos about the whole situation and I felt so heartbroken and I can't even imagine how hard it must be for all of those young childre

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Today I came to the studio knowing that I wouldn't have the time to do any prints this week due to personal affairs. Then I thought of something even more effective than doing so, I decided to take one of my tarot cards ( like I intended before) but instead of doing something more toward a graphic design path I decided to stick to the illustration path.

I will make it in an A3 paper but I want it to be in a more grotesque style than usual, and I also changed the theme of it. Instead of taking a card and transform it into something graphic but still similar to the original I will change everything on it.

I realised that the definition of what is the devil for me changed in the last couple of months since I made my zine, something much bigger than that, for me the devil is all the men who are in charge of ruling in other countries and that make other people's lives miserable and make them feel hopeless and powerless; like Trump.

The way he separated immigrant children from their parents is heartless and an act of pure cruelty. I feel for them and as an Italian citizen living in Brazil for 12 years, I feel their pain as well. Children are not supposed to be separated from their parents and locked up in some cage like a zoo.

I want to dress this terrible situation on my illustration as a sign of protest towards the administration of Donald Trump and how hypocrite he is, his wife came to the USA illegally in the 80's so what is he trying to prove anyway? I will be doing some more research so I can be accurate on what I am saying.

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I don’t usually follow action plans because I know how much things can change during the week. But it actually helps, I know it is obvious that “planning ahead” helps, but the idea of planning makes me anxious sometimes. I am trying though to change that.

I realized that this project is not hard to execute as long as I organize myself and also, I chose a project that I loved doing and that I know I can further develop into something greater. I was turned between the Self Publishing project and the Sound and Vision, but I know that I can’t put myself through it again and with the Self Publish Project I see so much potential and different outcomes that can be made to add to what I had previously done.

I had some things pretty clear, I think that making the Action Plan set some things, but nothing that I can’t change in the next few days.

I don’t think that SCAMPER technique helped much. Since what I want to do is very clear in my head. I will definitely make pints on silkscreen so I can have a different outcome cause I was satisfied with the first one.

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Rules, Restrictions and Chance // June 15th - Friday

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Today we started with the crit and I was happy with the final outcome of my project. That doesn't mean I don't think that there is room for improvement and maybe I could work more on registering my researches in my sketchbook. What I considered during the feedback is that I need to adventure myself more on illustration styles that are not as cartoon as mine.

Try a style that is more serious and at the same time something that represents me as an artist. An observation that I've received that was interesting was that the shelves and the products didn't seem to be in the same place, that means the same language. Even tho that the shelves were black to make the focus go towards the products I understood that they didn't quite work together.

Next time ( if I do revisit the project ) I could bring the cartoon style that I have applied to the foods on the shelves to so everything can be more cohesive. But overall I was happy with my project, it definitely wasn't my favorite project but it was fun to make and the reaction of my colleges about it was very positive.

The majority thought that the game was educative and touched onto an important and present topic much discussed. I think that I've put some humor on this topic that I think is so important because our body is a temple and should be treated as such.

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Rules, Restrictions and Chance// June 14th - Thursday

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During the morning I made the “quotes” for each product and after that, I wrote them with a white posca pen on the supermarket shelf. I still wasn’t sure about what to use to stick my products, and then I decided to buy another cardboard to make it thicker so I could put a nail to fix the products. Then I fixed all of them.

After that, I was stuck without knowing what to do for the whole afternoon. The idea of making a video really brought me down, because I worked hard on my project and for me, that was enough, making the video was pointless. But since the day is not over yet, I will work on something simple to present tomorrow. Even tho my evening wasn’t successful for me, I tried to help a friend that was painting some paper boxes and it was relaxing to do.

I don't know what happened but today I was hit by an art block or this feeling of numbness and I just couldn't move forward and that is very frustrating.

I can't seem to find inspiration on anything and this is the first time that it happens during the Part 2, because I was determined to make everything but today is the day before the project's deadline and I still don't have a video of my game and I also am considering on not doing it but I know that I will do it anyway because I just can't deal with the idea of not doing it.

I know there is a huge duality inside of me lately and this is affecting my work and I am aware of this. I just get stuck on this vicious circle of procrastinating because I think that I can't do something but in reality I can. It is something that I have to practice

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Rules, Restrictions and Chance// June 12 - Tuesday

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I had to finish my drawings today so I made sure to do that as fast as I could. So that is what I did all morning and after finishing all of them I had to make the shelves where these products would be hanged. I bought this really thick cardboard in black and at first, I thought that I would make three shelves but I realized that maybe the products would be better displayed in only two shelves.

Later that day I decided to go back to the idea of using the three shelves because it really looked better that way and the products also had a bigger space to be displayed.

I also thought that was time to search for the quotes for the foods and I went to the Mac lab to do some research about them. I was shocked, especially with the fruit loops

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Rules, Restrictions and Chance // June 11 - Monday 

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I decided to change a little the idea of my project. It was difficult to develop the way it was ( with the song lyrics ). I was struggling to find things that would be rearranged and still make sense if they would get mixed up. So I thought about the real use of the products we buy and consume on a daily basis and I realized that many of them are damaging to our health and to the environment.

So my idea was making two supermarket shelves and make ten products and they would me all mixed up and under them will be written an awful and tragic consequence. The goal is for the person to find which product belongs to which cause.

I also chose the products today:
Froot Loops
Oil bottle
Tomatoes
Chicken
Straws
Cup Noodles
Beer
Plastic Bags

I have to admit that during the research I felt bad about consuming so many things that are damaging for me and nature. Vegetables that are so colorful , but because of pesticides and still we consume them. We ate meat full of hormones and WE KNOW THAT. I want to criticize

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Rules, Restrictions and Chance // June 8 - Friday

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I was very stuck on my project and I couldn't seem to move forward with it at all. During the morning session, I went to the Mac Lab to search for reference photos for the products. The morning session was a complete waste because I searched a lot of images for the products but I wasn't feeling connected to the project at all. I was also stuck on the way I would draw the products because I had to make at least 40 of them and that made me feel stressed about the schedule.

I often feel that making a plan of what to do useless, because I know that I will eventually change the rhythm of work. I decided to work on my Padlet instead, so I could make something productive out of my unproductiveness. I also tried to relax a little by looking at things and images that inspire me on a daily basis.

During the afternoon session, I talked to Michael about my work and I felt a sparkle of inspiration lighting up again. He gave me the idea of working on my sentences before working on the aesthetics of the products ( which are the last things I need to worry ). He also showed me some videos about supermarket competitions that inspired me to make my game based on also time.

After our conversation, I decided to use the Top 40 Hits of 2019 to form my sentences. And later I would rearrange them to form new lyrics.

LATER THAT SAME DAY:

I went to the supermarket later in the afternoon and took pictures of all the products that caught my attention somehow, because of color, shape, and material.

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Rules , Restrictions and Chance // June 7th

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Today I went to the studio with no ideas in mind, and for about an hour I was stuck in my work and I couldn't go forward. But all of a sudden while talking to one of my friends an idea struck me.

I had these visuals inside my head that I couldn't quite understand why it was inside my head. I imagined this supermarket lane, with the shelves full of products, but all of them have very vibrant colors, then I had things figured, at least the main concept.

The main idea was this supermarket shelf and people would take the products that have a blank space with a word written in it and form a crazy story with it. I also remembered of some reference from a music video that I watched by the singer Kali Uchis and the whole aesthetic of the music video make very inspired, also the vibrancy of the colors makes the objects look more appealing. Later today I drew some ideas of products like for example, canes of soup, cereal boxes, soda bottles etc.

I also think it could be interesting to use the canes for conjunctions like :
a, an, the, in, out etc.And the bigger products for more complex, bigger words. I am still not quite sure of how many products I will illustrate but maybe by tomorrow, I will have more ideas. This project is very challenging but I don't feel excited about doing it and I am not sure why. I think that I miss classes that would help students that make traditional art also, some techniques we could rely on from time to time and not only digital art.

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Rules , Restrictions and Chance // June 5th - Tuesday 

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Today we went to visit the Garoa Hacker Club near EBAC, where we learned about processing and computers. At first, I didn't understand much from what was being said since my knowledge about computers and processing is very limited.

But slowly I started to understand it and I felt like experimenting with processing. Not on this project of course cause, the time is short, but maybe for a new project. But in my opinion, it didn't help me at all for my project planning, and structure since my work is analog but it was interesting to have a different type of class.

I really liked to see how many things we could do with programing, even if it is a skill that I don't have I like to see people that have it do amazing things. I have to be honest, I felt curiosity in learning how to program but not right now, I can barely focus on to date skills that I have

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Today we had the grit during the morning session and I was very satisfied with the feedback that I got from my classmates and my teacher. They said many things about my work that I intended to show in my work.

The general overall opinion was that the use of black and white in all of the Illustrations was adequate because of the number of details present in the illustrations, adding colors could be a damaging choice for my work. The shading was well executed, having a balance between strong shading and soft shading. There is a dramatic touch to it that is very clear, and also the narrative was consistent, mostly because of the characters expressions, it was ( in their opinion) a heavy illustration.

It was heavy in the sense of having a present character development, storytelling, and development of the narrative that led to the end of the world, the project was contextualized. Also, the fact of research of the robot's mechanics was clear because it was precise. That made the audience wonder more about the story and also gives them what to look for. As much as the characters have cybernetic parts in them there is also something very human in them, there is a relationship between them, and that allows the viewer to connect with it.

It was almost moving, the drawing suggested movement and the characteristics responsible for that impression was the use of perspective, detailing and the subtle modification of the characters during the four illustrations that was gradual. The use of dynamic lines also gave that impression. Also, the female character seemed not to be enjoying the transformation as much as the male character, and it was also shown in a gradual way, because of her expression. It was clear that she was still very human.

The end of the humanity happened but nature was still around to take over. The use of details was well used, in all the right places the use of little characteristics was good. Something to work on is on the lack of details from the first two. But also the strong black details from the two last illustrations give more of a dramatic look and also helps to build up the climax. As the narratives go the drama increases.

I was satisfied with this crit because they said that I showed all of the characteristics above in my illustrations and it was everything that I wanted to transmit on my project and that made me happy, as an illustrator all I want to do is to make people feel something, think and relate to something.

But also think that I could do so much better with the last illustration number three. I wish I hadn't rushed it so much and had worked more on the shading and details. Overall I am proud of this project and I think I made an excellent work.

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Today I ran on time because I had to finish this project today. I couldn't come to EBAC or go to the graphics any other day. I had to finish the third drawing since I didn't do it yesterday. I was nervous and anxious about the time I had I had cause I knew that I couldn't bring my work on Wednesday to the printing shop. I worked really hard and fast in the third illustration and by 11:3 am I was finished with it.

As much as I was happy with it I still had one illustration to finish the whole project and I know my working rhythm tends to be slow because I want to make every single little detail perfect.

I don't know what happened but I made the third illustration REALLY fast, I started at 11:30 am and finished it at 14:50 pm and I just couldn't believe it. I think that the pressure and the last 20% that I had in my body made me work twice as hard and twice as fast.

After class ended I went to the printing shop and waited there for about 40 minutes and by 17:40 I had all of my drawings printed on A2 pages. My work was finally done and I realized that all the hours I spent drawing and all the hours I spent without sleeping were worth it.

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When I arrived at the studio today I knew that I needed to work really hard, time was short and I had to focus on my work. I started to sketch the drawing on the original watercolor paper because I couldn't afford to spend one more hours sketching the idea for this third illustration.

I drew everything the I had imagined inside my had and I was satisfied with it, especially with the man that I drew in the foreground of the illustration, I mostly draw female characters in my day a day so nailing down the anatomy for this male character and succeeding was a delightful surprise.

In my opinion I have to adventure myself more into drawing male characters, otherwise, I will never get out of my comfort zone ( in anatomy ). Later on the day I got home and I had to work but I was so tired that I decided not to work because I was so overwhelmed and tired. I could have taken a small break instead of not doing anything but at the time it was the best option for me.

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I finished my first illustration at 2:30 am today, and I started to work on my second illustration as soon as I woke up around 9:00 am. I had already sketched this illustration in my sketchbook so I was sure and confident on what to draw and I was excited to make a detailed illustration such as the first one. I decided to draw them out of the chronological order, I chose to draw what inspired me at the moment.

So, yesterday I did the 1st and today the 3rd in the storyline. I felt that my rhythm had slowed down a little and I was battling with this drawing, every time that I added a detail more would pop up and I felt that I would never finish it. I usually don't draw backgrounds, due to perspective and the feeling of rushing into finishing the drawing, but this time I was determined to make a background full of details and interesting to look at.

I kept on working but the feeling of infinity didn't leave, the characters that were in the foreground were done but the background was far from finished and I wanted to stop drawing because I was tired of the lack of sleep I had last night. But I relied on some tricks to keep me motivated, like listening to music that made me think of robots and machines.

The more details I added the more I liked the illustration, I enjoy to draw robots for some unknown reason. Maybe it has to do with the fact that sometimes I do feel like a machine. What I liked the most about drawing these two characters was that I made them from two different skin colors. Even in black and white, you can see that they're different but in a loving romantic relationship because the color of your skin doesn't matter, at least I wish that in the future it won't be an issue and treated like a tabu like it is nowadays, unfortunately.

I wanted to show that I feel like not only caucasian people should be represented in artworks because other people should also feel represented in the art, and art community and that is what art is all about, inclusion and saying something that people can relate or feel something about it.

I did an experimentation with nankin ink for the buildings in the background but my ink wasn't good because it was very old so I used a black marker and pen to cover it up and it turned out good. The illustration was done around 20:30 pm and I was very proud of it. In my opinion, I succeeded in transmitting emotions through the characters faces and environment.

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I started to work on the final illustrations only today because I couldn't quite decide the final versions of each drawing during the studio sessions this week. But I had the first, third and last on my mind. I decided to start with those two first and think about the other two later, otherwise, I would never start working, and I am glad I did, I would realize that at the end of the day. The first illustration ( also 1st in chronological order ) is about two young adults in a not so distant future, in this future people change some physical features for bionic ones so they can improve themselves

. They can possibly replace their arm if they wish to get better at a sport that requires moving your arm very precisely. Or maybe replace your eye with a bionic one so you won't ever have to wear glasses again, and so it goes. Simple things could be changed, mostly aesthetic wise. These two young adults are (in this illustration) sitting at a subway going somewhere.

Two things are clear; they have a romantic relationship and the boy feels very comfortable with his bionic body parts. On the other hand, the girl seems not comfortable with hers and seems very contained. In this illustration, I wanted to show this future but with elements that could be possible to actually happen, and also adding a normal everyday situation so it could be more reliable.

The problem I faced with this first drawing was the anatomy of the two characters sitting on the subway, I choose a picture as a reference but it was in a side angle so I had to adjust it so it would be a front way. It took me 30 minutes to figure out what was wrong with the anatomy but after that, I found a midterm that I was satisfied with.

I concluded that for the next project that involves illustration I shouldn't jump into hard perspectives or it could make less confident with my work. I can definitely practice anatomy and perspective drawing on a daily basis so it won't be such a difficulty in the future and that will allow me to experiment more with my illustrations.

I used this picture as a reference but I decided to change the position of the woman's legs so it could be seen as a front way, and I also changed the arms of the men and the woman to show better the robotic parts I later added to the illustration. I finally finished the first illustration as 2:30 Am ( Sunday )

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I played a lot with perspective and the idea of not having the illustrations set in stone. I tried to imagine my characters in other environments. Because during the session today I was stuck on drawing the same things that mean, I was sketching on the same sketchbook page this drawing I had made of a boy half human half cyborg that I had sketched yesterday and liked that sketch a lot so I was reluctant on moving to the other illustrations.

I was also starting to think about things that I had previously decided and started to doubt myself about them. I had decided to make all of my illustrations in an A4 paper because I knew that I would get all over the place if I did all of my drawings in A2. It would cost me hours and so many art supplies. Also, making everything grand scale can make the perspective notion and anatomy go a little off.

After debating that in my head I knew that I had made the right decision and I was glad because I know me to the point that even tho I want to make something big and impactful I know my limits, my strengths and weaknesses
so more and more I'm trying to make smart and effective decisions when it comes to my work. But I know there is still a long way to go for sure.

I talked to my teacher and she suggested me to start sketching the four scenes for the illustrations or I'll lose some precious time of my project by doodling on my sketchbook. So I stopped doodling and tried to plan my illustrations. That planning didn't last long cause I got bored of it. Then my teacher suggested as I mentioned earlier, to play with paper cut characters and then play with them for a while and it made me feel looser.

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Today I came to the studio and I wasn't feeling inspired at all to work, and I didn't know why. And I sketched a bit trying to feel inspired but I just couldn't do anything. I went to the Mac lab to search for images to feel inspired. I searched for images on Pinterest of robots, cyborgs, and everything that had to do with my theme. And I came across this picture of what it seems to be a digital illustration and what made me feel interested about it was the expression on her face.

She seems worried and at the same time upset. Also, she doesn't have any trace of human skin but her face still looks human. Also, the engines were interesting because I have always been interested in robots and how they work. It makes me think a lot about animation and movement and I really want to bring this into my project.

I don't want to make stiff illustrations, especially when I mostly draw people. Also, it is my chance to make a full illustration with background and a lot of details. I want to challenge myself and push some of my restrictions and boundaries cause I know that I am capable of doing this. I also watched videos about robots that are very close to look like real human beings and I have to admit that I didn't like it at all, I find the idea of creating robots that is so strange to me. It is scary actually

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End Of The World // May 23rd - Wednesday

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End Of The World // May 23rd - Wednesday

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Today I went to the studio in the morning to have a session with Carlos. It was very helpful because I knew that I could get deeper into my reflection but I didn't know how to. One of the many things I've learned during today's session was NOTHING IS OBVIOUS, that means, read the brief as much as you need, and if you are telling something or reflecting tell why you did things and how you solved your problems. And there is no such thing as a bad day, you can always reflect on what you could have done better.

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I finally decided that my project will have an End of the world focused on the cybernetic development and how it can affect the human race in a negative way if we take it too far.For an example, changing body parts in order to enhance your performance or just to look "Good", I can easily see humanity doing this in a couple of years.If it becomes something on trend people would definitely do in order to fit in and be cool, without even if it wasn't necessary.I realized that is very common with humans having this necessity of enhance their bodies in order to look perfect but, is it worth it? and also, what is being perfect ?

We are constantly trying to achieve the perfect look, the perfect skills , perfect friends and love, but there is no such thing as perfect.And as obvious as it seems we understand  that as we grow up and face real challenges  and we stop comparing each other and focus in our own beings.

I decided to use this as the main idea of this project and make a series of illustrations that explain this narrative and that hopefully people can relate and learn something from it.I would also like to think about my characters and how the interact with each other, I want to make them in a romantic relationship and draw it gradually falling apart and show how it could actually happen to a real relationship.

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By the imagery that I have researched, I just gathered a lot of inspiration for my project. I am still not quite sure of how I will exactly make my illustrations I think that I am going to mix photography with digital art like Jamie Hewlett does in his work. It is an option, I think that mixing the two media can make an interesting outcome, because of the difference between the two of them I think it will get the attention of the watcher.

It will also be a challenge for me since is something very different from what I do and this way I would practice my digital art skills.

In my opinion, while making an illustration is important to remember about the lighting, it can strongly set a tone to the drawing only by the light.

It also important to think of the colors used to execute the drawings, since colors are associated with feelings and states of mind. The details are also very important cause you to have to know what is enough to add before you lose the meaning/purpose of the illustration.

I learned that I could loosen up my trace a little bit so my drawing can have more fluidity and movement. Usually, my drawings tend to be a little stiff and not very dynamic so I want to work on that for this project. Perspective is something that haunts me since the beginning of times and exact things tend to scare me cause I have on the back of my mind that feeling that I can't draw something perfectly symmetric.

And that couldn't be farther from the truth, but I do have to practice in order to make my illustrations for this project. What I could have done better today during our session was not caring about my drawings looking perfect.

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I started to make some research today for the project. I didn't feel inspired by the artists on the briefing,beacause while looking at those illustrations I didn’t get the message of the project very clearly. And I thought that it was vague in a way, so I couldn’t imagine right away what I could do for my work. but when I searched for the illustrators/Illustrations that inspire me really changed my perspective on the work. I searched for works that challenged me, for example, the use of perspective

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CRIT: Today me and my group received the feedback from our project. And it was what I expected it to be, but not as harsh. Everything that was said in the crit was true, and I agreed with almost everything, especially about the group as a whole. See as I have mentioned here before, my group didn't click on the very first day and unfortunately, it got worse during the two weeks duration of this project. And it started to fall apart slowly because ( I think ) of the lack of interest in the project by some group members.

I can't say that I have done everything by myself OF COURSE but I have done plenty of things for this project. The bigger problem of all of this is that because of the lacking of ANY interest of one group member the tasks that were once divided between us were all staked in two, and eventually three. But even with all of this mess, I was glad to go back to digital art after almost two years. I definitely learned that you can't always rely on people when it comes to group work.

I always have to work on my part, so that guarantees more stability in the group. And that is what I did. I wish I could have done more but at least I had the chance to work more on Photoshop and develop my skills. I felt that I should get more in control of things the next time I get in a group project.

LATER THAT SAME DAY:

I had a chat with other two group members about all of our struggles and we got to the conclusion that we won't get affected by the problems we had during the project and if we do want to change something about what we did we have to do it now on our own (individually).

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When I came to the studio me and my group mates were a little all over the place. Since the beginning of the second week, things weren't so great and the group wasn't working as one. And eventually, things started to build up and all of the divided were pilled up.

I came to the studio very retardedly, because having to worry about things that weren't supposed to be my part is frustrating and stressing. But what bothered me the most was the feeling that I had of letting this particular group partner disappointed, I know that he works hard on each project he makes and I could see his disappointment face during the week and I felt bad for him.

He and I discussed a lot about our graphics score, I tried to help him more with the concept rather the execution cause he wanted to make something digital, which I am not very good at (yet). I think that the person that I talked more with was him because I knew that he was taking this project seriously. Today I was all over the place and I was only thinking about the crit and our feedback, I didn't know what I was supposed to do. Then it was suggested to make an alternative version of our background just to see and compare with the one in the animation.

I started it and in 2 hours I was done with it and I felt proud of it, it was the fastest digital drawing that I have ever made. I had the line art that one of the group members did and I just traced it and added colors shades, textures. I was satisfied with the result and so were my group colleges.

Finally, our animation was done after lunch time and I was relieved, of course, it wasn,t what we wanted since the beginning but I was glad at least we had something to present and that I did my best.

The graphics score was also done and printed, so all we had to do was organize our table. And that was easy, I was happy that this project was FINALLY done.

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We started the day in the Mac Lab to get started with the animation and apparently it seemed easy to do. The line art of the drawing that made was very simple. I worked the whole day on the Mac Lab so I could start with the animation I took a picture of my cactus drawing and opened it in photoshop and started to do the cleanup and after that, I started coloring.

I wanted initially to make a lot of details on the cactus drawing but after I had a lot of layers done I realized that it would be hard to make changes on it if it was needed, and it was. For the animation, I had to move the right arm of the cactus because it would be hard to animate it the position it was before so I lifted it up.

And with that, I decided to reduce some layers of details to make things easier even tho I wanted to let it that way. It worked out great after the changes.

LATER THE SAME DAY:

I went back home and I worked really hard to the all the prompts so one of my group members could make the animation better. I drew the cactus static and three other arms for each and the torso had two more drawings so it could shake from left to right. I sent it one hour later all colored.

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I set a goal this morning, which was trying to organize my group's dynamic but that feeling disappeared after a few minutes. In the first twenty minutes of our class, there was only me and another group member. The other two were missing, and that made me overthink things and trying to organize all the tasks of the whole group of (four) for two people. I felt pressure because obviously because the ideal situation is to have all the group members together.

But my partner and I shake it off and started to work. We divided each other tasks. He went to mac lab to edit our song and make all the last adjustments and I started to work on ideas for our animation video. I struggled a lot with the computer tools and I was quite stuck on trying to use the software more time than actually animating something. One of the other colleges in my group came to class shortly after.

After that things seemed to work for the best because even with a person absent we tried our best to make things work for the whole time. We decided to make a simple animation for our video and as a group, we chose a cactus as our animated object and main object. Based on my previous commentary I had made about the song bringing me a desert sort of vibe.
I sketched a few ideas until we decided which one to use for the final outcome. But there was something bothering me the whole day; the fact that I still have so much to learn about photoshop and other software in general, and I was frustrated with the lack of understanding I have with those and I wanted to help my other two colleges now that our group was smaller by a person.

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The problem of the recording was the recording was obviously the high pitched flute that messed the whole song up. I got anxious about it a little because we didn't want to record the whole song again. We tried to edit the song again but none of us knew how to fix it, so we had to admit that recording the song again with all instruments in different channels would be better for the song.

We took the time we had to rerecord the song all over again. One of the group members wasn't available so we recorded percussion and the "guitar" so we had practically the whole song in our hands

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Group recording of the song:
I had my instrument done and for the first time, my group got together to play for the first time our group dynamic. I was impressed by the instrument of one of my colleges, it was so well crafted. It made me think about how I still stay in my comfort zone during projects, and I should observe even more how my friends solve the same problems I have ( projects wise ).

The group dynamics started quite strange, I felt that everybody was holding back and not expressing what they really wanted to say and do. This feeling stuck with me for the whole day. In the evening we went to the Mac Lab to edit our song but the flute was oddly higher than the other instruments and later I realized that it would be impossible to edit ONLY the flute sound because we had recorded the song in only one take

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I bought two PVC pipes of 1 meter today morning. On was bigger so I could slide the smaller inside of it. My idea was/ is, making holes on the bigger pipe, like a flute, so when I added the smaller pipe into de other it would fill the holes and the sound would come out. Unfortunately, it didn't turn out as good as I imagined or drew on my sketchbook. The sound that came out of my instrument wasn't very loud and clear, but I was determined to finish it anyway because it is better to have one finished piece than having none.

I liked to cut the holes on the bigger pipe cause I had never used a tool to do so before, it was a learning experience and it was actually quite amusing and easy once I nailed down all the marks. I always see my classmates using mechanical tools to do their projects but I always felt intimidated by the idea of hurting myself or ruining my work by not being careful enough or not knowing how to use the tool. I also limed the excess of material once I made the holes and clung the pipe.

Once I did that I decided to paint it to see how it would look like, so I sprayed black paint on it to make it cleaner. It turned out great cause the ink stuck to the material very well and the ink was mat.

After this I realized that maybe the pipe wasn’t producing a loud sound because the inside pipe was small to the point of letting a small space of difference, meaning, the smaller pipe didn’t properly cover the other pipe’s holes.

To experiment I tried to add some layers of craft paper around the smaller pipe so I could have an idea of how my instrument would sound like if everything was in its right place. The paper made things harder cause it didn’t slide quite as nice as it did before the craft paper. I understood later that the paper actually blocks the sound from vibrating.

Towards the end of the day, I experimented with different materials that could be used to tap on the bigger piper.

These materials were:

-Wood piece
-Acetate ( plastic surface )
-Shoe (Leopoldo's shoe)

LATER ON THE SAME DAY:
I came across this video that a colleague sent me of a men making a flute from a pic pipe. So I sketched a littlest about that so I could have a rough idea of what to do. Later I went to a store and bought the materials I needed. Also realized that my first instrument wasn’t a failure, it did make a sound so I decided to keep it as my main instrument, the flute its just an extra outcome.

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During the morning we had the presentation of our researchers. It’s was nice to see how different everyone researchers were. Eugenio and I had a artist research in common, we researched about Barney Bubbles, but we spotted different things and most interestingly enough, we chose the same work.

He associated the album cover Mango Crazy electronic music because of the glitches in the design. I associated it with Bauhaus artist Lazlo Moholy-Nagy's. I think his opinion is valid and something that I hadn't notice before so it is something to pay attention too. The presentations of the researchers were 5 minutes long so I wish that in the future I could have more time to explain what I had researched, I had so many things to say and everything was compressed in 5 short minutes. Its hard to talk evenly about the 3 references and I felt that my favorite analysis was about the " Do I wanna know?' music video by the British band Arctic Monkeys. The music video was made by the artist David Wilson.

This video got my attention for numerous reasons being; Arctic Monkeys being one of my favorite bands because they have a unique style and it's refreshing how they reinvented themselves as a band when they released their last album AM back in 2013. They have a strong presence when performing and their visual identity is different from things we see out there and that is why I think they are successful as a band and as a whole. What also drove me to analyze this video was the song itself; the beat and the guitar riffs from Do I Wanna Know? are iconic. The visual language was a consequence of a well-made song, the interesting details of it gave David Wilson the material to work on and complete this body of work.
The simplicity of colors is something that has to be taken into consideration. I tend to think that the more the better when in fact, you can make an excellent, precise work with only a few elements. What matters is the effectiveness of your work, more than putting layers and layers of details ( only when is pertinent of course). This is a clear example of what I said.
The visuals blend smoothly with the song and the combination makes it enjoyable to watch. Overall I was thrilled to analyze this body of work with a critic look and not of a fan look.
The last piece I analyzed was a painting by Harumi Hironaka. She is one of my favorite artists because she brings so much expression and feeling into her work and that is what I aim to do with mine, bring emotions. I choose a painting called "Dysphoria" and in this painting, there is a girl screaming with this angst expression on her face. I felt connected to it by her expression, by the colors but mostly because I could hear her screaming while looking at it. Hironaka made a clever use of colors for this piece

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I had this very productive conversation on Friday evening with this artist called Christopher, he works with sound engineering and we discussed this project for a couple of hours. I told him about my initial ideas about it, of the pipes instrument and he found it a good idea. But I had found my idea a bit dull and I told him that I was open to suggestions so my work could be more interesting to play but also to hear. I was finding my idea dull because it seemed like a sort of simple idea, what by now on into stage two I know that sometimes less is more.

Anyhow, I didn't put my idea acid completely, I just needed some guidance on the mater. I find it always important to ask for other people's opinions and references because I can always add that information to my own personal projects. We discussed the instrument being off key (not having a proper key like all instruments) but just making a sound, that was enough. We made an experimentation with a hard paper tube ( of transparent wrapping paper ) and made a hole in a side of it, and tried to blow in the upper part of the tube to simulate if some sort of sound would come from it. It didn't. Then Christopher held a piece of plastic in front of the hole, half of it first it didn't but after a couple of tries, a shrill sound came from it. So I considered maybe making holes on my pipes after this little experiment. I also talked about maybe adding water into the pipes but that made me question if the water would block the sound if the pipe was made of PVC , maybe I could experiment ( in a smaller scale) with PVC and metal pipes so I could hear the differences of both of them and then make a choice I what material I could use for my instrument in the final version.

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After reading the briefing I am thinking a lot about my instrument. And something that I am thinking is what kind of instrument I want to build a strings instruments or a percussion instrument. I searched for tons of videos that could inspire me.

The briefing made me feel very optimistic because I have a very close connection with music, being a musician myself. I like to see instruments out of the conventional and that give music a special effect, being an analog instrument or electronic. People have this prejudice over electronic instruments and effects, like if they weren't as good as the traditional ones. That is due because of the overuse of these tools in the music industry